Does anyone else write their suicide note in their head all the time?

[taker_of_insulin]

Almost every day, I type out my note that I'd like to leave my friends and family in my head. And it's so long, I should probably try and put my thoughts down on paper, so when I am ready, I'll be able to leave a good piece of literature for them. lol.

But honestly, I constantly think about the last things I'd like to say to so many people. And in my head, the letter is so long. Like pages and pages, if I want to write everything down in my head that I'd like to say.

 

[FailedNav]

Yeah. I think about what I need to say all the time. But when I try to actually write the letter, it's just a jumble of juvenile ramblings.

 

[tipoftheRGB]

yes - most days for 3.5 years now so I guess its a form of rumination

 

[Rihan]

I've been writing a note in my head for so long that I actually started a digital draft of it. I started the note over 2 years ago, yet it is nowhere near completed. When I just want to pass the time, I work on my note. It's a hobby at this point. I wonder how long it'll be when I die.

 

[taker_of_insulin]

yes - most days for 3.5 years now so I guess its a form of rumination

Exactly. Nice use of Rumination. It's almost compulsory for me now. Anytime I get stressed or nervous, my mind goes straight to my future suicide note.

I've been writing a note in my head for so long that I actually started a digital draft of it. I started the note over 2 years ago, yet it is nowhere near completed. When I just want to pass the time, I work on my note. It's a hobby at this point. I wonder how long it'll be when I die.

Wow. That's determination right there. I wish I could actually get the balls to put pen to paper.

 

[bl33ding_heart]

I definitely do this a lot. Although the letter is always short and bland. There aren't many words I have for my family and anyone I know in person. However for my online friends, I could write pages and pages for them. About my feelings and how sorry I would be to abandon them.

 

[Shadowsight]

Yes lol.

I've had multiple versions of it saved to my desktop since last year, but I always end up hating it and starting it over(but tbf, I'm just like that in general when it comes to my writing lol). I'm probably gonna have to trim it down as much as possible and just put the bare basics, because I REALLY want to get something out on actual paper to have it ready.

 

[angelhopes]

Yes! I just started writing all of it oncmy private twitter account since I feel like keeping it on my head would make my brain explode :)