Does it makes you feel more comfortable knowing you are not alone suffering?

[MiraiShisen]

I apologise for my enligsh in advance

I have not been outside of my home more than year, I have serious health issues and I will probably leave it only when I will be dead, thats the situation I am currently facing.I sufferend enough of pain and struggle, I had to give up my goals and my dreams,and slowly watched how my whole world crumbled before me while I have been able to observe others to thrive, achieving their goals, living their best moments and I just cant take it anymore. I just suffer in silence, I have not talk to anyone outside my family few years, my social skills are at zero. People are social creatures after all and I dont even have this basic fundamental need, if there have not been internet, music and games where I just escape from this reality then I would lose all my remaining sanity.

So only option left to me is to make my suffering easier or to seek some comfort in this...so I was trying to convince myself with reasons why this is happening to me, like karma or so I choosed this life to learn something etc.. but even if this is true wich I will never have proof of, it does not make my suffering easier, I will lose my life in the end and it does not provide anything than just theories. I found that knowing I am not alone in this is somehow the only (or one of fews) option left to me to make me feel a little better, but I dont feel "better" like I am happy or something when I know about suffering of someone else but I feel somehow relieved, even fictional characters have this effect on me.. like Its someone whom I can identify with. For example Chester Benington, I am certailnly not happy because he suffered but I know that he had it hard too and I feel connected, my two classmates from elementary school CTB themselves and again I am not happy in fact I feel sad but in the other hand I feel better that I am not alone in this reality.

Do you feel same as I do or its just byproduct of my non existent life full of suffering ? At this point I am so disconnected I dont even know if this is normal, I can indentify with anime characters, movie characters, real people that are famous or with few people that I know of from real world.

Sometimes I wish I had option to just snap my fingers and disappear for eternity like thanos did, I am just afraid of dying and In fact I dont even want to die in first place but I am so cornered by conditions of my life that even suicide seems to be best option and thats fcked up to say.

 

[SilentSadness]

You're still alone in suffering if no one is there with you. For me, I couldn't feel more alone. Also, I'm very uncomfortable all the time. It's very unfortunate that you have such a bad situation.

 

[abchia]

I don't find comfort in knowing that other people suffer too. I might feel a little more understood/heard, but it doesn't make me feel better. If anything it makes me hate this world even more because other people don't deserve this pain.

 

[SMmetalhead36]

I hear that "you're not alone others face the same" phrase, it does not bring me comfort because I don't wish any of what I have faced or am facing right now on anyone. For some, it may help in that moment to be able to relate and have someone who understands you.

You're still alone in suffering if no one is there with you. For me, I couldn't feel more alone. Also, I'm very uncomfortable all the time. It's very unfortunate that you have such a bad situation.

Agreed!

 

[Hollowman]

No

 

[lizzywizzy09]

No. My condition is rare so even here I feel very isolated.

 

[FuneralCry]

No, there could never be any comfort to be found in suffering, all of which is completely unnecessary and serves no function but to torment existing beings in the first place. I find it so incredibly hellish how existing beings suffer so immensely with no limit as to how much they can suffer, being aware of how much of a harmful abomination existence truly is just makes me wish for the peace of death even more.

I don't want to suffer in any way rather I just wish to be unaware for all eternity, the fact that life even exists at all really is the most terrible tragedy to me. It terrifies me how one can suffer so unbearably yet not die, I'd always prefer to not exist than to suffer in this existence where there is endless potential for such immense harm and cruelty.

 

[MisterOGBongWater]

no. doesnt matter how many ppl feel the way i do. theres nothing i can do to change my situation. it hurts. its empty. its so fucking lonely. nothing is ever going to make me feel ok ever again

 

[ADBoy777]

yes and no
It's nice to feel sympathy and I find the communication through forums like this helpful and useful.

But in the end of the day it's me alone with my feelings and whatever I went through, no one shares the burden of pain with you

 

[ecliptic]

No, it just makes me want to be in the ground.

 

[MiraiShisen]

Thank you all for your response and opinion on this question, eventually you are right, it does not matter if there are others who are suffering, I will have to face it alone and I feel sad but at the same time I am happy that this happened to me and not to someone else. We are all equal when it comes to death or dying, nobody will suffer for us, nobody will die for us, everyone who is allive will have to pay this price its ultimate and inevitable.

 

[feelinggloomy]

I feel less alone on this site and it helps to read that others feel and think like I do. But most days I feel like I'm the only person on the planet

 

[alltoomuch2]

Definitely.

 

[HeartSayako]

No, everything is still the same horrible thing to me.

 

[ultrasharpy123456]

No, it makes me feel even more lonely because I cannot tell anyone about my life or what I did without being yelled at. I know so because I've done it before, I've tried this before. It was not pretty. And yes I deserved to get yelled at. There was nothing I could do but take the walk of shame.

 

[derpyderpins]

No. If anything it makes me more sad that others are hurting. I hold myself to such different standards that it couldn't bring relief.

 

[Artemisia]

I apologise for my enligsh in advance

I have not been outside of my home more than year, I have serious health issues and I will probably leave it only when I will be dead, thats the situation I am currently facing.I sufferend enough of pain and struggle, I had to give up my goals and my dreams,and slowly watched how my whole world crumbled before me while I have been able to observe others to thrive, achieving their goals, living their best moments and I just cant take it anymore. I just suffer in silence, I have not talk to anyone outside my family few years, my social skills are at zero. People are social creatures after all and I dont even have this basic fundamental need, if there have not been internet, music and games where I just escape from this reality then I would lose all my remaining sanity.

So only option left to me is to make my suffering easier or to seek some comfort in this...so I was trying to convince myself with reasons why this is happening to me, like karma or so I choosed this life to learn something etc.. but even if this is true wich I will never have proof of, it does not make my suffering easier, I will lose my life in the end and it does not provide anything than just theories. I found that knowing I am not alone in this is somehow the only (or one of fews) option left to me to make me feel a little better, but I dont feel "better" like I am happy or something when I know about suffering of someone else but I feel somehow relieved, even fictional characters have this effect on me.. like Its someone whom I can identify with. For example Chester Benington, I am certailnly not happy because he suffered but I know that he had it hard too and I feel connected, my two classmates from elementary school CTB themselves and again I am not happy in fact I feel sad but in the other hand I feel better that I am not alone in this reality.

Do you feel same as I do or its just byproduct of my non existent life full of suffering ? At this point I am so disconnected I dont even know if this is normal, I can indentify with anime characters, movie characters, real people that are famous or with few people that I know of from real world.

Sometimes I wish I had option to just snap my fingers and disappear for eternity like thanos did, I am just afraid of dying and In fact I dont even want to die in first place but I am so cornered by conditions of my life that even suicide seems to be best option and thats fcked up to say.

Unfortunately my situation is similar to yours. My life is coming to an end due to health issues too. I do not believe in karma. I don't have a single religious, spiritual or mystically inclined cell in my whole body. My father, when he got sick and was coming to his end too, used to ask "what did I do to deserve this?" You see, he was a quite capable and successful man, the kind who thought people who are poor and don't have good lives are dumb or lazy or bad people overall. I always told him that was a very dangerous way of thinking. I kept telling him that but he didn't listen, he still thought he shouldn't be sick because he didn«t deserve it. Me, I'm sick because I was too nice and didn't say No to something I knew wasn't for me. It had nothing to do with deserving this or not. I shouldn't have done it, but I did and my life kept going downhill from there. It sucks! It also sucks that doctors didn't give a damn and didn't care to help me, now it's too late. It does not for a moment ease my pain that others are suffering. People suffer all the time, I'd rather no one did. It's just how life goes, now it's my turn. At least, unlike most, my brain always was a good brain and I can give myself a relatively quick and easy way out. That's my comfort.

 

[DeIetedUser4739]

Not really

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

No because everyone is suffering in some way it seems. Even the richest and luckiest people can still eventually find things to complain about so it doesn't even comfort me that much.

Knowing that my self is suffering actually does give me comfort sometimes though due to my self hatred. As miserable as I am, there are times where I'm relieved to be getting exactly what I deserve and I only wish things could be worse for me in these moments.

 

[BlackEyedDog]

Thank you all for your response and opinion on this question, eventually you are right, it does not matter if there are others who are suffering, I will have to face it alone and I feel sad but at the same time I am happy that this happened to me and not to someone else. We are all equal when it comes to death or dying, nobody will suffer for us, nobody will die for us, everyone who is allive will have to pay this price its ultimate and inevitable.

There is comfort in knowing we are not alone. This forum itself is an example. That's different from, say comparing myself to someone else and their situation and feeling a bit up because they're down. Or down because they're up. The 'grass is greener' stuff is never helpful. Like parents who say 'why can't you be more like so and so person'. There's no comfort there because it's just a comparison. There is comfort knowing that there are other people who have felt and do feel as we do.

 

[Chex]

I apologise for my enligsh in advance

I have not been outside of my home more than year, I have serious health issues and I will probably leave it only when I will be dead, thats the situation I am currently facing.I sufferend enough of pain and struggle, I had to give up my goals and my dreams,and slowly watched how my whole world crumbled before me while I have been able to observe others to thrive, achieving their goals, living their best moments and I just cant take it anymore. I just suffer in silence, I have not talk to anyone outside my family few years, my social skills are at zero. People are social creatures after all and I dont even have this basic fundamental need, if there have not been internet, music and games where I just escape from this reality then I would lose all my remaining sanity.

So only option left to me is to make my suffering easier or to seek some comfort in this...so I was trying to convince myself with reasons why this is happening to me, like karma or so I choosed this life to learn something etc.. but even if this is true wich I will never have proof of, it does not make my suffering easier, I will lose my life in the end and it does not provide anything than just theories. I found that knowing I am not alone in this is somehow the only (or one of fews) option left to me to make me feel a little better, but I dont feel "better" like I am happy or something when I know about suffering of someone else but I feel somehow relieved, even fictional characters have this effect on me.. like Its someone whom I can identify with. For example Chester Benington, I am certailnly not happy because he suffered but I know that he had it hard too and I feel connected, my two classmates from elementary school CTB themselves and again I am not happy in fact I feel sad but in the other hand I feel better that I am not alone in this reality.

Do you feel same as I do or its just byproduct of my non existent life full of suffering ? At this point I am so disconnected I dont even know if this is normal, I can indentify with anime characters, movie characters, real people that are famous or with few people that I know of from real world.

Sometimes I wish I had option to just snap my fingers and disappear for eternity like thanos did, I am just afraid of dying and In fact I dont even want to die in first place but I am so cornered by conditions of my life that even suicide seems to be best option and thats fcked up to say.

Ive never read something so extremely identical to how my life is going right now, ive always thought to myself that not a single person out there is going through exactly this degree of fucked up terrible life but to me it sounds like were going through the same fucked up none sense. I quit my job a little over a year ago and became completely isolated and alone by my choice and everything in my life has gone downhill, everything the same, and only lately ive started picking up drinking as a way to shut the world up and just attempt to try and feel somewhat normal again or escape the misery for a brief moment. I know suicide is the answer and i will eventually surrender to it but right now i dont have the guts to go out in a painful or messy way but if i dont CTB and keep drinking im just gonna add another struggle of being a fucked up alcoholic and probably soon a benzo addict or really anything i can get my hands on some to feel better or to feel like none of it exists. So to answer your question for a brief moment it does feels good to know that my situation isn't 1 of 1 but i know in about 10 minutes it wont mean shit because ill be back to my reality.

 

[brokeandbroken]

I apologise for my enligsh in advance

I have not been outside of my home more than year, I have serious health issues and I will probably leave it only when I will be dead, thats the situation I am currently facing.I sufferend enough of pain and struggle, I had to give up my goals and my dreams,and slowly watched how my whole world crumbled before me while I have been able to observe others to thrive, achieving their goals, living their best moments and I just cant take it anymore. I just suffer in silence, I have not talk to anyone outside my family few years, my social skills are at zero. People are social creatures after all and I dont even have this basic fundamental need, if there have not been internet, music and games where I just escape from this reality then I would lose all my remaining sanity.

So only option left to me is to make my suffering easier or to seek some comfort in this...so I was trying to convince myself with reasons why this is happening to me, like karma or so I choosed this life to learn something etc.. but even if this is true wich I will never have proof of, it does not make my suffering easier, I will lose my life in the end and it does not provide anything than just theories. I found that knowing I am not alone in this is somehow the only (or one of fews) option left to me to make me feel a little better, but I dont feel "better" like I am happy or something when I know about suffering of someone else but I feel somehow relieved, even fictional characters have this effect on me.. like Its someone whom I can identify with. For example Chester Benington, I am certailnly not happy because he suffered but I know that he had it hard too and I feel connected, my two classmates from elementary school CTB themselves and again I am not happy in fact I feel sad but in the other hand I feel better that I am not alone in this reality.

Do you feel same as I do or its just byproduct of my non existent life full of suffering ? At this point I am so disconnected I dont even know if this is normal, I can indentify with anime characters, movie characters, real people that are famous or with few people that I know of from real world.

Sometimes I wish I had option to just snap my fingers and disappear for eternity like thanos did, I am just afraid of dying and In fact I dont even want to die in first place but I am so cornered by conditions of my life that even suicide seems to be best option and thats fcked up to say.

To be honest not really. 1) We aren't suffering for the same reason. So there's little we can do to find common ground 2) I don't want people to suffer.

 

[MiraiShisen]

Thank you all for another replies I really apreaciate your point of view and also for sharing your current situation you live in. I hope it will all turns as you planned.