Kevin_Logan
Member
- Nov 17, 2021
- 36
Nowadays I am better mentally, so I only struggle to wake up because I am a bit lazy, but back when I was very depressed, staying awake was too painful for me
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thewalkingdread
Life is a pointless, undeserved, unnecessary pain.
- Oct 30, 2023
- 408
Yes... In a very similar way I also hate that I was born.
Fuck yes,I hate waking up stagger through another bullshit day.
sserafim
消えたい
- Sep 13, 2023
- 7,399
Same! I hate that I was born as well. The worst thing is that I didn't even get to consent to it, it just happened
articledon
Student
- Feb 27, 2021
- 191
yes, my day always starts out with a curse word when i realize its the start of another long drawn out day t
Final_Choice
Mage
- Aug 3, 2023
- 511
With a passion. I absolutely love sleeping, I wish I could sleep more but I just can't afford to do so for reasons. But I try to sleep as much as I can, it's just so comforting and peaceful.
terra.nuvo
Member
- Feb 15, 2024
- 93
Yes! I can't explain how much I resonate with this post. Every time I wake up I long for the sweet release of sleep. I'm so tired of constantly going through the day being bored with everything and just trying to find ways to keep my attention until the next sleep. It's so infuriating. I wish I could just sleep for the rest of my life.
4everDone
death is freedom
- Feb 2, 2024
- 124
Absolutely. The worst part is that short moment when I remember who I am, my life and things that are happening to me. It's like waking up into a nightmare and only death is the escape.
Onomatopoeia
Student
- Feb 17, 2024
- 172
Me too! I never had a lucid dream in my life until after my husband was murdered. Now I have them all the time. I know I'm dreaming, but I'm consciously aware of what's going on in the dream. I can control it. Every single time I lean in just to kiss him, I wake up.
not-2-b-the-answer
Archangel
- Mar 23, 2018
- 7,949
CypherB
Those things I've never said
- May 27, 2023
- 220
I always have beatuful dreams that feel so real every night. When I wake up I actually need a minute or two to get that I was just dreaming. Yes I hate it
divinemistress36
Enlightened
- Jan 1, 2024
- 1,539
Some say deceased loved ones visit you in your dreamsMe too! I never had a lucid dream in my life until after my husband was murdered. Now I have them all the time. I know I'm dreaming, but I'm consciously aware of what's going on in the dream. I can control it. Every single time I lean in just to kiss him, I wake up.
Yep, unfortunately it's the norm tho even if you had all the money in the world you'd find yourself just doing the same shit, how many places can you go how much stuff can you buy how many people can you make happy for a moment but then I'm the end what does it really matter? We're all just wasting our time trying to find fulfilment in either relationships or materialistic possessions that will all inevitably be lost and forgotten
RemainingDubious
Most men only receive flowers at their funeral.
- Feb 18, 2024
- 280
i love sleep and wish i could have eternal sleep. waking up and falling to sleep is the worst.
my experience is rather strange. Ever since childhood i'd fall asleep wishing to die. Upon waking up i'd be disappointed i still existed. It's been like that the majority of my existence.
Then it all changed. When me and my partner started talking again after years (She used to live five houses away from me when we were teens, and she was like my best friend in high school.) we'd fall asleep video calling each other and wake up to each other. Things were completely different.
When we moved into together i'd often fall asleep wondering how i got so lucky. Wondering if i was dreaming because it was too good to be true.
i'd wake up to her next to me. Happy to be alive. i actually felt alive (something i hadn't felt since being a naive child.) Sometimes i would lay there admiring her beauty waiting for her to wake up. Waiting to find out if she'd dreamt again and if so what crazy dream did she have. It was amazing. Life had become better than ever. Better than i ever imagined it could be.
When she suddenly passed away unexpectedly. Reality became the reality i'd known so well all the years she wasn't in my existence. Only now memories of how perfect things were haunt me since she's forever gone. The life i had is forever gone too.
It's been over a year now and i still can't adjust. When i go to bed it feels so empty without her. i feel so empty without her. When i wake up i foolishly expect her to be next to me. It's torturous. i hate my reality. i honestly can't wait to ctb, so that i can escape this hell i'm trapped in. Yet i'm too stupid to be able to locate the necessary bus stop.
Captive_Mind515
King or street sweeper, dance with grim reaper!
- Jul 18, 2023
- 434
Actually, I'm a morning person… like an extreme morning person. I'm usually awake at crazy o' clock, and my body is very used to it. I even have optimism in the morning, because it's my favourite part of the day! (Yes I know I'm a weirdo 
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But yeah, I can definitely identify with the other sentiments about dreading facing the day. I still get that feeling and not wanting to go through all the mundane boring pointless crap of everyday life!
I feel like some sort of nocturnal animal, I wish I could just come out early in morning when it's dark and quiet… get everything done and then retreat back into my cave and hide from the world.
I was definitely not designed for this world/society. I don't function like a normal person.
)But yeah, I can definitely identify with the other sentiments about dreading facing the day. I still get that feeling and not wanting to go through all the mundane boring pointless crap of everyday life!
I feel like some sort of nocturnal animal, I wish I could just come out early in morning when it's dark and quiet… get everything done and then retreat back into my cave and hide from the world.
I was definitely not designed for this world/society. I don't function like a normal person.
My waking reality is a cruel one but sleeping is still nice, I like dreaming.
thewalkingdread
Life is a pointless, undeserved, unnecessary pain.
- Oct 30, 2023
- 408
Yes, I pretty much always wake up with a sense of dread. Weird that on the other hand, my parents wake up thankful and relieved they are still alive. Shame we can't give our remaining years to them.
Goku Black
Global Mod
- Jun 5, 2023
- 3,135
BorderlineChellery
I was never meant for this life...
- Feb 19, 2024
- 66
Waking up everyday just feels like a massive disappointment
thewalkingdread
Life is a pointless, undeserved, unnecessary pain.
- Oct 30, 2023
- 408
ImsooDone1N
Arcanist
- Nov 22, 2018
- 839
Waking up is so horrible. Second I realize I'm awake I feel like someone thrown a bucket of ice water on me, except it's not ice water is pure anxiety & fear. I've vivid dreams often & even the bad ones are better/ more exciting /interesting than my actual existence.
raindrops
Someday, eventually
- Mar 29, 2020
- 429
i love the night <3 i wish it could be night all the time.
Euthanizedmonkey
Member
- Feb 19, 2024
- 5
Funny reading that just after waking up. Getting a break for the pain is nice but forgetting it and being reminded full force is.. If I lived in the US and had access to guns I guarantee I would already impulsively have shot my self before my morning coffee.
The worst part of everday
Pluto
Meowing to go out
- Dec 27, 2020
- 3,416
aWeeBitTired
I don't know anything.
- Feb 25, 2024
- 43
Sometimes I prefer the nightmares (unless it's really bad). But it's like being dead. If I wake from a noise or my roommates, being able to exist in this semi-conscious state into the ethereal is addicting. It feels nice, I'm permanently in the that moment, no worries or pain... I feel like a fish; it feels nice.
trapped_ina_cage
New Member
- Nov 25, 2023
- 2
Sleeping is the unfortunately the only thing I actually enjoy anymore. I'm starting to lose the joy I used to feel with my hobbies that kept my my mind at bay. Waking up and having to deal with shit during the day sucks.
