If you follow Stan's guide (which you can find in this forum) you have a high chance of succeeding. I understand your pain and desperation but you should really take the time to study all the methods there are and find a peaceful one. You'll also need time to gather everything in order to succeed, so even if it hurts to stay a little longer, you really should take that time to think on it. And during that time, a lot of things can happen, so you'll be able to see if CTB really is the solution for you or not. I wish you the best, regardless of what you end up choosing