I think the answer to this question depends on whether I use the verb seen or observed. But my reply will be a mixture.
First update to my life. I cried. I am not feeling well. The interesting autistic woman isn't texting me for a week. She told me she is overburdened by her duties and it sounds honest. She has a lot of responsibilities. I am torn apart between moving on and clining to hope that we can see each other again. I will text her a second time two weeks after my last message. So next Saturday. She has a child with a serious health condition, works part-time and studies part-time. And she has autism and ADHD. Our first date and our first week texting was really amazing. And we have similar autistic special interests. But I think currently it looks like this doesn't matter. It is difficult for me to deal with the uncertainty.
But this wasn't the only reason I cried. My grandmother is in a clinic and in a very bad shape. And I never visited her in the clinic. I just feel horrible when seeing my family. I was abused as a child. They changed but it doesn't change the fact in how much pain I am. I texted her some messages. But I feel so fucking bad interacting with her in real life. After the tragic death of my grandfather who died listening to a family argument and they blamed me for his death I have difficults to interact with them. It left me scarred.
I question my own perception a lot recently. I was wrong of a specific interpetation at the meeting with my friends. I wonder whether I am also wrong on other things. I revisited the complaint of my former therapist. The case was approved to be substantial and they will look at it in-depth. This was a really difficult time for 3 months. I took a lot of addictive medication to stay stable. Currently the emergency medication isn't working that well. I think I built a tolerance to it sadly. I think I am emotionally unstable with mood swings. I read the most important passages of that complaint. again And I am proud of myself. I think I built a very strong case. The length might be an issue. But overall I proved myself that I can stand up to bullies. Even if the bully is a therapist with a huge imbalance of power. I think she is scared as hell. My psychiatrist had phone calls with my former therapist and she was panicking a lot. And to this time she didn't even seen the case I built. I knew someone with psychosis and autism would never be trusted in such a case. This is why I insisted to communicate with her only in written form. And well she fucked it up so fucking hard. I don't think she will lose her job. But I could imagine her defense will backfire pretty much because she made so many strategical mistakes in this conflict thus far. She could really get into trouble. On the other hand I read that the chamber of therapists often protects the therapists against allegations. Sadly I don't have written evidence in all conflicts that I had to deal with in the past months.
My current highlights are the weekly meetings with my closest friends. We finally come to the topic of this thread.
One friend played Pokemon Snap and he complained about the game. It was actually illogical that Mew only appears if you look in its direction. If you don't do this Mew won't appear. I replied maybe this isn't that illogcial. Think of the wave-particle dualism. And he had to chuckle when I said that. He knew I got him on this. From time to time I talk a little bit too much about quantum physics but very superficially. I don't know much about it but I think quantum physics has interesting philosophical impllications. It is also ironic that he talked about video games in this instance. Actually Slavoj Zizek compares the world of video games and how they are coded with how the universe is structured on particle level. In video games it actually matters and has a real impact on the world whether there is an observer of not. The resolution changes and the world changes whether we observe things in video games. We make a difference just by looking at the objects in this world. In quantum physics it also matters whether we measure/look at at a double-slit experiment. If we measure the outcome there is a particle. If we don't measure there is a wave. And there is the theory similar to how humans programm video games there is a creator that programmed our universe. And there are lapse of logic. And our creator didn't anticipate we were smart enough to take a look this closely to notice these laps of logic.
I think one should be very cautious to draw conclusions from the particle/wave level and the rules of quantum physics to the things we experience on a daily level on a macrolevel. Though, it seems like there is a lot of uncertainty how the universe actually works. And most basic understandings of how things actually work might be biased. Despite the fact our best scientists were very convinced of fundamental concepts. This doesn't legitmate all conspiracy theories. I think one has to evaluate case by case. I think though the underlying question behind all of this is really interesting. It is the question of the title. Does it matter whether we are seen or observed?
For most people on earth they want to be seen. Not all and on average more people on here don't want to be seen compared to the average Joe and Jane. At the same time there are a lot of people who crave for being seen and noticed. This goes hand in hand with being loved, approved, appreciated and considered part of a higher plan or community. Does it matter whether we are observed? Ontologically this question is interesting. Does our existence change when there is a higher being that observes us maybe that holds its hands over our fragile existence? Most people on here don't experience a benevolent higher being in their daily lives though. I also think one should not cling to it to save you. My friends intervened when I almost killed myself. I think there was no higher being involved. But do I have proof of that? is there counterevidence? Is meaningless suffering a proof that there is no God? Does Auschwitz falsify the existence of an allmighty being? I could imagine that for ourselves and how we feel this could change our perception of the world a lot. Not without a reason do so many people think about God so frequently. Even strong atheists think about God on an abstract level frequently. They are convinced he/she/it doesn't exist but the idea occupies their mind still. Personally, I felt comfort when I lost my faith. I hoped to return to nothing when I am dead and I was scared of a punishment in the afterlife for killing myself. Currently, I am more of an agnostic. I think my view on the world would change if I knew a higher being was observing me. I would be curious about the intentions of that higher being, why it allows so much injustice and why it created the universe. It is likely I will never know the answers. And in some way for the outcome of my life it doesn't matter. It would change my view on the world though if I had definitive answers to these questions. It remains a speculation.
Would our world be a better place if we all believed in a higher being that observed us? Actually I think history proves this isn't the case. There were a lot of religious war for the sake of God. Or the things that were projected into the concept of God. I think an enlighted approach to God can have a good impact on the world. In Germany the churches and their members do a lot of voluntary work they don't get paid for. So for the daily lives of vulnerable groups in our society it can make a difference. But religion can also be used to guilttrip and shame people like us. And to make it even worse for us.
I think a lot about coming to the most rational decisions in life. I think a lot about my biases. I tend to be too rational and I try to incorparate the emotional impact of the decisions that I make. I am a heavy ruminator. I think getting rid of superstitious thoughts is good for evaluating the options one has. I know people can gain a lot by believing in God. And I think faith can have a healing effect and actually change one's life quality fundamentally (in theory). I talked with such people. Though, for example if you make a major financial decision or a life changing consideration understanding one's own irrational heuristics and thinking structures is essential. I think partially irrational behavior can make sense. And in small dosages it can save you mental load. Moreover, there are statistics there are less traffic incidents on Fridays the 13th. With my conditions superstitious beliefs can be pretty detrimental. They can lead to delusions. For me it is sometimes hard to differentiate between normal religious thoughts, paranoia and superstitious thinking. One could say normal religious thoughts shouldn't be dogmatic and doubts ahould accompany them. I asked beliefers who had a different opinion though. A person with religious delusions has no doubts about his or her own thoughts. Overall my conclusions is that hoping for the best often is not enough. Especially when it comes to important decisions like death and life decisions. I tend to overthink things. But it saved me from damage thus far and irreversible consequences. I try to think through my decisions. And if you replace that with praying to God this is in most cases not a good idea. Personally, I don't think God works that way. And if he doesn't protect you, you will hate him/her/it and blame God for the consequences. If there is a God, then he/she/it does not work like a genie in a bottle. Conceptualizing God like that can have really bad consequence. Children often have this notion of God or Santa Clause. Even if there was God why should this higher being transactional? I can pray every single night hours before I go to sleep to become rich. If I don't do anything for that there won't be a higher being fulfilling me that wish. Praying should not replace getting active in life. However, praying can also have a spiritual purpose and in this case praying can fulfil a function normal actions cannot fulfill. I guess it is difficult. These are only my personal thoughts you are free to object. I think I should go to sleep soon. I hope I can sleep better. I am a little bit desperate since the sleeping pills aren't working that well.
First update to my life. I cried. I am not feeling well. The interesting autistic woman isn't texting me for a week. She told me she is overburdened by her duties and it sounds honest. She has a lot of responsibilities. I am torn apart between moving on and clining to hope that we can see each other again. I will text her a second time two weeks after my last message. So next Saturday. She has a child with a serious health condition, works part-time and studies part-time. And she has autism and ADHD. Our first date and our first week texting was really amazing. And we have similar autistic special interests. But I think currently it looks like this doesn't matter. It is difficult for me to deal with the uncertainty.
But this wasn't the only reason I cried. My grandmother is in a clinic and in a very bad shape. And I never visited her in the clinic. I just feel horrible when seeing my family. I was abused as a child. They changed but it doesn't change the fact in how much pain I am. I texted her some messages. But I feel so fucking bad interacting with her in real life. After the tragic death of my grandfather who died listening to a family argument and they blamed me for his death I have difficults to interact with them. It left me scarred.
I question my own perception a lot recently. I was wrong of a specific interpetation at the meeting with my friends. I wonder whether I am also wrong on other things. I revisited the complaint of my former therapist. The case was approved to be substantial and they will look at it in-depth. This was a really difficult time for 3 months. I took a lot of addictive medication to stay stable. Currently the emergency medication isn't working that well. I think I built a tolerance to it sadly. I think I am emotionally unstable with mood swings. I read the most important passages of that complaint. again And I am proud of myself. I think I built a very strong case. The length might be an issue. But overall I proved myself that I can stand up to bullies. Even if the bully is a therapist with a huge imbalance of power. I think she is scared as hell. My psychiatrist had phone calls with my former therapist and she was panicking a lot. And to this time she didn't even seen the case I built. I knew someone with psychosis and autism would never be trusted in such a case. This is why I insisted to communicate with her only in written form. And well she fucked it up so fucking hard. I don't think she will lose her job. But I could imagine her defense will backfire pretty much because she made so many strategical mistakes in this conflict thus far. She could really get into trouble. On the other hand I read that the chamber of therapists often protects the therapists against allegations. Sadly I don't have written evidence in all conflicts that I had to deal with in the past months.
My current highlights are the weekly meetings with my closest friends. We finally come to the topic of this thread.
One friend played Pokemon Snap and he complained about the game. It was actually illogical that Mew only appears if you look in its direction. If you don't do this Mew won't appear. I replied maybe this isn't that illogcial. Think of the wave-particle dualism. And he had to chuckle when I said that. He knew I got him on this. From time to time I talk a little bit too much about quantum physics but very superficially. I don't know much about it but I think quantum physics has interesting philosophical impllications. It is also ironic that he talked about video games in this instance. Actually Slavoj Zizek compares the world of video games and how they are coded with how the universe is structured on particle level. In video games it actually matters and has a real impact on the world whether there is an observer of not. The resolution changes and the world changes whether we observe things in video games. We make a difference just by looking at the objects in this world. In quantum physics it also matters whether we measure/look at at a double-slit experiment. If we measure the outcome there is a particle. If we don't measure there is a wave. And there is the theory similar to how humans programm video games there is a creator that programmed our universe. And there are lapse of logic. And our creator didn't anticipate we were smart enough to take a look this closely to notice these laps of logic.
I think one should be very cautious to draw conclusions from the particle/wave level and the rules of quantum physics to the things we experience on a daily level on a macrolevel. Though, it seems like there is a lot of uncertainty how the universe actually works. And most basic understandings of how things actually work might be biased. Despite the fact our best scientists were very convinced of fundamental concepts. This doesn't legitmate all conspiracy theories. I think one has to evaluate case by case. I think though the underlying question behind all of this is really interesting. It is the question of the title. Does it matter whether we are seen or observed?
For most people on earth they want to be seen. Not all and on average more people on here don't want to be seen compared to the average Joe and Jane. At the same time there are a lot of people who crave for being seen and noticed. This goes hand in hand with being loved, approved, appreciated and considered part of a higher plan or community. Does it matter whether we are observed? Ontologically this question is interesting. Does our existence change when there is a higher being that observes us maybe that holds its hands over our fragile existence? Most people on here don't experience a benevolent higher being in their daily lives though. I also think one should not cling to it to save you. My friends intervened when I almost killed myself. I think there was no higher being involved. But do I have proof of that? is there counterevidence? Is meaningless suffering a proof that there is no God? Does Auschwitz falsify the existence of an allmighty being? I could imagine that for ourselves and how we feel this could change our perception of the world a lot. Not without a reason do so many people think about God so frequently. Even strong atheists think about God on an abstract level frequently. They are convinced he/she/it doesn't exist but the idea occupies their mind still. Personally, I felt comfort when I lost my faith. I hoped to return to nothing when I am dead and I was scared of a punishment in the afterlife for killing myself. Currently, I am more of an agnostic. I think my view on the world would change if I knew a higher being was observing me. I would be curious about the intentions of that higher being, why it allows so much injustice and why it created the universe. It is likely I will never know the answers. And in some way for the outcome of my life it doesn't matter. It would change my view on the world though if I had definitive answers to these questions. It remains a speculation.
Would our world be a better place if we all believed in a higher being that observed us? Actually I think history proves this isn't the case. There were a lot of religious war for the sake of God. Or the things that were projected into the concept of God. I think an enlighted approach to God can have a good impact on the world. In Germany the churches and their members do a lot of voluntary work they don't get paid for. So for the daily lives of vulnerable groups in our society it can make a difference. But religion can also be used to guilttrip and shame people like us. And to make it even worse for us.
I think a lot about coming to the most rational decisions in life. I think a lot about my biases. I tend to be too rational and I try to incorparate the emotional impact of the decisions that I make. I am a heavy ruminator. I think getting rid of superstitious thoughts is good for evaluating the options one has. I know people can gain a lot by believing in God. And I think faith can have a healing effect and actually change one's life quality fundamentally (in theory). I talked with such people. Though, for example if you make a major financial decision or a life changing consideration understanding one's own irrational heuristics and thinking structures is essential. I think partially irrational behavior can make sense. And in small dosages it can save you mental load. Moreover, there are statistics there are less traffic incidents on Fridays the 13th. With my conditions superstitious beliefs can be pretty detrimental. They can lead to delusions. For me it is sometimes hard to differentiate between normal religious thoughts, paranoia and superstitious thinking. One could say normal religious thoughts shouldn't be dogmatic and doubts ahould accompany them. I asked beliefers who had a different opinion though. A person with religious delusions has no doubts about his or her own thoughts. Overall my conclusions is that hoping for the best often is not enough. Especially when it comes to important decisions like death and life decisions. I tend to overthink things. But it saved me from damage thus far and irreversible consequences. I try to think through my decisions. And if you replace that with praying to God this is in most cases not a good idea. Personally, I don't think God works that way. And if he doesn't protect you, you will hate him/her/it and blame God for the consequences. If there is a God, then he/she/it does not work like a genie in a bottle. Conceptualizing God like that can have really bad consequence. Children often have this notion of God or Santa Clause. Even if there was God why should this higher being transactional? I can pray every single night hours before I go to sleep to become rich. If I don't do anything for that there won't be a higher being fulfilling me that wish. Praying should not replace getting active in life. However, praying can also have a spiritual purpose and in this case praying can fulfil a function normal actions cannot fulfill. I guess it is difficult. These are only my personal thoughts you are free to object. I think I should go to sleep soon. I hope I can sleep better. I am a little bit desperate since the sleeping pills aren't working that well.
