Discussion Does anyone else's depression hit harder at night?

[ThatFlyGuy]

Is it just me or does anyone go through there normal day okay, but the second you lie down to go to sleep you just feel so hopelessly empty, lose all sense of happiness, like you forgot happiness was even an emotion one could feel. I've been like this for so long and I never really though about how strange it is.

 

[downndone2]

Lately my depression and anxiety have been terrible at night. I'll wake up in a cold sweat just wanting to end it.

 

[HadItAll]

Somehow for me it's the daytime when I'm much more depressed and anxious. In nighttime most of the external factors are on standby, so I'm able to feel a bit more relaxed.

 

[LookingOverTheEdge]

The worst part is always when I lay down to sleep. Throughout the day it's there but you can distract yourself with other things with varying success. That time between where you lay down and actually fall asleep, it's all you have.

 

[kkwy]

My stress and anxiety are very bad during the day, actually it's constant, I'm at the point where I'm never at ease. I get horrible few hours of sleep, usually wake up sweaty. I sleep but I'm never rested.

 

[Huntfish34]

My depression can hit hard at night, but Usually it's my friend. It's just something about the darkness that I feel a certain comfort and peace, kinda like a safety blanket if you will.

 

[EndlessDream]

The urge to CTB is 9/10 during the day and 11/10 at night

 

[lionetta12]

Is it just me or does anyone go through there normal day okay, but the second you lie down to go to sleep you just feel so hopelessly empty, lose all sense of happiness, like you forgot happiness was even an emotion one could feel. I've been like this for so long and I never really though about how strange it is.

Night time suck due to all the unavoidable PTSD nightmares and everyone I care about is asleep so I can't reach them and talk to them when I have bad dreams.

 

[The Eeyorish One]

For me it's more active whenever I'm not glued to a screen. I have to have a constant distraction or it will take over. Sometimes forced social interaction can help too because I spend all my brain power on trying to figure out how to socialize and not look like an idiot lol. Night time sucks while awake since there's no distractions, but once I'm asleep I'm fine, as I don't dream very often.

 

[BlissfulVoid]

Is it just me or does anyone go through there normal day okay, but the second you lie down to go to sleep you just feel so hopelessly empty, lose all sense of happiness, like you forgot happiness was even an emotion one could feel. I've been like this for so long and I never really though about how strange it is.

Very relatable indeed. During the day, at least I can partially distract myself. But when trying to sleep, my mind goes racing down the dark path.
I've been prescribed some meds to calm my brain down enough to sleep, as I reached a point where I barely got any sleep at all. Not anything that can be used to CTB though.

 

[borderline-feline]

I don't have depression, but I've found that the dead of night is when my emotional stability plummets and my feelings of emptiness reach their zenith.

I don't know exactly why that is, but when it's time for lunch at 8 PM, my self-destructive and self-sabotaging desires grow exponentially.

 

[grandeur.egg]

Is it just me or does anyone go through there normal day okay, but the second you lie down to go to sleep you just feel so hopelessly empty, lose all sense of happiness, like you forgot happiness was even an emotion one could feel. I've been like this for so long and I never really though about how strange it is.

ahh, this is very common actually. its because laying down to sleep, you have absolutely nothing to distract you, and youre forced to process all of your emotions from the day. you likely do have those feelings during the day as well, but you dont notice them, and cant process them until theres nothing else occupying your brain.

 

[Unending]

It's definitely hard to lay my head when I know the second I do, all the pain I've been distracting myself from all day will bubble up.

 

[angelus]

Lately my depression and anxiety have been terrible at night. I'll wake up in a cold sweat just wanting to end it.

I just started to feel the same due to severe anxiety and depression. There are physiological symptoms that scare me at night and even during the day sometimes. It just makes me feel more anxious and to want much more to ctb.

 

[FireWalkWithMe]

The opposite. I feel calmer at night and horrendous during the day.

 

[downndone2]

I just started to feel the same due to severe anxiety and depression. There are physiological symptoms that scare me at night and even during the day sometimes. It just makes me feel more anxious and to want much more to ctb.

Same. My anxiety is thru the roof before I get ready to leave the house as well. I often feel like I'll pass out. If I push thru it, I usually do okay but dammit. The anxiety makes me want to ctb more than the depression

 

[Sighing]

I tend to go into cycle where I keep thinking about things that I fucked up, things I could've done better, etc. Then I take a turn and start thinking about how it doesn't really matter anyway, and why I care. This then takes another turn down to how everything is structured in a way that forces people to do things they don't really want to do and it's a whole Matrix situation in my head with the red and blue pill. It's tiresome as hell and super depressing.

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

There've been quite a few studies on this. Lack of regular stimuli, rumination, artificial light, and the effect circadian rhythm on hormones have all been proposed as reasons we often feel more depressed at night.

I just combed through a 2008 study that identified three common low points in people with certain mental health conditions: upon waking, an afternoon slump, and late evening.

 

[BlackWednesday]

For me the mornings are worst. Getting out of bed is so difficult

 

[Bitterman1996]

I feel most awful at night but i think i hate it the most when the day breaks, the feeling that yet another day has come, crushing reminder that time does not wait for anyone even when you are unable to move.

Well, it certainly doesnt help that ive trouble sleeping at night as well

 

[ThisIsLife]

Somehow for me it's the daytime when I'm much more depressed and anxious. In nighttime most of the external factors are on standby, so I'm able to feel a bit more relaxed.

Same. I find relief only at night. Daytime is nightmare.

 

[SuicideDreams]

I get a type of Sun Down Syndrome where my bipolar mania and suicidal ideations and thoughts are heightened greatly.

 

[jodes2]

Being alone at night really sucks. But when I wake up it's pretty bad too. Emptiness follows me throughout the day, not much to look forward to other than sleep. Waiting hours and hours for sleep is painful. Boring as hell, bored to death most of the time. Don't have an attention span for TV, never can follow much. Waste of time. Scrolling Reddit is a pretty poor waste of time, I just spend some time shitposting, it helps a bit. But when I'm alone it's the worst. When everyone has gone to sleep

 

[bolt]

it can be harder at night for a number of reasons.... being tired, having less distractions, environmental factors, etc. It also can be a sign of burnout.... that you are exhausted. It is better than being depressed in the am though (overall speaking)

 

[4g1vvvven]

For me it's the morning, thinking about the things I should do that day and being haunted by them.
I typically get a little better throughout the day and pass out, guess I'm lucky in avoiding late night thoughts but idk, doesn't feel lucky

 

[draingang]

I've felt like that for years. I'm mostly normally functioning during the day but at nights I can have complete breakdowns sometimes. I treat it as a sort of reset so I can get through another day without anyone noticing. If I get a moment of weakness during the day I usually go and lock myself in a toilet stall for a few minutes to collect my thoughts and calm down