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happysunnydayy

happysunnydayy

lookin for friends:)
Mar 18, 2025
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I was thinking I do wanna die but wouldn't it be better to feel somewhat normal for as long as I'm alive? I've tried SSRIs because I saw people raving about it on Reddit but SSRIs destroyed my life. So did benzos, went through hellish symptoms with no benefits.

Now im looking at more potent treatment but idk if they work? Like ECT, ketamine... Anyone have success stories?
I've an appointment soon with a very expensive psychiatrist so I'm hoping to get prescribed for something that works.
 
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LastNite

LastNite

I don't know
Mar 31, 2025
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It does have high success rates. There's always a chance that it might not work. Ive heard some great stories about it. Giving it a try is a good idea. Ask your psychiatrist to point you in the right direction.
 
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happysunnydayy

happysunnydayy

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Mar 18, 2025
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It does have high success rates. There's always a chance that it might not work. Ive heard some great stories about it. Giving it a try is a good idea. Ask your psychiatrist to point you in the right direction.
have you tried it
 
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LastNite

LastNite

I don't know
Mar 31, 2025
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have you tried it
My psychiatrist suggested it after a while of trying different antidepressants that never worked, but no. I never got to it for some personal reasons. If I stay depressed for a couple more years, I might try it.
 
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otomedissection

otomedissection

a boring life with feelings too frail to touch
Jun 19, 2026
70
I currently do spravato treatments, which is an esketamine nasal spray. I think they are fine. They're helpful for giving my brain a bit of a reset if I'm in particularly bad place and can't get out of it. They haven't been life changing for me, at least not yet, but they are for some people. It's worth giving a try, especially if you don't find the infusions appealing.
 
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(UN)COMMON SENSE

(UN)COMMON SENSE

shocked and appalled
May 30, 2026
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I currently do spravato treatments, which is an esketamine nasal spray. I think they are fine. They're helpful for giving my brain a bit of a reset if I'm in particularly bad place and can't get out of it. They haven't been life changing for me, at least not yet, but they are for some people. It's worth giving a try, especially if you don't find the infusions appealing.
Same here, Spravato made me feel better depression wise but I still have to deal with my personality issues and the repercussions of that but that's a work in progress now because I don't actively want to jump constantly lol
 
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Insufficent

Insufficent

Student
Jul 13, 2026
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I've had experience with ETC, i think i jad like maybe even 6 times in three weeks. It sucked. Happened in mid 2018.
I basicly forgot years 2016, 2017 and 2019 did not stuck very well in the harddrive. became somewhat zombified and sorry to say but retard.
Forgot how to behave correctly to the point my coworker got angry and said something like a grownass man should have learned such things before first grade.
Also a lot of things i've learned for my career, had to learn something completely again and somethings i just remembered again normally.
Its not good to forgot about firesafety if its part of your daily career you studied for 7 years.
I also forgot why i was depressed so thats how it got "cured". Until I remembered and got depressed again.
Its was a step forward to know what caused/causes deression but the cost was somewhat high.
I hope this dosen't scare people who could get good results from ETC. It just one person's experience
 
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Endstati0n

Endstati0n

"dying is like taking off a tight shoe" - ram dass
May 10, 2026
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I did almost all of the new age "cures" for depression/anxiety etc. It's all bullcrap, in my opinion. It's just capitalism, trying to make money, and since mental illness is on the rise they see an opportunity.

I did alot of shrooms, they made me feel good and less depressed i guess, but only lasted for some days, same for LSD. I hated Ketamine, but i did only a small amount. I heard from people who did it with a doctor that it's very exoensive and the positive effects also went away in a couple days.

I just ordered some MDMA which is also the new cure for everything. I just want to do it to feel good for once, i'm not expecting to be healed by anything anymore. I just want to get fucked up before i ctb atp
 
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Dubito

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Nov 5, 2022
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It die not help fĂĽr me, but i've seen people where etc and ketamin worked. You can only try.
 
happysunnydayy

happysunnydayy

lookin for friends:)
Mar 18, 2025
154
I did almost all of the new age "cures" for depression/anxiety etc. It's all bullcrap, in my opinion. It's just capitalism, trying to make money, and since mental illness is on the rise they see an opportunity.

I did alot of shrooms, they made me feel good and less depressed i guess, but only lasted for some days, same for LSD. I hated Ketamine, but i did only a small amount. I heard from people who did it with a doctor that it's very exoensive and the positive effects also went away in a couple days.

I just ordered some MDMA which is also the new cure for everything. I just want to do it to feel good for once, i'm not expecting to be healed by anything anymore. I just want to get fucked up before i ctb atp
lol don't do mdma I did for once and I was going thru hell for a week straight. For one day it was amazing tho
 
carfemtanyl

carfemtanyl

Experienced
Nov 18, 2025
221
I've done ket before (illegally) and it improved my mood a bit for a few days but it didn't have any lasting effects so I would have to do it regularly for it to help
 
wuthering_heights

wuthering_heights

~fighting on~
Aug 20, 2026
9
I was offered ketamine therapy but turned it down because it just seems like a modern day lobotomy/electroshock therapy. Just another crude method to sedate and numb you. If all their medications didn't work and just caused horrific side effects, I have no reason to believe in some "miracle" treatment they're peddling and I determined the cause for my depression must be external and not because of some defect of my brain that must be treated by throwing random shit at it.
 
happysunnydayy

happysunnydayy

lookin for friends:)
Mar 18, 2025
154
I was offered ketamine therapy but turned it down because it just seems like a modern day lobotomy/electroshock therapy. Just another crude method to sedate and numb you. If all their medications didn't work and just caused horrific side effects, I have no reason to believe in some "miracle" treatment they're peddling and I determined the cause for my depression must be external and not because of some defect of my brain that must be treated by throwing random shit at it.
So are we doomed or what? I don't wanna feel like this forever. :(
I've done ket before (illegally) and it improved my mood a bit for a few days but it didn't have any lasting effects so I would have to do it regularly for it to help
Yeah thru infusions they do alot of sessions
 
wuthering_heights

wuthering_heights

~fighting on~
Aug 20, 2026
9
So are we doomed or what? I don't wanna feel like this forever. :(

I don't want to discourage people from pursuing medication that will help them keep living and I definitely don't want anyone to think they are forever doomed. But the role psychiatry plays is inherently limited since it exists to numb symptoms rather than treating the cause (which would entail societal overhaul) in order to regulate capitalism. Psychiatry never actually evolved beyond the lobotomy, that particular method just fell out of taste. Before becoming a supposed depression-curing miracle, ketamine was used as a sedative if that tells you anything. I wouldn't be above taking psychiatric meds if any of them actually worked for me so you should do what's best for you. I'd approach ketamine therapy or anything else that is touted as a way to fundamentally alter your brain with a high level of skepticism but no matter what you decide to pursue treatment-wise, you should understand the flaws of psychiatry which will even admit that mental illness isn't reducible to brain defects and yet primarily treats them as if that were the case.
 
happysunnydayy

happysunnydayy

lookin for friends:)
Mar 18, 2025
154
I don't want to discourage people from pursuing medication that will help them keep living and I definitely don't want anyone to think they are forever doomed. But the role psychiatry plays is inherently limited since it exists to numb symptoms rather than treating the cause (which would entail societal overhaul) in order to regulate capitalism. Psychiatry never actually evolved beyond the lobotomy, that particular method just fell out of taste. Before becoming a supposed depression-curing miracle, ketamine was used as a sedative if that tells you anything. I wouldn't be above taking psychiatric meds if any of them actually worked for me so you should do what's best for you. I'd approach ketamine therapy or anything else that is touted as a way to fundamentally alter your brain with a high level of skepticism but no matter what you decide to pursue treatment-wise, you should understand the flaws of psychiatry which will even admit that mental illness isn't reducible to brain defects and yet primarily treats them as if that were the case.
has anything worked for u?