Brokensoulwalking
Member
- Mar 14, 2023
- 45
So I tried to CTB a few months ago, it failed not gonna go into detail but I have had a lot of supervision since then.
Since I had that I decided I will try focus on well being and try to build something from my life. I manage to for a couple of weeks.
Then I end up back in this dark place, unable to get out of bed, crying, just wanting it all to end constantly.
I know what has brought me to this, some shit I didn't deserve.
But it's just like this darkness sucks you back in everytime you try to escape. Then your only option is the CTB.
Is there anything real out there for us? I tried to get better, and because I can't, people act like me wanting it all to end is my fault.
I'm sorry I might be rambling I just had no where else to let this out.
Since I had that I decided I will try focus on well being and try to build something from my life. I manage to for a couple of weeks.
Then I end up back in this dark place, unable to get out of bed, crying, just wanting it all to end constantly.
I know what has brought me to this, some shit I didn't deserve.
But it's just like this darkness sucks you back in everytime you try to escape. Then your only option is the CTB.
Is there anything real out there for us? I tried to get better, and because I can't, people act like me wanting it all to end is my fault.
I'm sorry I might be rambling I just had no where else to let this out.