sadanon3
Member
- Sep 1, 2021
- 34
yes I can't remember anything anymore and i have zero creative drive (work in creative industry lol). when I think about it, it makes me even more depressed. Lovely.
neverbeenbetter
Member
- Jul 16, 2022
- 39
i went without showering for 8 months and didnt come out of my room for other people once, i think i only hade a few brief conversations with my mom. i started seeing tracers in my eyesight, im still a hikikomori but now i shower.
i wonder what kind of damage this has done to my brain.
i wonder what kind of damage this has done to my brain.
WhatPowerIs
Enlightened
- Jun 19, 2022
- 1,055
My mind feels foggier. There's some dark cloud surrounding it. I have trouble trying to place dates on certain events that have happened to me and so forth. I feel like I should get this checked out by a doctor.
kiuya
Tired
- Nov 16, 2021
- 92
I have the same issue. I can't really say when important life events happened, I can just say that it happened and if it was recently I can maybe recall few key details. My time perception is way off and I have trouble learning new skills.
I've also noticed that reading books has become harder for me, I forget what I read maybe 3 sentences ago.
Brain damage sometimes leads to behavioral changes. Maybe that's why you changed from having no shower to having shower now.
sadwife
Always unloved
- Jul 24, 2022
- 11
Yes, after I finished school I became really agoraphobic and didn't talk to many people. I felt like I couldn't do anything besides listen to music and stare at the wall. I was like that for years. I'm recently trying to challenge this, but I feel my brain has changed too much and I'm too far gone now.
WhatPowerIs
Enlightened
- Jun 19, 2022
- 1,055
It's the same thing for me but with TV shows. I'll be watching one and after a few weeks it's like I never even watched it, it never lingers in the mind for too long. Key events maybe, a few scenes, but not the whole thing. I haven't read a book in a very long time.
Hirokami
Out of order
- Feb 21, 2021
- 607
As of late, I'm a lot more forgetful than I usually am, so there's that. Even simple words escape me at times. I can't even socialize or pick up on social cues as much. I'm not only dumber, but also more insufferable.
kiuya
Tired
- Nov 16, 2021
- 92
Yeah, exactly same issue with that as well
. I can maybe tell the general plot or random things that got stuck on my brain, but after a month or two I basically could rewatch the show without remembering anything.yeah same here, watch same episodes of shows constantly,or at least on in the background-----also was a music listening fanatic, but this year music doesn't exist at all
tilsleepcomes
Willing to try anything.
- Jul 23, 2021
- 106
I deffo feel dumb and can't learn new things as my depression deepens. I have memory issues with it, too.
WhatPowerIs
Enlightened
- Jun 19, 2022
- 1,055
I watched so many movies years ago, and in the following years I've been watching less and less. It's the same with music, I've been adding fewer and fewer tracks to my Liked Songs on Spotify.
I wish there was an easy fix for this but nothing in life comes easy, does it? I am tired...Yeah, exactly same issue with that as well
chocolatebar
Paragon
- Jul 11, 2021
- 974
Intelligence is something so loosely defined, with conflicting views and a high degree of subjectivity, so it makes most discussions about it more difficult.
There's quite the consensus and some evidence about how the brain structure promotes the intelligence, but there are some nuances to it, because brain size doesn't exactly correlates to intelligence and the brain can, under some circumstances, recover from losses, with the remaining parts doing the work usually done by the lost ones.
Depression is observed to have an impact in the brain structure and can promote the death of some cells, as already mentioned, but what does it really mean to the person's experience? This is something we don't know yet. Perhaps, it can make the person lose some abilities, but, perhaps, it doesn't really make a difference, because some people with smaller brains than average can have abilities much higher than average. It's also worth mentioning that the brain isn't only responsible for the individual's intelligence, but much more, from motor control to making sense of sensorial input.
With that said, from my personal experience, I've been to the depths (still near the depths, unfortunately) and I don't perceive reduction in "raw processing power". On the other hand, I feel much more fragile in the sense that I find it really hard to think when under stress or anguish, to the point of failing in simple tasks.
There's quite the consensus and some evidence about how the brain structure promotes the intelligence, but there are some nuances to it, because brain size doesn't exactly correlates to intelligence and the brain can, under some circumstances, recover from losses, with the remaining parts doing the work usually done by the lost ones.
Depression is observed to have an impact in the brain structure and can promote the death of some cells, as already mentioned, but what does it really mean to the person's experience? This is something we don't know yet. Perhaps, it can make the person lose some abilities, but, perhaps, it doesn't really make a difference, because some people with smaller brains than average can have abilities much higher than average. It's also worth mentioning that the brain isn't only responsible for the individual's intelligence, but much more, from motor control to making sense of sensorial input.
With that said, from my personal experience, I've been to the depths (still near the depths, unfortunately) and I don't perceive reduction in "raw processing power". On the other hand, I feel much more fragile in the sense that I find it really hard to think when under stress or anguish, to the point of failing in simple tasks.
Exactly this, this is how I feel also. Such decline in health and I suffer so much depression and anxiety. Even though I do function with a job as well as taking classes, it's like I put on a "happy front" and look like I have it all together when inside and when I'm not working I am in shambles. And I'm in a constant cloud, it is getting so much more difficult to do daily tasks like budgeting/bill paying, household chores, self-care etc. I have such a hard time concentrating and managing my time and I have horrible coping skills that actually have the potential to kill me at any time...and sometimes I hope it will. But then my dog would be cooped in the house with my dead body until someone found me, possibly days later so then I fear sudden death for his sake. It's just such a dark and confusing state to be in. And I'm in therapy, we are trying to do it without meds but it is so difficult to work through things. And I almost feel myself pulling away from therapy. I'm so sorry you are in this space, I understand how it feels.
StolenLife
Warlock
- Sep 19, 2022
- 740
Yes, I remember being able to memorize and quote huge chunks of dialogue from movies and tv shows as a child before I was depressed. I also read a lot and had a wide variety of creative interests, such as drawing and learning languages. Nowdays I can barely concentrate on anything, can't draw anymore because I didn't have time to practice it in childhood, and can't even look in the general direction of a bookshelf without feeling tired. I can barely remember the plot of an episode or a movie after it ends. Perhaps the worst of all is the fact that I'm slurring words while I speak in Uni, it's like my mouth doesn't follow my brain, which makes me look like a weirdo. This started in high school when depression and suicidal thoughts first came and only increased over time, though it's probably more due to anxiety than anything else.
makethepainstop
Visionary
- Sep 16, 2022
- 2,029
