dontletthembribeyou
autistic girlfailure
- Mar 4, 2025
- 148
I don't know how to explain this without sounding crazy but I really don't believe it's possible for other people to feel empathy for me. In all my life, I can never recall feeling empathy from others, at least in person. Pity? Absolutely. But empathy? I'm not so sure.
I think this is something I specifically experience because I have a moderate craniofacial deformity, so I'm like ridiculously ugly to the point where I don't think I even register to most people as a human being with feelings. I understand that this sounds dramatic - if you saw me you would understand.
Everywhere I go, strangers avoid me and some even go out of their way to harass me because of the way I look. That's understandable, I guess, but even anyone I have in my personal life seems to struggle to empathize me. Most of the friends I've had throughout my life have treated me like a punching bag. Even my family and intimate partners don't show any remorse when they hurt me.
I wanted to know if anyone else felt this way (especially fellow ugly people); I can never find anything about it online and I feel kinda crazy. A lot of you won't believe me, and that's fine, but please don't bother commenting that. I know I'm not making this up. I've spent a lifetime trying to convince myself that this is all in my head and that I'm just like everyone else but I just can't maintain that illusion anymore.
I think this is something I specifically experience because I have a moderate craniofacial deformity, so I'm like ridiculously ugly to the point where I don't think I even register to most people as a human being with feelings. I understand that this sounds dramatic - if you saw me you would understand.
Everywhere I go, strangers avoid me and some even go out of their way to harass me because of the way I look. That's understandable, I guess, but even anyone I have in my personal life seems to struggle to empathize me. Most of the friends I've had throughout my life have treated me like a punching bag. Even my family and intimate partners don't show any remorse when they hurt me.
I wanted to know if anyone else felt this way (especially fellow ugly people); I can never find anything about it online and I feel kinda crazy. A lot of you won't believe me, and that's fine, but please don't bother commenting that. I know I'm not making this up. I've spent a lifetime trying to convince myself that this is all in my head and that I'm just like everyone else but I just can't maintain that illusion anymore.
