Help Does anyone else have fluctuating feelings for other people?

[toyu]

I think this is probably because of a mixture of depression and the emotional blunting that comes from the meds, but does anyone else ever just feel nothing for people sometimes?

Like for example, most of the time I love my partner a lot, but sometimes I also feel nothing (not just about them, but in general)

 

[Abyss Dweller]

Yes, 90% of the time I love people in general and the people around me but sometimes it does go the opposite direction

 

[InkMoth]

Can't say really. I don't have really anyone in my life, so... But i would imagine the apathy that i experience towards hobbies and interests, would probably also effect my feelings towards people in my life.

 

[AmanSilvers]

On the days where I don't care about anything enough to get out of bed, I find that I don't really care about my partner either, which really sucks.
Sometimes when I am in a spiral I will get angry at my partner for caring about me, which is ridiculous and embarrassing, but it feels very serious in the moment. Part of me wishes that I'd found someone that would be abusive toward me so I'd have a reason to ctb, I guess?

When I realize I am feeling a strange way like that I will tell him my head isn't right, in case I've said something that might be hurtful. He gives me more grace than I deserve.

 

[toyu]

Yes, 90% of the time I love people in general and the people around me but sometimes it does go the opposite direction

Alright, glad to hear I'm not the only one.

On the days where I don't care about anything enough to get out of bed, I find that I don't really care about my partner either, which really sucks.
Sometimes when I am in a spiral I will get angry at my partner for caring about me, which is ridiculous and embarrassing, but it feels very serious in the moment. Part of me wishes that I'd found someone that would be abusive toward me so I'd have a reason to ctb, I guess?

When I realize I am feeling a strange way like that I will tell him my head isn't right, in case I've said something that might be hurtful. He gives me more grace than I deserve.

I'm glad you found someone who seems to car a lot about you, and who understands.

Can't say really. I don't have really anyone in my life, so... But i would imagine the apathy that i experience towards hobbies and interests, would probably also effect my feelings towards people in my life.

Yeah makes sense. Hope you'll find the for you eventually.

 

[calebzz1]

Yeah, I'm generally a very cold and pragmatic person.

I still have empathy and help when I can but due to my visual impairment being super severe in nature I have to focus on myself first, people are secondary if I'm being brutally honest.

I wish the best for everyone but a lot of people in my life don't take initiative to actually help with my issue at the core and instead prioritize different activities which I simply can't relate to anymore.

I don't really care what people do as my life is right now is currently full of struggle and I feel almost blind most days.

 

[Pepper]

Honestly, the only people I care about would be my cat, my best friend, my therapist (granted she can't persuade me to not ctb), and the people on this forum.
As I've grown older, my empathy is selective - I can't stand a lot of people, especially the ones who cry "oh woe is me" to a situation they created, and make themselves look like the victim without willingly and actively helping themselves. My half-sister would be a prime example for that.
Other people who piss me off, because it happened to me today while driving, men who think they're hot shit with their vehicle - whether that be some lifted truck, souped up car or in my instance today, a fucking Jeep with a Punisher logo on it, I believe. He sped up to try to block me from merging because I was going a teensy bit faster than him. It's like, geez, are you trying to overcompensate for having a tiny d*ck (not sure if that word is allowed) or are you in that of a rush to go home and kiss your daddy on the lips? It's already bad enough that a good majority of people don't know how to drive in the winter (upstate New York, Central NY to be exact), now we have the same people who also don't know how to drive in the summer. Sit your asses home if you don't know how to drive.

 

[rottencore]

I really get this. Most of the time I feel too much, but sometimes it's just like nothing matters. I love my cat more than anything and she's probably the reason I'm still alive, but some days even to her I would just feel nothing. It feels so horrible because I can go like I obviously care about this person or thing, but there's just nothing inside. I can't feel anything.

 

[toyu]

I really get this. Most of the time I feel too much, but sometimes it's just like nothing matters. I love my cat more than anything and she's probably the reason I'm still alive, but some days even to her I would just feel nothing. It feels so horrible because I can go like I obviously care about this person or thing, but there's just nothing inside. I can't feel anything.

This is pretty much exactly how I feel. I know that I do love them, but I end up getting anxious because what if I actually don't and this is just how it is now? It's very annoying.