does anyone else feel like their life is a punishment?

[wildflowers1996]

I feel my life is a punishment, I've done something bad and so was forced to be me

 

[sserafim]

I feel like my life is a punishment as well. I was unfortunate enough to be born neurodivergent in this life, and to be cursed with Asperger's/autism. I don't know what past life karma I have to deserve this.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Yes, my life is a punishment. The punishment just happened to occur from an unfortunate string of bad luck instead of it being caused by something sentient. I wish I was never born to begin with but now I have to suffer because I'm unlucky

 

[UKscotty]

No I don't believe in reincarnation or a soul. I think its just absolutely random where we are born and end up.

 

[Oliver]

Yes, I am also beginning to think like this and therefore it sadly does make sense to ctb - either a new start (reincarnation) or peaceful sleep forever.

 

[wildflowers1996]

Yes, I am also beginning to think like this and therefore it sadly does make sense to ctb - either a new start (reincarnation) or peaceful sleep forever.

I feel like maybe I'm meant to suffer and not ctb, I'm not allowed to "cheat" by quitting early :(

 

[Hunter2005]

Yes, like I keep repeating on here some people are meant to take their own lives and there is nothing anyone can do about it.

 

[sserafim]

Yes, like I keep repeating on here some people are meant to take their own lives and there is nothing anyone can do about it.

Why do you think they're meant to do so? I had a feeling ever since I was a kid that I was destined to die young and by ctb, but I don't know why.

 

[Hunter2005]

Why do you think they're meant to do so? I had a feeling ever since I was a kid that I was destined to die young and by ctb, but I don't know why.

Some people have a lot of roadblocks in their way from the beginning that's why. The environment your born in plays apart in this also and many more.

 

[Gonnerr]

Yes its hell , what a punishment.

 

[sserafim]

Some people have a lot of roadblocks in their way from the beginning that's why. The environment your born in plays apart in this also and many more.

My main roadblock is Asperger's/autism. I believe that it's the main barrier in me becoming successful. I was born into a wealthy family and had good education, but failed to launch into the workforce and adulthood. I didn't even want to anyways though. I'm just not meant or fit for this world.

 

[Meteora]

Yes I think that very often. And was stupid enough to fight, fight, fight because I wanted to turn it around. I did not succeed. Seems like I have a bad karma.

 

[Olisop21.]

I feel my life is a punishment, I've done something bad and so was forced to be me

I feel the same way. I've done a lot of bad things.

 

[Oliver]

Well, aging will eventually make everyone suffer - I don't believe that we were "meant" to suffer. We probably just had bad luck and made some bad decisions throughout our life, unfortunately.

 

[theboy]

me

 

[LastLoveSong]

yes im convinced I must have been a murderer or something in a past life and this life is my punishment

like maybe past me made a deal with the devil (or whatever entity) that they wouldn't be punished in that life but they would be in their next and they said yes


And here I am

 

[Dark Moon]

Yeah same it's my genetic, aspeger, bad experiences/bullying/trauma, lack of help and support system. I don't know what I did to deserve this life.

 

[kindalone]

Nah, that would mean that I believe in justice. Unfortunately, it's a human construct. Without laws or law enforcement, nobody would get their "deserved" punishment. No, I believe in survival of the fittest. Whoever has the best tool or skill to navigate this life, will triumph and suffer the least. That includes generational wealth, talent, resources, and other privileges. I just drew the short end of the stick in multiple fields and I'm losing the battle on multiple fronts. That's all.

 

[TiredOfAllThis]

I have been struggling throughout the whole life - and it turns out I have been on the autism spectrum (3 different tests cannot lie). Bad decisions influenced by bad people have been present too.
I just had bad luck from the start - that is that.

 

[Oliver]

It's sooooo much about genetics in my opinion, aka thinks you can't control. A guy who is 6'4, has a good looking face and broad shoulder genetics will live a life that is lightyears apart from a short ugly guy who is starting to bald at age 20. These guys are not even living in the same universe.
Dare I even mention the r-word?

 

[divinemistress36]

Absolutely even though I'm not sure what I did wrong . My mom says everyone suffers but not everyone severely suffers everyday of their life

 

[lifewasawillowtv]

Yeah I'm definitely caught in purgatory.

 

[Aim]

Indeed, I punish myself for everything even though I know everything isn't my fault. My problem is that my bpd takes fully controll. And I can't control my emotions. And that literally creates my life blank 0 right now. I don't like to blame it on mentally illness, but I know for a fact that. That is what the problem is.

I mostly think about what wrong I did in my past life, to be cursed with All these problems.
I just wished it came with a formula how to change or get better. That would be true bliss. However it is what it is