Deleted member 17331
The swan sang with a broken neck
- Apr 21, 2020
- 376
Do you also feel that you are leaving this year?
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Sometimes, I think about finding a job that will guarantee me a fixed income before I leave, to leave money for my pets, but I know that my mom will spend only to pay her own bills. My mom still controls my money and most of my purchases, in addition to other factors that make me very sad. At the moment, I am making money cleaning houses of people I know, but I earn very little, and fibromyalgia makes everything worse. I don't really understand why I'm still breathing. Life has always been hostile, I have had to deal with abuse and responsibilities since my childhood, I am too weak to participate in this concrete jungle.
I'm tired, you know? I no longer feel like prolonging my life, and I believe that suicide is the only thing that can save me.
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Sometimes, I think about finding a job that will guarantee me a fixed income before I leave, to leave money for my pets, but I know that my mom will spend only to pay her own bills. My mom still controls my money and most of my purchases, in addition to other factors that make me very sad. At the moment, I am making money cleaning houses of people I know, but I earn very little, and fibromyalgia makes everything worse. I don't really understand why I'm still breathing. Life has always been hostile, I have had to deal with abuse and responsibilities since my childhood, I am too weak to participate in this concrete jungle.
I'm tired, you know? I no longer feel like prolonging my life, and I believe that suicide is the only thing that can save me.