does anyone else have an age they said they’d end it at?

[heroingirl]

i realized that i have only pushed it off for years. i told myself originally that i wouldnt make it to 16 or that id do it on my 16th birthday. im 22 now and have had multiple ages set as "goals" in the past. curious to know what your guys' was and what stopped you at that age

 

[LonelyPrince]

i realized that i have only pushed it off for years. i told myself originally that i wouldnt make it to 16 or that id do it on my 16th birthday. im 22 now and have had multiple ages set as "goals" in the past. curious to know what your guys' was and what stopped you at that age

I always thought I would end it at 18 but I'm now 19. I haven't set an exact age. When it happens, it happens.
I don't think I'll make it past to 30 tho..

 

[_wishforwings]

For a long time I wanted to die before I turned 18, but I'm honestly glad I didn't just because I think it's important to wait until you're at least an adult to make a decision like that, even though I am still very much planning on ending my life. Now I am planning on ctbing at 21, I guess just because I've noticed people ctbing at that age in the past coming years and also someone specific who ctbed in the past that I rlly looked up to that was 21, don't rlly feel comfortable saying who though just out of respect. But also I don't feel too strictly like I want to go at a certain age as long as I'm gone lmao, I don't turn 21 for another month and it's been really really hard but I also feel a little bit obliged to stay until then because I'm going to my brother's wedding,, idk

 

[LastNite]

16

 

[claeasi]

I started having these thoughts when i was 12, i thought i wouldn't make it past 14... Here i am at 19, lol..

 

[failedmind]

18. i turned 25 this year. maybe i'll have the courage one day soon

 

[Passenger4224]

I plan on going when I reach 22.

I am currently 21 and 10 months

 

[Liebestod]

I was thinking about 22 but since that's coming up in a couple years I just pushed it to 24.

 

[BillyBob]

Mine was 20, but now I am well into my late 30's. Nothing has changed at all but hating life more lol

 

[Karrikin]

I set a hard deadline at 30 but that's so far away I'm not even sure at this point.

 

[myattempt]

Been suicidal since age 9 - I used to say I'll ctb and then every year passes - I tell myself I'll be dead by 23 - I am 18 (my first ctb attempt was at 13)

 

[dreaming]

Attempted a few times when I was a minor, I thought I would succeed by the time I turned 18, evidently I didn't. While its hard to see myself living past certain ages, I never really even see myself being able to live to the next year.