Discussion Does anyone else have no friends or connections left?

[56709]

I haven't been in contact with any IRL friends in 7 years. There are people who remember me and are even still interested in me from those days but I would probably just disappoint and anger them with what I've become.

I burned all of my bridges being insanely self-destructive and avoidant...

 

[arrow12]

i literally have 0 friends

 

[morningdew]

same here. medical condition keeps me isolated. pushed friends away years ago. family is worthless

 

[Nem]

Pretty close to the same, after I had a near death reaction to meds and becoming majorly suicidal, most of the friends vanished. After a suicide plan, lost a couple of friends off the bat, must've been shitty friends I guess
Peace/hugs

 

[Quax]

I can't trust....so almost 0 left... there may be one, but he is far far away.

 

[Mr2005]

I broke off all connections on purpose. Really nothing keeping me here except my girlfriend who I've tried breaking up with numerous times but it never works out because I'm still alive a week later

 

[howard]

Yes, over last 7 years. Was carer for my wife she bed bound and very I'll. Then most friends back out. She died 3 years ago. Life fell apart, now broken, in shithole, one parasite says is freind bit isn't. All family dead. Cant approach old friends for shame of getting where I am and losing everything. Really dont want any anymore, shutting down , turning down,
My true friends exist but I have lost contact, check on some at times on web and social media but cant contact them, and wont. Next they will hear will be my ctb. Prob in news next week.
Sorry waffle, am bipolar and on manic mode at moment. Feel paradoxically euphoric with my ctb plan.

 

[salibu]

I haven't been in contact with any IRL friends in 7 years. There are people who remember me and are even still interested in me from those days but I would probably just disappoint and anger them with what I've become.

I burned all of my bridges being insanely self-destructive and avoidant...

Same

 

[a_strange_day]

Same here for two years. I did that on purpose, self destruction. Anyway they are better off without me.

 

[Chlo]

The fact you say these people are still interested in you shows that you do have friends, or at least have the connections to make friends...wouldn't say you've burned any bridges if that's true.

 

[burnedCookie]

The only human connections I still have are my therapist and my GP. No family-friends left and my GF died some years ago. At least no one will miss me once I'm gone.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

All the friends I thought I once had are long gone. A handful reached out when I disappeared from fb but they just marvel at my situation and then don't get back in touch cus it's really difficult dealing with someone whose world is imploding. And all id do is moan at them anyway so hey.

 

[Seagirl]

I haven't been in contact with any IRL friends in 7 years. There are people who remember me and are even still interested in me from those days but I would probably just disappoint and anger them with what I've become.

I burned all of my bridges being insanely self-destructive and avoidant...

It's best not to have friends. It's less to go wrong. Have a chit chat to strangers instead,

 

[Astral316]

The only people I have contact with are mental health-types and the liquor store cashier. I'd just as soon catch a unicorn than find someone who wants to spend time with me when they're not getting paid for it. Makes ctb so much easier.

 

[Azizw126]

My situation is bit different. I managed to pushed all my toxic friends away from my life. I felt massively relieved when i got rid of them and the mental abuse they put me through beside taking advantage of my vulnerability and fragility . Now i have my beloved cousin and close friend from kindergarten (I'm 35 now) and a lovely friend from high school. I love them so much, i would die for them but unfortunately they are 7000 miles away from me but i video call them at least twice a week.

 

[Moonicide]

I've lost friends due to self destruction too. I had a best friend of 10 years and burned down that bridge terribly. To be fair, back then I wasn't in treatment or a good friend. I think the breakup was for the best, but it also breaks my heart as to how it ended... Although I haven't been in contact with her in about 2-3 years, I've written a goodbye letter to send to her too.

 

[mediocre]

I've did the same when I was 12 and I was taken out of school because of stress and never went back. Some have tried to contact me over the years to find out what happened to me and if I am ok but because I've ignored them they stopped. I even stopped talking to my cousins who I was close with.

now I'm only contacted by my mum and support workers...

 

[MissNietzsche]

Me me meeeeee My ex left me over four months ago, and since him, I've have not had anyone to talk to

 

[Onomotopoeia]

I have no friends and have not in a long, long time.

My brother and I live together, and if not for him I would literally go months without speaking to someone else (I work from home). Hell, even when I do speak to my brother it's because I forced the conversation and then it's typically regarding money, maintenance etc.

I'm so alone it is literally choking me and yet I am not sure what what i would do/talk about if someone else was here.

I'm not sure if it's amazing or sad that for all my isolation I still seem to lack the anger and self hatred that so many in similar situations have. Actually it's sad, it's always sad

 

[awfullife]

I know the feeling. I have several friends who I have kind of ghosted but who track me down. Since I've been on my downward spiral and they are still thriving in life I find that we have little to talk about. They are really good to me though but I just don't have much to say, I guess. I feel like maybe they don't know what to say either. I wouldn't know what to say to me if I was talking to me!

Life is tough but my dad is my hero. He is one of the only reasons I haven't CBT because he has been my rock, and I have fucked him over so many times.

 

[Manja]

I thought I have friends but it turned out that I don't.
Now I don't even want any...all I want is to die

 

[Hank]

I broke off all connections on purpose. Really nothing keeping me here except my girlfriend who I've tried breaking up with numerous times but it never works out because I'm still alive a week later

a copy of my story :/

 

[UninformedLover]

I literally have zero friends. Just this year I ended my friendship with my childhood best friend. The only people I talk to are my mom,dad and sister. I have come to realize that I always consciously or subconsciously destroy every friendship I ever have. Mos times I end up doing something that ruins the friendship. I don't know what my problem is.

Sometimes I think I am better off without friends.I am socially inept and it's incredibly difficult for me to talk to people anyway. Everytime I speak I feel moronic. I never know what to say.

After every conversation I always mentally comb through it and think over any conversational mistakes I made. Then I mentally agonize over them forever.

When I was a youth I had so many friends. Over the years...I watched it all simply slip away.

 

[Worthless_nobody]

Zero irl friends left. My ex was last person irl I talked to besides family (but they don't count) and he has left me. I have self sabotaged every relationship and friendship anyway. Only online friends left because they can actually understand and relate to how I feel where people in my life can't.

 

[End Piece]

I have a bunch of fairweather friends, but tend to push people away, which makes it hard to form real bonds. It's definitely my fault for isolating so much.

 

[Woodnote]

I've never had a real friend.

 

[CyanideSoup]

I lost the majority of my friends the first time I tried to ctb and ended up in the psych ward, and the rest when I got pregnant while everyone else was out drinking and doing drugs. Its been a really lonely few years, hence the username :') I wish I just had one person who I could talk to other than my boyfriend and family who dont understand, or a toddler.

 

[Shamana]

I have a wide network of people great people I know, but I have zero friends to hang out and honestly don't feel social either even though i'm only. I just 100 years old compared to my friends who are all healthy, succesfull and living life.

 

[CursedForDisaster]

I got back in contact with an old friend but our conversations mainly consist of gifs and the couple times I hung out with her I just ended up feeling lonelier than I have in awhile. It made me realize I haven't really met anyone new in about 6 years.

 

[Bri19750]

I burned all my bridges also for being self destructive. Many people are probably waiting for me to die. I have zero friends.