Venting Dream last day

[ImNotReal]

Mostly just feel awful and wanna fantasize

I'll buy the gun from the pawn shop down the street. Hopefully a handgun. It's cold so I can wear my giant ass jacket. Walk to the McDonald's dumpster. I can dispose of any wrappings and shit there. Cameras will just see me enter and leave. Hide gun in jacket when I get to the cameras at home.

Once I have the gun, I'll wake up the next morning. Probably smoke something, weed and a cigeratte. Play games I enjoy. Probably a few hours of yume 2kki on ynoproject. I'll win a game of balatro lol. I'll go out and buy weed gummies. Make sure to eat something good. At around 12 I'll leave the house. Beforehand I'll make a comment to mom about wanting to go on a walk at night because I like the cold or something.

I'll walk out into the nearby woods. I'll probably have music on in my headphones. Loud music. Aggressive music. I'll walk for about 30 minutes. Then I'll play In the aeroplane over the sea in its entirety while just like. Walking around. I wanna get completely lost just. I wanna explore to my hearts content.

If I have any signal I'll send my final goodbyes to Viv and Maya and all my other friends. If not then, whatever. They'll find out I killed myself eventually.

At the end of two headed boy pt2, when Jeff puts down his guitar. I wanna shoot myself then. I wanna hear that then shoot myself I want to just let my mind and eyes and body wander one last time and then I will shoot myself

 

[WallTermite]

Think carefully.

 

[tapetum_lucidum]

My ideal scenario would never happen. I would want to play YNOproject with all the friends I made there one more time. I would want to hang out with some friends irl. Later play some jackbox and among us with them on discord. Be drunk the entire time. Spend some time with my cat, And then pass away in my sleep.