Discussion Does visiting certain places trigger your ideation / cause you to relapse?

[Aunty_Seuss]

For some reason, beaches trigger my suicidal ideation nearly more than anything else and I have zero clue why. If I had to guess, maybe it's because the horizon is a very existential-looking thing, where you can see the ocean and sky meeting together, other than that, I have no clue why I get so awfully affected by them lol. There're other places too, like the address of my old house that I grew up in with my parents before they divorced, being able to see that house makes me upset whenever I go past it, but I think the reasoning is pretty obvious.

 

[otomedissection]

Mine isn't really a place but it kind of is?? There's a very specific drawer in a dresser at my parents' house that I absolutely refuse to open. There's nothing in there, but when I was still a teenager my narcissistic dad got so angry at me over something stupid that he broke several of my things in a rage and shoved them in that drawer to pretend like he didn't do it. I'm always scared to open it and see everything shattered and destroyed. It brings up a bunch of horrible memories because that incident was part of a whole period in my life where he was just absolutely hateful and vile to me because he felt like it.