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whywere

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Jun 26, 2020
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EVERYONE here, ALL of you, in fact the entire website here, you ALL are family to/for me. I hope in some small way that this feeling is across the boards here, as we are the strongest and most loving family that this planet has ever seen.

Skip all the nah sayers, they ARE extreme idiots, as they are just jealous of how kind and loving we are here towards each other.

Everyone on this thread, you are NOT alone, as you have me, and I bet everyone else here as family.

Everyone, have a great sun filled day and lots of hugs and love to everyone here.

Walter
 
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Hotsackage

Enlightened
Mar 11, 2019
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I have friends, a couple, I don't really crave to hang out to, I like doing my own thing, as all the great thinkers sat, embrace solitude. But obviously that doesn't appeal to everyone
 
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FlufflesAway

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Jul 31, 2024
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Same here OP. A life of forced isolation by parental figures, and then a self-reinforcing isolation left me unable to relate to others. I just don't know what to do with them. If I want information I can use reference material. Relationships? I don't know how. I was not exposed to that growing up. I understand it now, but it feels like something I'm incapable of. Even when I used online gaming as an escape I was such a nervous wreck that I couldn't do voice-chat and play at the same time. Familial issues with speaking (being hit or ignored for speaking) meant I hated speaking for any reason. When you're effectively a mute people treat you as if you're intellectually inferior.

It's too tiring, intimidating, stressful and unforgiving. It's something I doubt if recovery is possible. Definitely a factor in wanting to commit suicide.
 
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LastLoveSong

a bad person
Oct 18, 2023
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Same here OP. A life of forced isolation by parental figures, and then a self-reinforcing isolation left me unable to relate to others. I just don't know what to do with them. If I want information I can use reference material. Relationships? I don't know how. I was not exposed to that growing up. I understand it now, but it feels like something I'm incapable of. Even when I used online gaming as an escape I was such a nervous wreck that I couldn't do voice-chat and play at the same time. Familial issues with speaking (being hit or ignored for speaking) meant I hated speaking for any reason. When you're effectively a mute people treat you as if you're intellectually inferior.

It's too tiring, intimidating, stressful and unforgiving. It's something I doubt if recovery is possible. Definitely a factor in wanting to commit suicide.
growing up i played video games all the time, and i would always hear people talk about how they've made their bestest of friends online and gaming, but i literally was never physically able to get on mic without panicking, couldnt even listen to people talking, i would just mute everybody. its still kinda like that but its a lot better now, i can listen to people without talking sometimes and very rarely ill get on mic but it never end well since im really awkward. still dont really understand how it comes naturally to most people

even on this website its really really hard for me even through text, like i cant even really talk to people online this way most of the time this is just a rare occurrence
 
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print('Hello, world!')
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whywere

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Jun 26, 2020
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Well, I did go to a cat rescue on Sunday. It's possible I have 1 friend, idk though... 😺
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What a beautiful kitty!

Love comes in large and small packages and the kitty has love written all over his/her face.

Thank you so much for sharing and have a wonderful day.

Walter
 
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SA1994EC

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Jan 28, 2021
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Zero. No friends, no family members.
People say you should not be needy or look depressed etc. I used to pretend to be someone else who is not me because of the saying (that is quite a long time ago). But if I cannot be who I am with them, what is the point of communicating, not to mention having connections with them? It has been too long for me to feel lonely anymore.
Tragedy is there are so many of us in the same situation. We all share the same pain.
 
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-nobodyknows-

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Jun 16, 2024
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I had someone I used to hang out with, but unfortunately I don't think "friend" is the right word for them anymore.
 
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katara

tired all the time
Mar 17, 2022
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Yep.

Stopped having any IRL friends over a decade ago.

Had a few online acquaintances here and there but I've ended up ghosting all of them for various reasons.

One reason was values and personalities constantly clashing to the point where I got fed up.

Then another person I ghosted because I got tired of writing letters to someone who was living my dream life, while I was struggling and rotting away.

For now I hang out on Typical Skeptic Podcast's live chats and Gigi Young's private forum, as the only people I can relate to anymore are the weirdos who believe in crazy shit.
I just looked up that podcast you mentioned and was listening to it and it's definitely interesting lol, something else. You seem cool although tbh i'm not in my ufo phase anymore but i still think it can be funny to listen to. I swear i was just watching something the other day that would make you laugh too, some guy who exposes ufo/E.T fakers. It was so hilarious and made me wonder if some of these ppl in ufo spaces are being paid to create misinformation because this lady was making zero sense.
 
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Leiot

Coming back as a cat
Oct 2, 2024
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YES. I have associates at work, but no one in my private life, as being older, so many have age discrimination, that when they find out that I am 68, they cannot run to the door fast enough.
Walter, I know the feeling. I'm 66. I just feel like it's over. Like, what's the point?

I have people who say they're friends but not many really are. And of those I don't think any of them would stick around if they knew what went on in my head.
 

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