Discussion Does anyone else plan to commit suicide after their parents die?

[Pessimist]

Basically "waiting" until they die. Personally I don't think there's a reason for me to stay alive after my mother dies.

 

[ketopia]

That was my passive plan for the last few years of my mom's life. She was so sick and needed a lot of help and I could never have done that to her. She's been gone over a year and I'm going to make my second attempt in a few days

 

[theboy]

Sounds like waiting a long time
time
But it is a noble gesture

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

It wasn't intentional but hey they're already both dead so technically I will kill myself after they died.

 

[WakingNightmare]

Parents and also for my gf so I will be waiting a long time.
I feel like a slave, I don't even enjoy more than 15% of my time on this garbage planet

 

[nyctophilia]

At first, that was my plan, but thinking about how long that will take, I don't think I can wait for that long

 

[suacide]

My mother died 22 days ago. She was all I had left, so my plans are beginning. I can't live without her, but I didn't want to have her feel the pain of having to see me die first. My father will live, he has another daughter with a different woman. It'll hurt for a bit, but I know him. He'll be okay. My mother wouldn't have, just like I'll never be okay without her.

 

[NoPoint2Life]

When I was in my 20s, I just assumed that would be the case. I had no interest in living life and the future.
I am an only child. One parent is in good health and the other is not.
But I never considered how long they would live, how ill they could become, and that I would ever be here in my 40s. Who knew that CTB was so difficult??

Now there is mild panic because I know things are going downhill. I dread having to deal with everything once they are gone.

But ctb I have learned is so complicated. I honestly don't know if I would even have it in me to do. But a new recent concern is that now I have a ctb attempt history that everyone knows about. I know all eyes will be on me after they are gone.Everyone will be wondering if I'm OK and possibly worried about if I might hurt myself. I am a loner at heart so just the presence of people will drive me crazy. I kind of wonder if it will affect me and make me do something impulsive. At this point, I don't even know if that's a good thing or a bad thing.
everything is just so complicated.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm waiting for my Dad. My biological Mum is already dead. On the one hand, I resent it. The emotional guilt instilled in us that we can't leave them. Even though it means they will leave us instead. On the other though, I can't move beyond it. I just feel stuck here for the time being.

 

[darksouls]

my family abused me
they are cold-hearted
they do not care

 

[ketopia]

My mother died 22 days ago. She was all I had left, so my plans are beginning. I can't live without her, but I didn't want to have her feel the pain of having to see me die first. My father will live, he has another daughter with a different woman. It'll hurt for a bit, but I know him. He'll be okay. My mother wouldn't have, just like I'll never be okay without her.

I'm so sorry. There's no pain like it </3

 

[Pessimist]

Parents and also for my gf so I will be waiting a long time.
I feel like a slave, I don't even enjoy more than 15% of my time on this garbage planet

I feel the same way. I don't have a girlfriend tho (I'm too socially anxious for that).

 

[bananaolympus]

Absolutely ctb asap when that happens

 

[bankai]

Actually, I wanted to ctb before my mother dies. Simply because she'll be the only one to really mourn me. That being said, I'm not actually that cruel. I'll probably wait till she passes on and do it probably the next day

 

[SchizoPolyGymnast]

I promised my parents I would care for them no matter what and I intend to keep my promise. After that? My parents are the only people who knew me, who knew what I looked like, what I sounded like, who have memories of me, before I was 21. Once they're gone I may as well be anonymous.

 

[VoidButterfly]

I've really tried to. I've told countless mental health professionals that I need some purpose other than just waiting for family members to die. I've reached the point I can't do that anymore, but it's been my passive suicidal plan for most of my life.

 

[Hollowman]

Yes, that's been my plan for years. I'm beyond tired of waiting though.

 

[WatchmeBurn]

This is my current plan. I'm going to try my best until then and if I'm not happy by then I'll kill myself (it'll be a fair few years still).

It's getting harder and harder to hold out every day, though.

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

I sympathize with the sentiment. My problem is I have a wife and adult kids, so waiting for people to die is not really an option. Otherwise, when my ancient parents finally die, then yes. I feel trapped.

 

[gojidoge]

100% if I haven't already ctb

 

[tulero]

not gonna wait that longer. That could be 5 years, 10 years or how knows

its selfish, but it has to

 

[Kanoh]

If I won't do it earlier then 100% I do it the next day my mother dies. Aa for my father, I don't care.

 

[TheVanishingPoint]

No, I don't think I'll wait for my parents to die
Every moment is the right one — or the wrong one… but still the moment
I'm here… and not here
Who can really say when it will happen?
Maybe it'll be a breath, a crack, a silent step into the mist
Meanwhile, life flows… or crumbles
I watch, I listen, I breathe — and I let it happen

 

[Pessimist]

If I won't do it earlier then 100% I do it the next day my mother dies. Aa for my father, I don't care.

My father isn't abusive and I appreciate a lot of things he does for me. But we do argue a lot and he gets very angry at me. I basically think that both him and my sister are immoral fascists. It's hard for me to say that I truly love them nowadays.