done looking/waiting

[guapogato]

been a really hard few days, gonna have home to myself for a few days pretty soon, was waiting to find SN but! realized looking at cryptic breadcrumbs for clues/seeing roadblock after roadblock is just more frustrating than a bottle of pills. it's not the best or most successful route but genuinely better to try with some OTC stuff and maybe wake up 48 hours later than wait 6 months on a possible scam. if anything I'll be able to test how many pills are consumable before getting sick. regardless of how it goes the buildup is exciting and a total relief to finally give it the ol college try haha

 

[Warriorsfan]

Read
why od's fail miserably before you do that.

 

[EternalShore]

Before I start, this is listed in the non-methods thread for being a really bad idea that will far more likely get you hurt and give you temporary or permanent harm rather than your intended result~
assuming you know that based on what you say, I'm really sorry that your week has gone so horribly~ :( I wish it could have improved, and I wish you the best and will pray for you~ >_<

 

[Leonszabs]

been a really hard few days, gonna have home to myself for a few days pretty soon, was waiting to find SN but! realized looking at cryptic breadcrumbs for clues/seeing roadblock after roadblock is just more frustrating than a bottle of pills. it's not the best or most successful route but genuinely better to try with some OTC stuff and maybe wake up 48 hours later than wait 6 months on a possible scam. if anything I'll be able to test how many pills are consumable before getting sick. regardless of how it goes the buildup is exciting and a total relief to finally give it the ol college try haha

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Hey, I hope you have a better week. Sending my love

 

[Nightfoot]

Overdosing on OTC meds is not only unreliable but can also do a lot of damage.

 

[guapogato]

For those wondering, I know it can do damage and likely can fail. it's more a matter of not caring when you're really this desperate

 

[getoutgirl]

I get how this is more like a desperation choice, but the success rate is basically minimal to none, and the process quite horrible, so everything after that build up thrill would be pain and regret for quite a longer time. You know this and I know you are desperate... but please find anything in you to care at this moment. It is hard to ask that, try any source of relief even if its not as good as death. Because this wouldn't be death either and you know it, just a desperate awful experience disguised as it. I get it I do but please, if you can, and you can, don't do this and do literally anything else. If you need to talk there are ppl here and some techniques to shut the mind up.
I'm truly sorry you are this desperate at the moment. Big hugs to you <3