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Toonloon

Toonloon

Experienced
Nov 17, 2020
253
i accidentally used the phrase ctb with a friend of mine. Instead of dropping it he pushed to know what it meant. I just changed the subject. Has anyone else fucked up and said slang around people who are 'normal'?
 
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Meretlein

Meretlein

Moderator
Feb 15, 2019
1,199
No. When I am out and about in my real life, dark topics like this don't usually occur to me. If they do occur to me, they are little more than passing intrusive thoughts.
 
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summers

Visionary
Nov 4, 2020
2,493
I "joke" about dying and killing myself so much, my friends don't even blink an eye. But I never use ss terms like ctb. Also, be very careful about sharing exactly how much you know about things like SN, N, F - things that are specifically for suicide. That's usually the point where people start worrying. (Of course, they think it's funny when I tell them most days I say fuck when I wake up because I wish I died in my sleep...)
 
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Noctis

Noctis

I wish I'd done it years ago
Dec 15, 2021
308
Not really. No one knows the whole story, but a few people know I've flirted with the idea of suicide. If I even jokingly said "Well, I didn't die in my sleep, so I'm still unhappy" then they'd immediately make some calls and I'd probably end up in a hospital, which I will literally do anything to avoid.
 
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Kobusu

Kobusu

Writer
Oct 18, 2021
268
No, except to one friend who knows how much I struggle. I wouldn't use SS terms with any of my other friends though, it would be a tough conversation to have, and I'm not trying to be "saved".
 
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Arot

Arot

I see only darkness before me
Feb 4, 2020
37
I don't think so, the only other person (who has now blocked me in any other social media) that knew that I was going CTB didn't care about the slang.
 
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myopybyproxy

flickerbeat \\ gibberish-noise
Dec 18, 2021
864
I do not use such slang offline or online. However, there are several in my circle of acquaintances who regularly joke about death and dying - within the bounds of that sort of atmosphere, it is not a red flag. I join in on occasion. I wonder how many of them mean it the way I do.
 
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redd1993

redd1993

Member
Dec 20, 2021
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To be honest I am still learning the slang since I'm new here. I definitely had to google CTB since it was everywhere on the site and I had never seen the acronym before.
 
fatefulstillness

fatefulstillness

ghost.
Oct 24, 2021
151
No, but I talk about suicide quite openly with one person. When it comes to anyone else, I try to avoid the topic, unless my audience can tolerate some messed up humor. I suppose it's hard to hide something so well forever, it kind of slips out at times. But so far everyone laughs, and I never got caught.

Funny how people relate enough to laugh, but deny the possibility of the act so vigorously.
 
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ThriveOrDie

ThriveOrDie

We are already in hell
Jul 11, 2019
449
I accidentally laugh sometimes when I'm uncomfortable.
 
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lobster salad

lobster salad

overcooked :(
Aug 27, 2020
251
I don't talk to people about suicide, except to one friend whom knew what it meant by context. Anyways I joke a lot about death and laugh nervously a lot. My acquaintances say they feel the same and relate. but just that they function unlike me. Nobody would believe/take me seriously, nobody would think it will actually happen. I don't think we should use these acronyms too much outside, safety reasons
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,385
I once called someone else pro-life but not to their face. The people I was with were confused because the person I was talking about never once mentioned they were against abortion in any way. I had to attempt to save face by saying "Well maybe they COULD be!"
 
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sleepcat

sleepcat

New Member
Dec 21, 2021
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i accidentally used the phrase ctb with a friend of mine. Instead of dropping it he pushed to know what it meant. I just changed the subject. Has anyone else fucked up and said slang around people who are 'normal'?
Not specifically CTB but 5150 usually incites questions. Overall I avoid it because people don't get it, whether you're joking or not.
 
veryhappyhuman

veryhappyhuman

Specialist
Aug 25, 2021
340
I don't even care anymore about hiding it. My whatsapp status is the "man running" emoji followed by the bus emoji lol. I set it a month back or so. No one has caught up yet though.
 
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Hirokami

Hirokami

Out of order
Feb 21, 2021
607
Everyone knows me as the knowledgeable one, so I can usually* get away with joking about methods and terminologies without anyone batting an eye. Someone even said they make N for me after I told them what it was haha. It also helps that my circle has a bunch of memers, too.

*Though, there was a point where I was absolutely dejected and joked about ctb a little too much. I was met with concern, so I stopped for a while to lower suspicions.
 
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noname223

Archangel
Aug 18, 2020
5,994
My best friends know about this forum and these abbreviations. One of them feels too sad when I talk about this topic so I stopped telling him details.
But my other friends are pro-choice themselves and are in favor of this forum. I talk a lot about it. They hated the media coverage and understand how helpful this forum is for me.
Though I talked to another (more distant) friend of mine. I did not mention the name of SS. But she judged me for being in such a forum. She thought especially people with mental illness should not have the right to die in most cases. I was really surprised about this stance from her. I defended the forum but we did not really found a compromise.
 
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