Venting Does anyone else feel like dying mainly because they don't want to try anymore?

[GinaIsReady]

The odds are increasingly against me.

 

[azucaramargo]

Anyone else sick of constantly struggling? Constantly trying? Do you also feel often that you come out of the womb onto a treadmill, and you keep jogging and jogging and jogging no matter how exhausted you are 'til you finally die and roll off the treadmill?

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Hi, FTL.Wanderer. I've never seen such a resounding response on here! I send you my support and love. I also get tired of struggling. More than anything, it's my constant eff ups that get me down, you know? Why even try anymore when getting out of bed just means someone's gonna slap you on the wrist, admonish you, or tell you one of the many ways in which you're failing to hit your marks? I just get tired of people's effing responses, you know? Anyway, I'm sorry to go on my own rant in your post. I am on your side, and I appreciate your contribution to this site.

I am so weak that I can't even try.
I failed literally at everything.
I feel like that pathetic disfigured little creature character that is begging for death.

KiraLittleOwl, you have friends a'plenty here on this site. Please share your burden here with us. We love you.

 

[Faraway1990]

40% the reason I'm CTB soon honestly I'm done with clown world look at everything just falling apart sanity has left the building and I will be too soon.

 

[TimeToDie]

When trying is no guarantee of your reasons for catching the bus resolving, I don't see the point.
Not for me anyhow.

I don't see how my biggest issues can possibly resolve. There is such a stunning array of issues, but the biggest is disabling social phobia that ensures that I shall always be along. There is also my entire lack of family. There is no way to fix a family that's dead. And after 46 years there is no realistic way to fix social phobia that has ruled by entire life and barred my from school & employment for the last 24 years.

 

[GinaIsReady]

I don't see how my biggest issues can possibly resolve. There is such a stunning array of issues, but the biggest is disabling social phobia that ensures that I shall always be along. There is also my entire lack of family. There is no way to fix a family that's dead. And after 46 years there is no realistic way to fix social phobia that has ruled by entire life and barred my from school & employment for the last 24 years.

I'm very sorry for your suffering.

 

[Saga]

i dont even know why im trying to stay alive

 

[wanttodie]

I also don't want to try anymore

 

[oxymoron]

Yep. It's so difficult, every single day is a war with pain. I'm exhausted to fight, exhaust to try and exhausted to believe that someday i will be really happy.

What bothers me is that others are happy and healthy in their lives. We just suffer.

 

[Pistolero114]

Yes. You get weary of putting on a play for others to watch so they don't have to try and deal with anything. Your trying in my opinion (and my own trying) is more for the Normies than for anything/anyone else.

 

[262653]

Nope, never tried. Never thought it may be worth for me to bother. Why bother when death looks so attractive in comparison?

 

[scorpiooo2]

This explains my outlook on life perfectly.

I'm extremely sick of trying to be this person I don't want to be and trying to control this mind I can't control.

 

[Mort]

Yes defo fell like that and sum times ones in a while when things are a felling little better and sum shit of a person trips you up . They go HAHA at and tell you cant be happy you have to be a miserable barsted:(

 

[Pistolero114]

Every.Damn.Day.

 

[SelfHatingAspie]

Pretty much.

I used to think that the world would be better off without me. Now I realise that I'd be better off without the world.

 

[Dawn0071111]

Meeeeeeeee!

 

[oopswronglife]

 

[HGL91]

Pretty much.

I used to think that the world would be better off without me. Now I realise that I'd be better off without the world.

Lol right?

 

[Nutcase]

I've never really 'tried' in life, I do stress myself out pressuring myself to try, I never follow through with it though. I've always wanted to get into self improvement, lift weights, have a good career, improve my appearance etc., but I wouldn't really get anything I want from those things if I look at it realistically, other than dignity and pride, which I'm used to not having at this point so I really shouldn't worry about that as much as I do. I'm just going to try to enjoy the things I enjoy and let go of any goals that require effort, it's a more peaceful life.