Does anyone else take small amounts of SN to cope with depressive thoughts?

[drnhng]

idk i have a huge jar of SN that i bought off walmart, and sometimes when i'm super duper depressed usually right before bed, i take like around 1-2 grams. i have no idea why but it makes me feel a bit more at peace, and i guess it feeds my suicide ideation a bit more. It also makes my heart race a little at first and then it makes me kinda tired, so i guess it helps with sleeping too haha. i'm a bit curious if anyone else does this? or are there other ways that you cope? I'm scared that doing this too often can be harmful to my body too lol

 

[happiestman]

SN from Walmart? you mean Nitrate?

 

[drnhng]

SN from Walmart? you mean Nitrate?

nope sodium nitrite haha; i ordered it online

 

[sephlove]

1-2g? What do you feel?

I honestly feel the same way before bed, and it's worse just laying there with your thoughts. So I just don't sleep anymore, and distract myself with music, movies, books. And I only sleep when my body forces me to and I'm forced to KO lol

 

[drnhng]

1-2g? What do you feel?

I honestly feel the same way before bed, and it's worse just laying there with your thoughts. So I just don't sleep anymore, and distract myself with music, movies, books. And I only sleep when my body forces me to and I'm forced to KO lol

honestly most significant is my heart pounding; and a few quick movements like getting out of a chair fast and stuff leaves me a bit dizzy. i'm really familiar with the effects of aphyxia and lack of oxygen since i had severe anemia for roughly a year, and if you had anemia before it's pretty much the same symptoms, like paleness, fatigue, heart pounding fast, and the severity of it p much just depends on how much SN you've taken since it pretty much is related to the g/dl of hemoglobin that is actually doing work in your body

 

[happiestman]

nope sodium nitrite haha; i ordered it online

Probably your body gets immunity from SN soon lol

 

[drnhng]

Probably your body gets immunity from SN soon lol

that would be not very swag :(

 

[happiestman]

Its called Mithridatism search in google if you wanna know more

 

[Meditation guide]

makes my heart race a little at first and then it makes me kinda tired,

It's tiring to have your heart race. I read some athletes take small amounts of it. I can understand why you do that.

 

[puppy9]

It's tiring to have your heart race. I read some athletes take small amounts of it. I can understand why you do that.

So you say I can lose weight on my bed

 

[grungeCat]

I also have a great amount of Sn and taking little dosages before bed is very tempting every night. However I resist to take it because I'm afraid of gaining some kind of tolerance or long-term illness. I don't think you should keep doing it.

 

[Endeavour]

Be careful, it doesn't take a lot to be a lethal dose, there is one case of someone dying from 1g.

On the other hand it could be a kind of schroedingers cat type approach to suicide, maybe would help overcome the SI, although being blue for a few days if you survive could be awkward.

 

[sadworld]

I don't think this is healthy

I've read that 4g is possibly a deadly dose.

 

[Meditation guide]

It's a carcinogen too I think.

 

[Sakura94]

I have a memory of reading someone doing this exact same thing and posting their progress.
I'll try my best to find the thread and what happened to them.
Here you go: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/i-have-been-taking-1-gram-of-sn-every-night.30364/
@Quinlor

 

[self.destractive]

i think id like to try this when mine comes in, for practice

 

[adam&eve]

What happens if you take a lethal dose? How does death arrive, is it painless, what are the symptoms and how long does it take?

 

[Delia]

i did microdose on it, even threw up and had heart speeding (without any signs of cyanosis) once when i combined it with alcohol (precising i never throw up with two glasses of wine which was what i took at that time). Also need to warn you that you can reach lethal dose even with the small dose of 4g (if i recall correctly don't hesitate to correct me if i'm saying bs and also this is NOT gonna be a peaceful death) so like don't do it. It's a bad idea to do it especially if you plan to do that in a long period of time. That's a cancerogenic substance. Just, don't.

 

[drnhng]

So you say I can lose weight on my bed

LMFAOOOOO im underweight, but it still makes me kinda lighter for a few days temporarily

i did microdose on it, even threw up and had heart speeding (without any signs of cyanosis) once when i combined it with alcohol (precising i never throw up with two glasses of wine which was what i took at that time). Also need to warn you that you can reach lethal dose even with the small dose of 4g (if i recall correctly don't hesitate to correct me if i'm saying bs and also this is NOT gonna be a peaceful death) so like don't do it. It's a bad idea to do it especially if you plan to do that in a long period of time. That's a cancerogenic substance. Just, don't.

mm i see; this is what i was looking for, thank you so much! i wasnt sure if it was exactly good for my body haha. what was your reason for microdosing if i may ask?

i think id like to try this when mine comes in, for practice

yeah maybe for practice, in my opinion i feel easier taking it now so i guess it can dissuade the survival instinct, but however like @Delia said in this thread microdosing on it can still be lethal and not a v cash money death

What happens if you take a lethal dose? How does death arrive, is it painless, what are the symptoms and how long does it take?

well that is for your own research mister! idk it might be against the rules to give u an answer haha

I have a memory of reading someone doing this exact same thing and posting their progress.
I'll try my best to find the thread and what happened to them.
Here you go: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/i-have-been-taking-1-gram-of-sn-every-night.30364/
@Quinlor

thank you so much for digging this up for me! i read through it, man looks like ill have to find another method to achieve temporary peace

I don't think this is healthy

I've read that 4g is possibly a deadly dose.

yeah... by now i've realized that from all the kind users that replied to this thread haha. i guess i'll have to find another way to self harm properly. i'm a bitch that can't stand physical pain like cutting, and something like this was perfect for me since it helped me sleep too, but i understand the side effects now and the potential consequences sadly

 

[MAIO]

idk i have a huge jar of SN that i bought off walmart, and sometimes when i'm super duper depressed usually right before bed, i take like around 1-2 grams. i have no idea why but it makes me feel a bit more at peace, and i guess it feeds my suicide ideation a bit more. It also makes my heart race a little at first and then it makes me kinda tired, so i guess it helps with sleeping too haha. i'm a bit curious if anyone else does this? or are there other ways that you cope? I'm scared that doing this too often can be harmful to my body too lol

Really bad idea. You could easily cause brain damage/physical damage to yourself. You certainly do not want to make your life worse. Death has to be all or nothing.

 

[drnhng]

Really bad idea. You could easily cause brain damage/physical damage to yourself. You certainly do not want to make your life worse. Death has to be all or nothing.

ur right; i will try to stop now, thank you so much for the advice!

 

[neverever]

idk i have a huge jar of SN that i bought off walmart, and sometimes when i'm super duper depressed usually right before bed, i take like around 1-2 grams. i have no idea why but it makes me feel a bit more at peace, and i guess it feeds my suicide ideation a bit more. It also makes my heart race a little at first and then it makes me kinda tired, so i guess it helps with sleeping too haha. i'm a bit curious if anyone else does this? or are there other ways that you cope? I'm scared that doing this too often can be harmful to my body too lol

Did you confirm that the Walmart SN is pure?

 

[MAIO]

Did you confirm that the Walmart SN is pure?

It's probably not pure but If OP is causally drinking it OP defiantly shouldn't have pure SN. Forever disability or brain damage isn't a joke.

 

[SmellyRat]

It's a carcinogen too I think.

That's the reason why bacon and alot of other processed meat is linked to cancer because they have SN in them.

 

[Donk]

That's the reason why bacon and alot of other processed meat is linked to cancer because they have SN in them.

On my way to Walmart to buy all their bacon. I guess it's bacon for breakfast, lunch and dinner from now on.

 

[Maka hiamoe]

Did you confirm that the Walmart SN is pure?

I find it hard to believe it is. I once took 0.6g of pure SN, I didn't feel much of anything for about 3 hours. Then I got really sick, sudden nausea, I started vomiting, 45 minutes later I vomited a second time, 45 minutes Iater I vomited a third and last time. I felt absolutely awful and physically very weak and exhausted. I know everyone's body is different but still... with 1 or 2g I would expect OP to feel much worse than what they're describing.

 

[Nymph]

Yup a lot of processed meat has SN in it and it can lead to cancer if you eat it a lot during your life..so in these kind of amounts it's even worse but I guess it doesn't matter to most of you guys since you wanna ctb in the future anyways:/ I've been taking a lot of meds and A lot of ppl try to find some natural sources for medicating because ingesting that much chemicals is not great but I don't even care since I wanna ctb..so I might as well damage my body.

I had no idea this kind of selfharm existed tho

 

[reticen]

You are probably eating prague powder.

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

so you can get high on SN? seems like it would more likely make you feel sick?

 

[drnhng]

Did you confirm that the Walmart SN is pure?

it is >99% SN; SN is really accessible where i live
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so you can get high on SN? seems like it would more likely make you feel sick?

think it just made me a bit dizzy

Yup a lot of processed meat has SN in it and it can lead to cancer if you eat it a lot during your life..so in these kind of amounts it's even worse but I guess it doesn't matter to most of you guys since you wanna ctb in the future anyways:/ I've been taking a lot of meds and A lot of ppl try to find some natural sources for medicating because ingesting that much chemicals is not great but I don't even care since I wanna ctb..so I might as well damage my body.

I had no idea this kind of selfharm existed tho

:(