I'm diagnosed with schizophrenia (2010) but have been in remission since 2017 when i went on meds. I contemplated ctb a couple of times early on in my illness but strangely enough i have been far more interested in ctb since i got better. I think when i was ill i was so busy coping with imaginary demons that i had little time to think about how shit my life was. Now however i am able to grasp how poor my life is and what the future holds.