Venting does thinking about suicide make you feel happier?

[lpdsvm]

Thinking about leaving this world any time lets me enjoy life a bit more but only after getting used to the fact I have to do it once everything starts to point toward that day. It was hard to actually accept it because it disrupted my everyday activities to an extent. Now I can do it any time and I don't need anything if I don't deserve it or whatever I don't care about anything because I can't do anything.

 

[Anteenna]

Ultimately, I don't think anyone feel 'happier' but people can get pushed to the point where taking your own life can provide the sense of relief and peace. At least this is my case. I don't wanna kill myself but things seems to make whole easier if I do so.