I had a really weird waking up kind of experience a few months ago. I had accidentally O'Ded on opiates. I was at home at the time and it was pure chance that i was found. I hadnt been in contact with my mental health team for a couple of weeks and they were worried so sent the Police out to do a welfare check. When i didnt answer the door they broke in and found me unconscious with a needle still in my arm. On the way to the hospital they gave me a shot of naloxone (it reverses the effects of opiates), and i "woke up" breifly but went straight out again. I remember at some point after receiving the naloxone, feeling like something was wrong, like maybe i was having a bad reaction to the naloxone and i vividly remember trying to tell the paramedics that there was something wrong, but i couldnt talk and i also remember trying to move my arms or legs & they wouldnt move either. It was like my brain was conscious and willing, but the rest of my body was unconscious. Like being a vegetable, aware of things around me and voices but totally unable to respond. It was the worst feeling. I cant even describe how bad that feeling was. Feeling like maybe this is it. When this was happening to me I also could feel my breathing getting weaker&weaker and knowing that very soon i will be taking my last breathe. I even remember hearing someone say, "were losing her". Then i remember my arm falling like a dead weight off the trolley and taking my last breathe. I wasnt scared thinking i was taking my last breathe, in fact i was talking to my mum and saying to her, Im coming mum, ill be with you soon. What scared me was the very real feeling that i was actually a vegetable and that the naloxone they gave me had some kind of bad effect on me and now i was going to be in this vegetative state. When i did eventually "wake up" in resus i was told that i had stopped breathing a couple of times and they had to resusitate me. Part of me was sad for waking up but also glad i didnt wake up as a vegetable. Ive spoke to several people since and im aware that people can go into bad withdrawal on being given Naloxone but i dont think thats what happened to me. I belivee i had some weird reaction to the Naloxone. Never again, thats all i know.
