It is too long story to tell properly, too much suffering and the story and time line is still sort of fragmented for me.
It was very strange practice about unblocking some traumatic stuff(I had troubles to connect with agression, that was the reason I went there). It was advertise as kineziology in sort of suggestive state of mind(half-hypnosis) but the lady was very strange doing hard to believe things beyond that practice. It felt very very wierd and it was physivly very painfull at some point. During next months it was quicker and quicker slope to hell of an extreme activation, nonstpo fight, fltight, freeze states, panicks etc.
Much more later I was given explenation what actuly happens during this practices. Very common is that it realeses the most rawest material, extreme emotion from early development before the ego is formed and usualy before even the brain parts that store images is developed. This people had no idea about capacity and state of nervous system or how to actually proccess it and these things must be done very slowly and over a time.
So it was this complex of extreme survivel reactions coupled with this pre-emotion(like babies have > strong repulsion/atrraction, strong fear, terror) without any memories so you are experiencing it on somatic level as those extreme states of biology and emotion and you do not have any idea what is going on and you just get stuck in this endless loop of pure suffering with no chance of getting it out or getting proper help in psychiatry or therapies., Becasue the level of knowledge is still quite poor (only a few know more) and back then it was midle-ages. it took manny many years of diffrent level of suffering and desperate life before any sign of relief was found, which is another sad story and It has many layers and hypothesis that are linked to that, but probably no point in sharing that.