Does anyone just feel this NEED to die

[CleanGopher]

Me

 

[inkmage333]

This feels like a form of passive suicidal ideation, in that the thought process would pretty much just be what you described. And yeah, I feel it constantly.

 

[Reika179]

Even when the day wasn't that bad? Not even necessarily wanting to but just this NEED like this urge, to stab yourself or something like this deep pain in your heart that never goes away? From being alive

Yes, it's constant. I can be having a great day, but those thoughts will bite back eventually. It's like when I'm in those good moments, deep down I'm aware that these feelings are temporary and won't fix anything. It's a cycle

 

[nails]

yes, i've felt it for a while. even when i really didn't want to die, i still knew that i had to. i had a really strong desire to live and tried to convince myself that i could live happily, but life put me back in my place and reminded me why that was wrong. there's just no way for me to exist with even a shred of peace, let alone happiness. i've tried to view it from different perspectives and consider different paths, but dying is the only option. every aspect of my life will be shit forever, and that's just a fact. there's too much wrong with me and everything i want is simply not feasible.
dying asap is all i can do to prevent further deterioration and embarrassment (if that's even possible).