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[complex]

Done...thought i could cope with life. Thought i cld be satisfied with the fact i have material items that shld make me a comfortable life. I thought my dogs were enough, but stuff this, stuff this emotional roller coaster crap i have this self hate this childless life this lack of any hugs i HATE THIS, I HATE THIS. NOW SI DO ONE AND LET ME CARRY OUT MY METHOD

 

[L'absent]

What do you plan to do? Is the disappointment that bad?

 

[complex]

What do you plan to do? Is the disappointment that bad?

I HATE myself and am terrified of this whole aging process!! I hate this world being so lacking in human comfort. I have seeked warmth but NOTHING and never to be a mum ...well thats the final strawer!!
I plan SN BUT think will do the amitriptyline method as no prep

 

[cloudyskye]

I HATE myself and am terrified of this whole aging process!! I hate this world being so lacking in human comfort. I have seeked warmth but NOTHING and never to be a mum ...well thats the final strawer!!
I plan SN BUT think will do the amitriptyline method as no prep

I'm so sorry you're feeling like this. Did you want kids? They're not always great believe me. Lol I hope you can find peace and overcome SI if that's what you want.

 

[complex]

I'm so sorry you're feeling like this. Did you want kids? They're not always great believe me. Lol I hope you can find peace and overcome SI if that's what you want.

He knew ialways wanted them but he took that away!! Along with all loving and i HATE this coldness and yeah thank u i want SI to do one!!! It is what i want amd need and what those arnd me need as am a waste of space

 

[cloudyskye]

He knew inalways wanted them but he took that away!! Along with all loving and i HATE this coldness and yeah thank u i want SI to do one!!! It is what i want amd need and what those arnd me need as am a waste of space

Did he get a vasectomy? It's trite but maybe you could adopt?

 

[complex]

Oh man why does money rule him. He won't have kid due to MONEY he wants for gadgets and comfort despite knowing i wanted them for life and been with him 14years!!

 

[cloudyskye]

Oh man why does money rule him. He won't have kid due to MONEY he wants for gadgets and comfort despite knowing i wanted them for life and been with him 14years!!

Oh that's horrible. I mean kids are expensive but when you have a partner they're supposed to care about what you want too.

 

[complex]

Oh that's horrible. I mean kids are expensive but when you have a partner they're supposed to care about what you want too.

Nah he can't care not how i see care. No hugs no intimacy not even allowed to talk about kids am just to accept!! He cold but as he provides financially i am grateful and expected to be so
I want hugs and love and care and warmth and am forty and can't get any of them so stuff this existence

 

[NegevChina]

I'm really sorry you feel so bad

 

[katara]

ya i can feel this, because in so many places online people just care about themselves or material things. I always wanted to be married with kids as well meanwhile i've never even dated so... ya. Not saying life would be perfect then, but it would help fill the void.

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly understand it's dreadful and tiring suffering in this existence, I also hate existing. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[complex]

I certainly understand it's dreadful and tiring suffering in this existence, I also hate existing. But anyway I wish you the best.

Nice to hear from u x