Don't want to wait anymore.

[mold]

I set up so much to CTB during Easter in April, and now that I prepared everything I just can't wait anymore. I wish it was tomorrow. It's not like I needed to plan anything at all, but a part of me feels weird for wanting to go against the one thing I did for myself. I'm always doing things and existing for other people but now I don't have to. My plans were actually really nice and peaceful, and I paid for it all myself, but now I feel like I don't even deserve that nice of an ending, and I'm heavily considering just CTB tomorrow.

Idk if I want encouragement to wait until then or if anyone has other stories or anything at all, really. I'm just kind of yelling into the void rn at 5am.

 

[geepeedee]

You deserve as nice of an ending as possible. Whether that's tmw or later is up to you.

 

[Passenger4224]

Experiencing similar feelings right now. I have a date and a plan, but I'm just wishing that day would come sooner. I'm ready.

 

[Le temps perdu]

May you be able to listen to your inner voice more honestly and clearly, and may you find peace and freedom.