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ForgetIExist

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Jan 31, 2026
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Easier said than done lol

I think another dimension lies beyond all of this. We were supposed to be more than decaying flesh, but we were stripped of our spiritual abilities by superior entities, the same way humans are raising cattle they are raising us and harvesting our spiritual energy (loosh)

As for your last question i have no idea, but probably what we know about our reality is only a fraction of what the actual reality is.
Fair enough
 
cyanidekitty

cyanidekitty

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Jun 19, 2025
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I used to believe in reincarnation, I still like to think I do, but when I almost died during my last attempt, my brain kept telling me that when I died I'd experience nothing but darkness and numbness, so I'm no longer sure. Thats what SI will do to you.
understandable.

was it scary???
 
burninghill

burninghill

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Dec 2, 2025
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understandable.

was it scary???
Yeah I was scared. Helpless is definitely the word for it, I felt so incredibly helpless. When you try to kill yourself, your brain genuinely will fight for any reason to stay alive, even if it's stuff you've already considered.
 
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cyanidekitty

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Yeah I was scared. Helpless is definitely the word for it, I felt so incredibly helpless. When you try to kill yourself, your brain genuinely will fight for any reason to stay alive, even if it's stuff you've already considered.
i can definitely see that. this is always why i hate when people play suicide out to be cowardly cause i mean…it takes a lot of courage to really go for it/continue it
 
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burninghill

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Dec 2, 2025
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i can definitely see that. this is always why i hate when people play suicide out to be cowardly cause i mean…it takes a lot of courage to really go for it/continue it
I totally agree with you
 
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need2exit

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Mar 23, 2026
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I believe in the prison planet theory, we may be stuck in an eternal reincarnation loop.
the egg theory makes me comforted, like hell yeah, i get to finally be everything, experience everything, i guess it takes the saying "we are all connected" more sentimental too me LOL
 
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OnMyLast Legs

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Oct 29, 2024
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i can definitely see that. this is always why i hate when people play suicide out to be cowardly cause i mean…it takes a lot of courage to really go for it/continue it
What's cowardly is what I do: couchrot while obsessed with suicide but never make a serious attempt.
 
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cyanidekitty

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What's cowardly is what I do: couchrot while obsessed with suicide but never make a serious attempt.
hey if it makes you feel better, i have a weird interest in suicide too. i view it as people just ending their lives..its so much more to me than that
 

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