Damn im so sorry
What are you studying if I may ask?
Computer Science and Digital Media Technology.
I try to learn in my own way, an approach based on interest. I tried making a 3D printed gun, which was really interesting, but my parents found out and said I couldn't break the law, constantly affecting my mindset. What I've observed is that, for them, this form of illegal activity seems to put pressure on them as well, which I find hard to understand.
I'm planning to apply to a university in Poland and start with a language preparatory course, trying to escape this country through studying abroad. My family should have the financial means to support my studies. But I'm racing against time—I'm almost on the verge of being completely broken by them. I've bought charcoal because I can't be sure if death will come. They have no idea what they're doing. Right now, I can't summon my own motivation; I'm just too overwhelmed and in too much pain.