Does it really matter if i wait?

[pissedchicken]

So, my question is, I'm pretty much all set to go, notes written and method all sorted and ready to go but where my question comes from is, I have a few close family birthdays coming up in the next couple of weeks. Do you think it would make a difference to wait... would it make any difference to wait until after or is it just going to be shit for them anyway so it doesn't matter?

 

[Pale_Rider]

All set with what?

 

[pissedchicken]

To ctb,

 

[Cinnamorolls]

It'll allow them to enjoy their birthdays, which would be much harder if you do this right before. If you like them, it makes sense to wait. There's also a slim possibility something really good could happen in those weeks that would make you rethink things, I guess.

 

[areyousafe??]

I would wait.

 

[belowaveragefish]

So, my question is, I'm pretty much all set to go, notes written and method all sorted and ready to go but where my question comes from is, I have a few close family birthdays coming up in the next couple of weeks. Do you think it would make a difference to wait... would it make any difference to wait until after or is it just going to be shit for them anyway so it doesn't matter?

Waiting despite having a method ready to go sounds like a very small part of you might be reconsidering. Be careful of that! It's that little something that could easily jumpstart your SI, and cause even bigger problems. Like a rogue spark to propane, it's dangerous.


On the other hand, waiting might bring your some inner peace buy not thrusting your problems onto others by CTB. Idk if that's something you want to do, but it is something I would consider. For example, I'm waiting for one close member of my family to kick the bucket before I CTB. It removes guilt.

 

[pissedchicken]

It'll allow them to enjoy their birthdays, which would be much harder if you do this right before. If you like them, it makes sense to wait. There's also a slim possibility something really good could happen in those weeks that would make you rethink things, I guess.

Thanks for replying. ya, that's what I have been thinking, not about rethinking but letting them enjoy their days... its just difficult because there's always someone's day you have to wait beyond to avoid ruining things for people

Waiting despite having a method ready to go sounds like a very small part of you might be reconsidering. Be careful of that! It's that little something that could easily jumpstart your SI, and cause even bigger problems. Like a rogue spark to propane, it's dangerous.


On the other hand, waiting might bring your some inner peace buy not thrusting your problems onto others by CTB. Idk if that's something you want to do, but it is something I would consider. For example, I'm waiting for one close member of my family to kick the bucket before I CTB. It removes guilt.

Hey, thanks for messaging, I think or hope that it won't spark some si... it's just been going on so long at this stage... the guilt though is pretty rough.

Sorry to hear you're having to wait... that's very difficult...