Venting drifting away

[80d1mebag$$$]

i can feel myself disassociating more and more. ive hardly talked to any of my friends as of recent except for my girlfriend and i feel so extremely guilty about it, sometimes i even get irritated when someone messages me. i can hardly remember anything good thats happened in the past few weeks and all my memory is just a compilation of blurs. ive gotten to a point where i feel detatched from my body and im just watching a stranger perform every day tasks from the third person. my ability to make friends has always been pretty shit because im a naturally really clingy person and that tends to turn ppl off to being my friend, but now its getting even worse. im starting to sink even more into this hole ive created of myself and i notice myself yearning death more and more throughout the days. everything just feels so hopeless and i feel such unimaginable guilt whenever i look in the face of those who care about me.

ugh

 

[squidsponge]

It happens to the best of us. You need a support system that is okay with how clingy you are. I am also the same but even I don't know where to get that.
Why do you feel guilt? Is it because of feelings of wanting to die