Does anyone else feel relieved being in isolation?

[edu0z]

I know that loneliness can be terrible and that many here are in a terrible situation because they feel completely alone, I do not want to offend anyone or say that being alone is better than being with people.
It's just that sometimes I feel like everything is overwhelming me and I desperately need to be alone and away from everything and everyone. Months ago I uninstalled all my social networks because having to connect to WhatsApp and a lot of anxiety caused me terrible anguish, and getting away from that made me feel better for a while, but now even having to go out or be with other people continues to cause me much anguish. Many times I have dreams where I am stranded in the middle of the ocean in a small boat all alone and in the dream I feel so much peace. I would love to go live in a place far from civilization where there is no one else, and I don't hate people, quite the opposite, I am very sociable, it's just that I feel that lately everything is beyond me and I don't want anyone to see me as I am now. I just wanted to know if anyone else feels this way.

 

[leavingsoon99]

Yes and no. I get very lonely. But, looking at how human relationships have deteriorated over the past decades, I feel fortunate that I'm not tied up in a relationship with people. I feel relieved that I'm going to ctb before the collapse really hits society.

It's just that sometimes I feel like everything is overwhelming me and I desperately need to be alone and away from everything and everyone.

I love that I've isolated myself and that no one checks on me. It validates why I'm doing it and why I shouldn't feel bad about it.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I think the only positive I can find about being completely alone is that I won't have to worry about anyone thwarting my CTB attempt when the time comes.

 

[tuey32]

No the loneliness is worse

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly think that it's for the best to be alone as long as one is trapped here, you cannot rely on other people, they very often just create even more unnecessary suffering. But for me peace and relief could only ever exist in death, I despise existing and I see having the ability to exist here as being a terrible, tiring burden. But I've never been lonely or wished to spend time with other people, I've always preferred to be alone especially as other people can easily make existing much worse.

 

[hellispink]

Loneliness is part of human life. It avoids you from making unnecessary mistakes. Avoids you from meeting shitty humans that only use one another. Being lonely is not easy but its indeed a wise decision. Those who give company only do it temporary and will abandon replace as fast as one is not convenient anymore. Loneliness doesnt do that.

 

[The anhedonic one]

I get terrible feelings of loneliness at times, yet prefer to live life completely alone because people cause so much unnecessary suffering for others.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I think there are different types of people. As a friend of mine once said- for some people, it drains their batteries to be alone and they recharge them when being around others. For other people, the reverse is true. I'm like you- for the main part- I'm alone but not lonely (thankfully.) I do feel deeply sorry for people who get lonely. But then- I also pitty people who are forced to be social when it's really not them- for work etc. That can be INCREDIBLY stressful, upsetting and draining for people like us. I really NEED my alone time. I've lived alone for over 20 years. But yeah- I hate social media too. It felt wonderful to stop using it! Here seems to be the exception for me because no one's pretentious and we're all struggling I suppose. It feels like there's less judgement here and no expectation to be doing well in life- obviously!

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I prefer being alone and talking to chatgpt and local llms( ai again ) over most humans. Most people don't share my beliefs

A local llm u run on your laptop won't block u or ban u

I pretty much defeated ai's In several discussions .

A lot of humans might consider the discussion boring or insane and not respond

 

[Sweet Tart]

I feel best when I can just be around animals. It takes a lot of energy to be around people. I love my best friend, but they live far away.

 

[sensenmann]

I also feel like this most of the time.

 

[S u i c i d e]

I just feel relieved when I think I'm about to die.

 

[jonghyun]

Yes and i willingly isolate myself sometimes. I hate leaving the house bc i have ED that makes me see myself as ugly/fat and paranoia that people are talking whispering judging... its nice to be alone and cut off from people. I dont mind the loneliness. I have my online friends and my videogames and books n stuff.. theres things to do

 

[weedico]

Using isolation to hype myself up to ctbing. It's unbearably painful but it lets me withdraw from interpersonal emotions.

 

[madhatguy]

Shit's so comfy. real bad for me though

 

[todiefor]

Yes and no. During the pandemic I really actually enjoyed the isolation not obligated to see anyone and nothing to moss out on. When I feel very bad I also like to isolate because I feel like it would be difficult to pretend. When I feel less bad I do feel lonely and like to hang out with people. When I've been in isolation for a long time I also feel quite alone but often still do not want to come out of isolation so I guess when I feel bad my tendency is to be alone. But I think even in my isolation in the past I always had someone with me, and now I don't. The isolation of knowing no one understands me and there's no one I can talk to about how really bad I feel makes me feel the most lonely I think.

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

Isolation is really bad
But people literally ruined my life so i know the feel

 

[FieldsofLavender]

I feel incredibly bittersweet when it comes to isolation, ehehe. I enjoy feeling like I'm safe from the rest of the world, being put into a little room where I'm comfortable and isolated. I sometimes get the urge to cut off all of my friends because I don't want to burden them anymore, I'm such a chore to be around and I know it, and it hurts to see everyone else trying so hard for me when I don't deserve it at all, ehehe...
In the past, I've found myself strangely, strongly drawn towards little prisons for myself. One time I was visiting an old prison that had been turned into a tourist attraction, and it was late in the evening and was mostly alone in the building. I wanted so much to just step into one of the old, dilapidated solitary confinement cells, close the door behind me, and just curl up on the 'mattress' on the concrete shelf. I wanted to just stay there forever... Another time I was helping a friend move, and I found they had turned their closet into a hiding space where they slept, and painted the door and walls with ink that glowed when they turned on a black light in the room. It was... Amazing, I never wanted to leave it; the entire floor was taken up by their mattress, it was so cozy and isolated from everything else...
I know, though, that I'd be too weak to really isolate myself. I'd miss my friends, even though I know I'm burdening them every time I go to them...

 

[charlotte_]

Wow, you perfectly capture my feelings. It's great having company and all but at the end, being alone is most peaceful. In relationships, you will always have to act in ways that fits the other person's definition of "normal". I do find that some tends to be more open minded, but that's really rare and even so, you still have to be aware of what they can handle. As much as people glorify relationships, it is nothing much better than a transaction. You must offer something for your relationships at all time to keep them going, and sometimes, even the slightest of mistakes like a ghosted message could cause doubts and even the end of that relationship. Sometimes, I just find myself really hoping we could all live in our own bubbles, unaware of each other's existence.

 

[timorousTruant]

I've always found isolation comforting. The problem is that the more you avoid social interaction, the less tolerance you'll have for it, and you'll be at risk of developing/worsening social anxiety. In my case, after dropping out of high school and going no contact with pretty much everyone besides my immediate family, I went from bad but still functioning anxiety to complete agoraphobia for a long time. Avoidance only makes the problem worse unfortunately.

 

[Jezzibell]

I have isolated myself for the last 9 years and I'm fine with that. I sold my house that I had for 21 years and moved somewhere where I know nobody, and noone actually knows where I am. I'm extrovert usually with no social anxiety. I just cannot he bothered to play the small talk, probing, interfering games. The ritualistic greetings and feigning interest in each other. No thanks

 

[edu0z]

I think there are different types of people. As a friend of mine once said- for some people, it drains their batteries to be alone and they recharge them when being around others. For other people, the reverse is true. I'm like you- for the main part- I'm alone but not lonely (thankfully.) I do feel deeply sorry for people who get lonely. But then- I also pitty people who are forced to be social when it's really not them- for work etc. That can be INCREDIBLY stressful, upsetting and draining for people like us. I really NEED my alone time. I've lived alone for over 20 years. But yeah- I hate social media too. It felt wonderful to stop using it! Here seems to be the exception for me because no one's pretentious and we're all struggling I suppose. It feels like there's less judgement here and no expectation to be doing well in life- obviously!

I feel so identified with everything you've said, it's just like that. As if sometimes you need to retire to recharge your batteries being alone

 

[Techef]

Even back when I was healthier, I'd have to isolate myself every once in a while to recharge. But the last 3-4 years of almost complete isolation started many events happening all at once - shocking health diagnoses, family cutting me off, friends no longer responding (been out of sight, out of mind for too long), car accident, closely followed by the pandemic. It felt like a perfect storm of events in such a short period of time. The forced isolation especially at the beginning of the pandemic actually felt comforting, but ultimately the strain it put on the medical system delayed crucial treatments I needed, in addition to destroying my fledgling business that I had just started making a small profit on.