Drinking the Salty Wine tomorrow

[Asatsuyu]

Hi! As the title says, I'm going to ctb with SN tomorrow.

I'm not good at goodbye posts at all so Im not entirely sure what to say, but I would like to thank everyone here for sharing their stories, feelings, and methods as its been a huge help for me.

Over the past month or so I've written various goodbye letters to my loved ones, since I know they're going to blame themselves I tried my best to reassure them all individually that there was nothing they could do, and that although they wont understand me, it was my decision and Im happy with it.
I made sure to not apologize either, since they might feel bad they cant tell me its okay or anything. Instead I told them I know this is something they wouldve never wanted, and its okay for them to feel bad, and I reminded them of some memories we've shared that meant alot to me

I've also spend alot of time throwing out old junk and cleaning my apartment, I've prepared all papers they might need in one place as well.

I'll also be leaving behind my boyfriend of 2.5 years, who I dearly hope won't suffer too much once he reads my suicide note.

Anyway, this was my goodbye-rambling, Ill answer any questions I can until I drank the salty wine!
Also, this is my decision and it's what I've wanted to do for a long time, so please don't say sorry it's come to this or whatever


EDIT 1: Just wanted to add I got my sn from IC, should've added that from the start xD also I got meto from a source given to me by another member

 

[Spyro24]

I've only known you for a short time but you've already helped me so much and I can't thank you enough! I hope you find your peace and who knows, maybe I'll see you in the afterlife someday.

 

[wielkiwrobel]

 

[Yumeko.dreams]

Make sure to tell us if it fails. Though, it has a good track record.
Make sure you won't be found, parents and boyfriends finding you are a good way to be sent to the E.R.

 

[Asatsuyu]

Make sure to tell us if it fails. Though, it has a good track record.
Make sure you won't be found, parents and boyfriends finding you are a good way to be sent to the E.R.

Thank you for your concern :3 I live alone, and its my vacation currently so none will be looking for me. Im gonna have a delayed email notify everyone on Thursday, more than 24 hours after Im supposed to be gone

 

[Hope:-)]

Lots of love to you xxx

 

[CemetryGates]

Much love to you, i'm sorry life has driven you to this point. I hope you find peace

 

[Asatsuyu]

Much love to you, i'm sorry life has driven you to this point. I hope you find peace

Dont be sorry! Im not. I'm very lucky to have the option to choose when and how Im going, this is my decision and Im happy with my choice

 

[lionetta12]

Hi! As the title says, I'm going to ctb with SN tomorrow.

I'm not good at goodbye posts at all so Im not entirely sure what to say, but I would like to thank everyone here for sharing their stories, feelings, and methods as its been a huge help for me.

Over the past month or so I've written various goodbye letters to my loved ones, since I know they're going to blame themselves I tried my best to reassure them all individually that there was nothing they could do, and that although they wont understand me, it was my decision and Im happy with it.
I made sure to not apologize either, since they might feel bad they cant tell me its okay or anything. Instead I told them I know this is something they wouldve never wanted, and its okay for them to feel bad, and I reminded them of some memories we've shared that meant alot to me

I've also spend alot of time throwing out old junk and cleaning my apartment, I've prepared all papers they might need in one place as well.

I'll also be leaving behind my boyfriend of 2.5 years, who I dearly hope won't suffer too much once he reads my suicide note.

Anyway, this was my goodbye-rambling, Ill answer any questions I can until I drank the salty wine!
Also, this is my decision and it's what I've wanted to do for a long time, so please don't say sorry it's come to this or whatever


EDIT 1: Just wanted to add I got my sn from IC, should've added that from the start xD also I got meto from a source given to me by another member

Good luck to you, I hope things work out the way you want them to and that everything goes smoothly.

 

[1000winds]

i wish you all the best

 

[GasMonkey]

See you on the Other Side.

 

[Ullalulla]

Good luck! How are u spending your last Day?

 

[StarlightDreamer]

Best of luck, love.

May we meet again, in a better life.

 

[befree]

I'm surprised you want to leave so suddenly. I'm glad that the info you received was helpful and that you got everything you needed without any problems.
I wish you a peaceful journey.

 

[FuneralCry]

I can imagine that it must be a relief to be at peace with your decision. I hope that you find freedom from your suffering. Best wishes.

 

[Asatsuyu]

Good luck! How are u spending your last Day?

Ah great question! Im gonna spend time with my friends and cat, and in the evening Ill have my weekly phone call with my mom, and then at midnight Ill drink my salty wine and listen to music until I pass out

I'm surprised you want to leave so suddenly. I'm glad that the info you received was helpful and that you got everything you needed without any problems.
I wish you a peaceful journey.

I can see how it might be surprising, but Ive actually been planning this for a bit over a month :o Thankyu!

 

[Hiraeth Grimoire]

I wish you good luck with your decision and an eternity of freedom fellow sufferer. I intend to follow suit shortly, and perhaps we will meet on the other side or on another trip around the wheel!

 

[Asatsuyu]

I wish you good luck with your decision and an eternity of freedom fellow sufferer. I intend to follow suit shortly, and perhaps we will meet on the other side or on another trip around the wheel!

I wish you all the luck and support you deserve as well, regardless of what you do!

 

[pris]

Good luck. You will be at peace.

 

[Dead Meat]

Even though you've only been here a short time,just know we all Love you and wish you the very best for you.

 

[Theanswer]

May your exit be peaceful, with love and comfort.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I hope things get better for you and you find the peace you deserve.

 

[Asatsuyu]

Hello! Just want to let everyone know it's now about 5 minutes until I'm gonna drink my sn. I don't have anything to mask the taste, but I hope I'll be fine squeezing my nose closed and placing the glass as far back in my mouth as I can. Will update after if I can

 

[Theanswer]

Hello! Just want to let everyone know it's now about 5 minutes until I'm gonna drink my sn. I don't have anything to mask the taste, but I hope I'll be fine squeezing my nose closed and placing the glass as far back in my mouth as I can. Will update after if I can

Holding you in my thoughts @Asatsuyu We're here.

 

[Asatsuyu]

Did not taste great

 

[Theanswer]

Did not taste great

How are you doing?

 

[sadpinky]

the hard part is done, lay back and relax.
peace be with you

 

[Lily (Osako)]

Hello! Just want to let everyone know it's now about 5 minutes until I'm gonna drink my sn. I don't have anything to mask the taste, but I hope I'll be fine squeezing my nose closed and placing the glass as far back in my mouth as I can. Will update after if I can

Wishing you peace.

 

[madebrief]

Did not taste great

At least it's been drunk. It is salty wine after all.

 

[sadpinky]

RIP