Honestly this is so relatable. And even when I try to be good, I still end up being toxic and make people uncomfortable/scare them off. At least people on here don't seem too bothered yet.
"In the End" by Linkin Park is running thru my head now. RIP Chester.
I think my parents and friends will be very disappointed in me if I can manage to kill myself, seeing it as the "easy way out". God, I want to sleep all day too, but depression makes sleep into a crappy game of Russian Roulette.