Dreamt I ctb by sn

[decayingangel]

Today I had a dream I committed by sn.
I don't remember much, except taking it and after a bit I started feeling drowsy and dizzy. My heart was racing and it made me panic. Then I realised I was dying I guess? and panic started to morf into some sort of calmness and relief.
I think someone was there with me and argued with me ab what I've done(?) not sure about that though.
I woke up after I passed out in the dream and I thought I actually died for a moment until I realised nope it didn't happen and not gonna lie I was so disappointed. I wish it was real I don't want to be here anymore.

 

[Aflame5926]

that maybe also you are busy with it that you have it in your dream.

were you really disappointed that it didnt happen or were you also a bit relieved it didnt happen?
just curious

 

[GremlinCan56]

Today I had a dream I committed by sn.
I don't remember much, except taking it and after a bit I started feeling drowsy and dizzy. My heart was racing and it made me panic. Then I realised I was dying I guess? and panic started to morf into some sort of calmness and relief.
I think someone was there with me and argued with me ab what I've done(?) not sure about that though.
I woke up after I passed out in the dream and I thought I actually died for a moment until I realised nope it didn't happen and not gonna lie I was so disappointed. I wish it was real I don't want to be here anymore.

I had a similar dream. But it was like someone giving it to me in inhaler form.

And I also felt every stage of losing oxygen and consciousness, not painful but very surreal and trippy.

 

[decayingangel]

that maybe also you are busy with it that you have it in your dream.

were you really disappointed that it didnt happen or were you also a bit relieved it didnt happen?
just curious

Yeah probably, suicide's practically only thing on my mind for the past month especially after i figured out with how I want to go.
In the dream I remember feeling scared kind of like "omg it's really happening what have I done" but then everything started to get foggy and I was relieved it's finally the end of everything. I suppose it was more of "im glad it's finally over but I wish I didn't have to resort to such a thing"?
Then I woke i was really confused I thought it really happened. When I realised it didn't I was disappointed im alive but also relieved because the dream itself was a bit spooky. It was weird to see myself die from third person perspective but also fully feeling the experience. So I guess a bit of both?

I had a similar dream. But it was like someone giving it to me in inhaler form.

And I also felt every stage of losing oxygen and consciousness, not painful but very surreal and trippy.

That's interesting. Yeah it was very trippy but quite realistic to me. I didn't feel any pain either just the racing heart and panic