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applepie

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Aug 10, 2026
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Hello,
I plan to SFH and I was thinking about drinking some alcohol before doing so - to get rid of SI and generally be in a more muddled state of mind.

The problem is that I am a non-drinker, so I have no idea how much alcohol would do the trick. Would 200 ml of 37.5% vodka be enough? Or do you have any alcohol recommendations? I am female, 158 cm, around 60 kg (I hope it's okay to post this here?).

I want something that I don't need to drink a lot of to get drunk, since I want to avoid pissing myself :)

I will probably stop eating one day before and stop drinking liquids a few hours before CTBing. I would of course prepare all the setup before drinking the alcohol.
Any idea how long does it take until the alcohol starts working and how long does the effect last?


I don't have any drugs available. Would consuming any over-the-counter meds help with getting in such state? (I have no interest in ODing, just to get me into more hazy state or something). I have one 0.25 mg pill of Neurol (a benzodiazepine?), but it's my mom's so idk about using it and if it would even have any effect.
 
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Hello,
I plan to SFH and I was thinking about drinking some alcohol before doing so - to get rid of SI and generally be in a more muddled state of mind.

The problem is that I am a non-drinker, so I have no idea how much alcohol would do the trick. Would 200 ml of 37.5% vodka be enough? Or do you have any alcohol recommendations? I am female, 158 cm, around 60 kg (I hope it's okay to post this here?).

I want something that I don't need to drink a lot of to get drunk, since I want to avoid pissing myself :)

I will probably stop eating one day before and stop drinking liquids a few hours before CTBing. I would of course prepare all the setup before drinking the alcohol.
Any idea how long does it take until the alcohol starts working and how long does the effect last?


I don't have any drugs available. Would consuming any over-the-counter meds help with getting in such state? (I have no interest in ODing, just to get me into more hazy state or something). I have one 0.25 mg pill of Neurol (a benzodiazepine?), but it's my mom's so idk about using it and if it would even have any effect.
i am not sure about over the counter but you can get dxm and some similar drugs off the shelf at a lot of places and it can help.
 
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applepie

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i am not sure about over the counter but you can get dxm and some similar drugs off the shelf at a lot of places and it can help.
I've looked online. There are pills where 1 pill contains 15 mg of dxm and 500 mg of paracetamol. There is also a syrup which contains 7.5 mg of dxm per 5 ml. Any of it worth it? Or are the doses to small? There are no other options of dxm in my country.
 
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Dxm is a terrible idea for that purpose.
When it does work it impairs your movements, can make you feel like robot and disorganised. It would be way way easier to fuck up the setup.

It could be good for depression though, as it is non-selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor, nmda antagonist and dissociative.

In low doses you probably wouldn't feel these effects, but also any other, do why take it at all.


For non-alcie amount of alcohol that helps would be 50 - 100 ml. More than that is only make it harder for you.
I would apply the rule "the less, the better", probably a few sips just minutes before the deed, or straight before.
 
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no NOT take dxm when it is mixed with another medication. Only use pure dxm. The doses of the dxm to cause a high are often much lower than the dosage of the other medication that will get you in the hospital.
I've looked online. There are pills where 1 pill contains 15 mg of dxm and 500 mg of paracetamol. There is also a syrup which contains 7.5 mg of dxm per 5 ml. Any of it worth it? Or are the doses to small? There are no other options of dxm in my country.
yeah it can cause impairment at high doses too. at lower ones it can slow thought though.
 
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I will probably stop eating one day before and stop drinking liquids a few hours before CTBing.
If you are trying to avoid making a mess, this is not going to do it. It takes 2-3 days for food to move through your intestines and your kidneys will constantly make urine unless you are excessively dehydrated. Also, alcohol makes you pee more. It is very difficult to not make some sort of mess when you die and it us perfectly natural and normal.
 
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applepie

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If you are trying to avoid making a mess, this is not going to do it. It takes 2-3 days for food to move through your intestines and your kidneys will constantly make urine unless you are excessively dehydrated. Also, alcohol makes you pee more. It is very difficult to not make some sort of mess when you die and it us perfectly natural and normal.
I would like to avoid mess, yes. I'm also thinking about taking laxatives/enema. Or perhaps fasting for one more day? My current plan is fasting roughly 36 hours before (last solid food 50 hours before, and then smoothie max 36 hour before). But I am aware that it can still (and probably will) happen, but I can at least try, I guess. Unless there are any tips for that? Sorry for the nasty topic, lol.

Also, that's why I'm still unsure whether or not to drink the alcohol before.
Dxm is a terrible idea for that purpose.
When it does work it impairs your movements, can make you feel like robot and disorganised. It would be way way easier to fuck up the setup.

It could be good for depression though, as it is non-selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor, nmda antagonist and dissociative.

In low doses you probably wouldn't feel these effects, but also any other, do why take it at all.


For non-alcie amount of alcohol that helps would be 50 - 100 ml. More than that is only make it harder for you.
I would apply the rule "the less, the better", probably a few sips just minutes before the deed, or straight before.

I'm an absolute pussy when it comes to taking any medications, so I most likely won't take anything. I will probably aim for about the 50-100 ml of alcohol and hopefully it will make things a bit easier.
 
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