Discussion Does anyone else want to ctb while they're still young?

[DetachedDreamer97]

I always throw out my food whenever it goes bad, whether it'd be expired, or is no longer enjoyable to eat
The same applies to my life.
I'm 23 right now, and considering the way things are, I certainly won't live up to 30. Hell... Even 25 is unlikely.

 

[MrAsclepius]

Every birthday is spent crying, it's like a milestone that tortures you.

 

[HelloHell]

"Quality over quantity, better to have a short life filled with happiness than a long life full of suffering"
and when you don't even have "a good quality" of life, what's the point of adding "the quantity" of life?

Yes, I will certainly ctb while I'm still young

 

[Silver]

I'm relatively young at nearly 35, but if I had killed myself 10 years ago, I wouldn't have missed much. Definitely don't intend to reach 35.

 

[Valon]

I'm turning 25 in a couple of days. I definitely don't plan to see my 26th birthday so this one may very well be my last. I don't want to grow old into my thirties, forties, etc. It doesn't get any better, regardless of who you are. If I'm not happy in my prime, I don't see myself being happier when I'm older.

 

[Sprite_Geist]

Originally that was the intention, yes, but the opportunity has expired. The new goal is to not get any older.

 

[Shinkansen]

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Yes!

 

[Mr2005]

I wasted being young for the dumbest of reasons so all I have to look forward to is getting old now whilst looking back at what might have been. It's not really a life worth living

 

[Anthagonos]

I wasted being young for the dumbest of reasons so all I have to look forward to is getting old now whilst looking back at what might have been. It's not really a life worth living

I really understand you. Happened to me the same thing.

 

[enuff]

Yes, I prefer to die young as well. I don't see any benefit to getting old. It seems like a lonely, helpless, poor health, and dependent state to be in. Most old people I know are not happy to be old.

yes i agree getting old sucks. ive seen too many family & friends living to a ripe old age. they become lonely, needy, sickly and sad.
i am not looking forward to that.
not gonna live that long.
so what age do you consider young/old?
do you (or anybody else) plan to ctb at a certain age like some people plan their retirement?
or just asap or "whenever"?

 

[Wrennie]

I'm already diseased and disabled in my youth so the prospect of growing older and my body deteriorating even further is horrifying to me.

Especially being at the mercy of nursing homes... it makes me shudder.

 

[Ghost2211]

yes i agree getting old sucks. ive seen too many family & friends living to a ripe old age. they become lonely, needy, sickly and sad.
i am not looking forward to that.
not gonna live that long.
so what age do you consider young/old?
do you (or anybody else) plan to ctb at a certain age like some people plan their retirement?
or just asap or "whenever"?

Once health and cognitive declines become noticeable. That's a different age for everyone.

 

[WornOutLife]

I'm not that young (33) but I think this age is ideal to die. Don't want see the people I love pass away anymore. Imagine seeing my parents die! I couldn't cope with that.

Still, how selfish I am! Will they be able to cope with my death?

Life is so unfair...!

 

[Ender]

Yes. I could care less that I'm 18. Life is terrible.

 

[setomikey]

I can't imagine myself growing old and seeing the ones I love die and I don't really want to die in my sleep because that sounds scary. I would never get to say goodbye to the ones I love. A big part of me wants to die on my own terms, but I'm afraid that if I do that I'll go to a potential hell

Hi!
Well, I am kinda young too, I am 26 years old. And I am drowning in debt and I just want to end it all.

And I hear you, I wouldn't want to die in my sleep eighter, because it would be a much greater trauma to whoever finds me (like..at first, they would just think that I am sleeping and try to wake me up..and then realizing that I am not sleeping....)
And I am also a little afraid of Hell..I was raised Christian, and even tho I stoped believing in God 11-12 years ago, I am still a little afraid... I just want to die, and I want to be erased of existence, no heaven no hell, no anything whatsoever....the best would have been if I wasn't even born in the first place, but that is not possible since it already happened...
And me of all people would have all reasons to believe in God, but I still don't...and I am at a point that I really just hope that there is nothing out there, no God, no heaven, no hell, no anything....because the 'nothing' is still better than the possibility of something terrible...

 

[user667]

yup. i'm 19 and i'm trying to ctb before i fail out of school and have to get a job.

 

[enuff]

Once health and cognitive declines become noticeable. That's a different age for everyone.

yup that's true. hadn't thought about that. one person's 70 could be another person's 20

yup. i'm 19 and i'm trying to ctb before i fail out of school and have to get a job.

yup i tried to ctb when i was 17, then again at 20, then again and again and again. still here, but leaving soon...

 

[Squiddy]

Hi!
Well, I am kinda young too, I am 26 years old. And I am drowning in debt and I just want to end it all.

And I hear you, I wouldn't want to die in my sleep eighter, because it would be a much greater trauma to whoever finds me (like..at first, they would just think that I am sleeping and try to wake me up..and then realizing that I am not sleeping....)
And I am also a little afraid of Hell..I was raised Christian, and even tho I stoped believing in God 11-12 years ago, I am still a little afraid... I just want to die, and I want to be erased of existence, no heaven no hell, no anything whatsoever....the best would have been if I wasn't even born in the first place, but that is not possible since it already happened...
And me of all people would have all reasons to believe in God, but I still don't...and I am at a point that I really just hope that there is nothing out there, no God, no heaven, no hell, no anything....because the 'nothing' is still better than the possibility of something terrible...

I was somewhat raised Christian. When I'd go to my grandma's for the summer, she would take me to church and they would talk about the end a lot. I just don't want to suffer after dying. Preferably, I'd like there to be an afterlife where I can meet up with my family again and be happy with no mental health problems at all.

 

[deadspirit]

I'm already diseased and disabled in my youth so the prospect of growing older and my body deteriorating even further is horrifying to me.

Especially being at the mercy of nursing homes... it makes me shudder.

Same here. I deal with chronic pain that essentially keeps me shut in all day and night. It's a shame, I often think about the life I could have lived if not for it, but unfortunately I'm stuck with this body. I dunno if I could honestly go another month like this let alone get to old age.

 

[Adamsnolife]

Yes. I'm 33 and still consider that young but not much longer

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Yup. I've always thought the only thing worse than being a sad teen or a sad 20-something is to be a sad 30-something and so on. My dad didn't get married until he was 38 and he turned out to be a horribly out of touch parent and the loneliness from before hand is probably partly what made him so terrible. I'd rather die than let the same thing happen to me. Luckily instead of dying at 30, my plan is still to die at 28.

 

[MindFrog]

Every year gets even worse than the last, why should I even stay honestly? I dont have anything to look forward too once I get older so.. I better cut myself off before I get worse.

 

[KuriGohan&Kamehameha]

Ever since I was 12 years old, I have had thoughts of dying and an intrusive desire to do it NOW before I hit age x. First I wouldn't live till 15, I had said. Then it was 16, 18, 20, and I'm now 21 and still here, trapped in this purgatory. I will most definitely ctb in the next couple years though, preferably sooner.

 

[stygal]

Even if I was physically healthy I couldn't see myself getting older than 55. Thinking about me in my 60s? No way, that would be scary.
I probably wouldn't have a partner and all of my family would be long gone...not having anyone to talk to and a physically decaying body - that honestly sounds like a nightmare.

 

[Nodscene]

Youth is such a relative age nowadays. I'm currently 48 (it's shocking to me, didn't expect to pass 25) but I look young, and if it wasn't for my chronic pain and other issues I'd still consider myself fairly young.

I'd still be able to travel, go hiking, camping, concerts, etc etc. I physically wouldn't have any limits anymore than a thirty year old. It seems like every generation old age is further and further away.

My dad was always old for a son my age and I remember him being 50, grey hair and having a heart attack. He also looked like he was old. Aside from me losing my hair, I look nothing like he did. I could pass for mid to late 30's, I'm thin but still have a hint of muscles from when I used to work out, and have tattoos (not exactly uncommon anymore but it was definitely still frowned upon when I was getting them).

One thing I do promise is that I am not going to reach 50. I'm sure that's pretty damn old for most of you but it's not as bad as it used to be. Even still, I've done my time and more so I deserve to CTB sooner rather than later.

 

[HowNowBrownCow]

Absolutely. I don't want to get old enough for my body to start failing because the thought of being dependent on people for care terrifies me. Also, I don't want to risk me getting older and my views/personality changing in such a way that I wouldn't approve of the person I become. Plus, there are a number of bad fates that could befall me that I want to avoid. In addition, the world is going down the shitter because of overpopulation + global warming + the pandemic, and I would really like to avoid living through the effects as they all get worse.