Does Knowing you will CTB soon, make life easier

[diy-event]

I have been freed from the burdon of my problems, and therefore, don't give a fuck anymore

 

[TheHolySword]

Not really, not for me anyway. Still gotta wake up every day and deal with the same problems every day until it happens. There's no freedom, no peace until I'm gone.

 

[diy-event]

Not really, not for me anyway. Still gotta wake up every day and deal with the same problems every day until it happens. There's no freedom, no peace until I'm gone.

think that would change if you have "scheduled" the CTB. I feel different now I have a date

 

[JustHere1]

Absolutely. I haven't scheduled my date because I'm in the middle of my gun purchase but I am ready to go very shortly after I practice my method for comfort and confidence. It will be immediate and I expect pain free. Hopefully.

 

[nomoredolor]

I have been freed from the burdon of my problems, and therefore, don't give a fuck anymore

When I had it scheduled in February I was feeling a lot of relief and happiness and it was slightly easier to get through the day. Guilt for hurting the people I love

Now that I am more likely delayed to October ish I don't have the relief and happiness just the guilt. I don't know if I can wait that long

Anna

 

[diy-event]

When I had it scheduled in February I was feeling a lot of relief and happiness and it was slightly easier to get through the day. Guilt for hurting the people I love

Now that I am more likely delayed to October ish I don't have the relief and happiness just the guilt. I don't know if I can wait that long

Anna

I understand the feeling about waiting. I have scheduled mine in February and it feels like it will be an eternity. If everything falls together sooner, I just want to do it, and get it over with

 

[TheHolySword]

think that would change if you have "scheduled" the CTB. I feel different now I have a date

I have a date, it doesn't really matter. I still have to live until then

 

[SomewhereAlongThe]

I feel light on my feet, and genuinely free from life and all its obligations. I feel good, yes. I'm glad I have a way out of this life.

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

Not at all. It feels burdensome. I don't have a date in mind but I do think I will CTB. It makes all the effort and work right now seem utterly worthless.

 

[lanet392]

i am free knowing i can go at any time, yes

 

[areyousafe??]

Yes. It makes me feel relieved and it makes me happy thinking about it.

 

[egg_an]

Honestly? Yes. I've panicked and done stupid shit multiple times specifically because I didn't have a viable 'out' around, knowing I have the materials and method to actually do it is so calming.

 

[cali22♡]

Nobody knows about me because if I announced it, everyone would be angry with me

 

[CogitoMori]

Yes. It's a huge weight off my shoulders and gives me a deadline on getting things done

 

[Peace2peace]

Kind off

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Life at the moment is more bearable since I know I have the option to ctb and I'm more at ease knowing the method when needed.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

It does, yes. I no longer have to give a shit about the things in life that were stressing me immensely such as university work

 

[beseechgod]

It would if I felt confident that I will pull it off. But I have come to expect things going wrong for me for unexpected/unknown reasons, so I don't think I'll feel fully at peace till I've actually made it to the other side.