Doomed pair struck by NYC subway... why did this story affect me so much?

[JealousOfTheElderly]

This morning I read a story that shook me to the core.

Doomed pair struck by NYC subway may have been so disoriented they didn’t hear oncoming train: sources

A doomed man and woman who were fatally struck by a train while sitting on the tracks may have been so wasted they didn’t realize until too late that a train was barreling down on them.

nypost.com

I watched the unedited video on X. They were just sitting there holding hands. The train conductor said the girl was laughing and pulled the guy close to her right before they were hit. I don't know their motivations because no suicide note was found but it seemed like a pact that was made? Holding hands? Holding each other close laughing up until the very end?

It got me thinking.... how much pain would my suicide cause others? I don't know this young couple and the story disturbed me. Left me very emotional and sad. It made me rethink if I want to take my life.

If this wasn't a suicide pact, then they were so blitzed that they couldn't react to moving out of the way of a speeding train? (Death was instant.)

I just wanted to post this here because you are the only community that understands this. The story wasn't supposed to move me. But it did. I grieve for strangers and I don't know why.

 

[DoomsdayCTB]

I haven't really been here in a few weeks. I came here instantly and thought "suicide x" and where people find p@rtn3rs. Being as cryptic as I can in case there are underage or bereaving parents here. I thought to myself 'My God, they finally/actually did it" since SaSu seems to call it as a non-method. I saw a few comments separately on TT saying it looked like she was trying to help him, and laughing. As if there was time. At the public's angle, there wasn't. Don't look up that video if you're curious (I was trying to see why SaSu sees it as a non-method; I usually don't look at gore). It's an immediate mulldown. No blood thank goodness. A lot of horrible unusual deaths have been making the news lately and making me wonder if it was intentional/psychotic breakdown?

Maybe it has affected you deeper because it was 2 people, holding each other.? Initially reported as a couple. We're not meant to see things like this. But if you think it's not your time, that is something to hug yourself for. Go do some exciting things you haven't done yet. Get a good night's rest. I hope you are in recovery from this moment on.

 

[JealousOfTheElderly]

I haven't really been here in a few weeks. I came here instantly and thought "suicide x" and where people find p@rtn3rs. Being as cryptic as I can in case there are underage or bereaving parents here. I thought to myself 'My God, they finally/actually did it" since SaSu seems to call it as a non-method. I saw a few comments separately on TT saying it looked like she was trying to help him, and laughing. As if there was time. At the public's angle, there wasn't. Don't look up that video if you're curious (I was trying to see why SaSu sees it as a non-method; I usually don't look at gore). It's an immediate mulldown. No blood thank goodness. A lot of horrible unusual deaths have been making the news lately and making me wonder if it was intentional/psychotic breakdown?

Maybe it has affected you deeper because it was 2 people, holding each other.? Initially reported as a couple. We're not meant to see things like this. But if you think it's not your time, that is something to hug yourself for. Go do some exciting things you haven't done yet. Get a good night's rest. I hope you are in recovery from this moment on.

Yes, you are right that a lot of horrible unusual deaths have been making the news rounds and for some reason, they are being posted unfiltered on mainstream social media. We aren't meant to see things like these as you said. It really affected me and shook me. I don't even know them. I will take this as a sign that I need to reevaluate things in my life. To that point, I am doing better. I have my days and my ups and downs.

Thank you for your kind words. Your message meant a lot to me, my friend.