Does anyone else feel mostly only suicidal at certain times of day?

[Sigh_Sigh_Sigh]

If I'm waking up early for work or if I'm up late unable to sleep I often feel suicidal and even more so through the winter time. I wonder if anyone else feels it similarly?

 

[redisblue]

I'm somewhat the same!! I would be entirely the same, but for the past year, during the summer I have still felt pretty bad. But usually winters are worse than summers. The times of day are the same though for me currently.

 

[Tartuffe]

The time I dont is between when I drop off and when I wake

 

[outrider567]

No--I'm in a black depression 24/7

 

[downndone2]

I'm pretty much 24/7 unless I'm asleep. But I wake up immediately miserable and wanting to die

 

[Mixfeels]

usually during the day but mostly during the nightly hours, its really strongly present the closer i get the 1-3 in the morning
dont really know why.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Yes. Morning afternoon evening and night.

 

[dra1ncoreslwt]

If I'm waking up early for work or if I'm up late unable to sleep I often feel suicidal and even more so through the winter time. I wonder if anyone else feels it similarly?

every time before going to sleep my worries fall on me like a cold water bucket , even if I had a somewhat "good" day

 

[TimeHasCome6]

Yeah. At times I eat I don't want to and it feels like such a chore I feel worse. I spend my time in between getting in bed and actually sleeping thinking about all life's problems and pondering my death. Generally always, but worse at these times.

 

[ButterCat]

For me yes every once in a while it is only at certain times most of the time it's Non-Stop though

 

[CentreMid]

If I'm waking up early for work or if I'm up late unable to sleep I often feel suicidal and even more so through the winter time. I wonder if anyone else feels it similarly?

For me, it's not a certain time of day, rather, a certain time of year. Contrary to what most people would believe, right now is actually the worst time of year for me (Spring/Summer). Starts around mid/late-March and doesn't go away until September/early October at the latest. Not quite sure why.

 

[rabbit_feet]

every time before going to sleep my worries fall on me like a cold water bucket , even if I had a somewhat "good" day

this is exactly how I feel! I have tendencies to crawl into bed and then have awful spiraling panic attacks. It feels awful and makes me wish I wouldn't wake up

 

[ChildrensITV]

I feel suicidal all the time but I find the nighttime has a bit more calm. Maybe cuz it feels like time stops and nothing needs to be done. Everyone else is asleep and it feels almost like I am a ghost?

 

[Sparx]

For me, it's not a certain time of day, rather, a certain time of year. Contrary to what most people would believe, right now is actually the worst time of year for me (Spring/Summer). Starts around mid/late-March and doesn't go away until September/early October at the latest. Not quite sure why.

I think I read somewhere that spring is the most common season for people to ctb, not sure why exactly.

 

[bluebird16]

Most of the day. I'd say it's a little bit easier in the morning but not even one day goes without having suicidal thoughts. They are creeping in even when I go for a walk or something like that.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I think I read somewhere that spring is the most common season for people to ctb, not sure why exactly.

Maybe seeing everything come back to life and the world become vibrant and active again is triggering somehow. Like the contrast between the outer world and your inner world is really driven home in a painful way. At least I can see that bring true for some people.

 

[undertheskin]

Yeah for me it comes up more intense during the evening/night, I guess that's when I feel the most lonely and hopeless and with no one around it the prospect of death becomes a lot more tempting