sad_rain

sad_rain

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so many people just have no fucking clue how bad it is to live with abuse. maybe some people recover but i think they are extremely lucky. i honestly think some people are destined to die from child abuse
I think so too
 
WonderingSoul

WonderingSoul

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Dec 15, 2021
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It depends with some people. If they have the right resources and support system, I think so. In my case, I don't think I could do this.
 
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Ambivalent1

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Apr 17, 2023
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Let's not forget all the chronic fatigue you experience from all of that cortisol and adrenaline flooding your system almost all day long.

It's kinda been the same for me.
So that's why I'm tired?
 
Unattainable666

Unattainable666

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Mar 31, 2023
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Raised by a narc - I will never heal from that trauma - I carry it with me every day. I hear that bitch's voice in my head. She destroyed my life before I even had a chance to live.
 
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𖣂𖣂𖣂.

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May 26, 2023
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I don't think it's possible. I read a PsychologyToday article about the topic. She wrote that childhood abuse is like cancer and it kills people eventually. She referenced a man who was abused and his suicide note talked about a darkness that followed him throughout his life. I feel it too. It eventually killed him.
My past will catch up to me and I want to overcome that.
 
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Raised by a narc - I will never heal from that trauma - I carry it with me every day. I hear that bitch's voice in my head. She destroyed my life before I even had a chance to live.
Same here. I just hope I get to live before I die. Cause until now I just survived
 
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Unattainable666

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Same here. I just hope I get to live before I die. Cause until now I just survived
Live for you not for the narc. Read as much as you can about healing. I wish you nothing but peace and love in your life
 
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prezmyl

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Aug 4, 2023
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Very few people probably did, most people probably did not, definitely not fully recovered.
It might still be some hope at least for some people, who can still force yourself to try something that there are some new therapies for traumas available even though it is not probably easy to find trustworthy professional trained in it. So just stating as a fact that there are some "new" methods popping up which could maybe do more than just help a little even with a development trauma even though it is not that straightforward and easy as for some mono-traumatic adult experience. I know about somatic experiencing, but there are probably more new therapies that are working with "all" layers of psyche in systematic careful way or some new trends I have no clue about and maybe someone will get lucky with them and make so-called full recovery.

Just be careful for a quick solution offering pseudo-trends who works directly with body level layers, unless you want to suffer even more since it might get you into pure psychotic-like hell state very quickly, that was my story decade ago when I was young and very naïve about the world and people in it.
 
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Very few people probably did, most people probably did not, definitely not fully recovered.
It might still be some hope at least for some people, who can still force yourself to try something that there are some new therapies for traumas available even though it is not probably easy to find trustworthy professional trained in it. So just stating as a fact that there are some "new" methods popping up which could maybe do more than just help a little even with a development trauma even though it is not that straightforward and easy as for some mono-traumatic adult experience. I know about somatic experiencing, but there are probably more new therapies that are working with "all" layers of psyche in systematic careful way or some new trends I have no clue about and maybe someone will get lucky with them and make so-called full recovery.

Just be careful for a quick solution offering pseudo-trends who works directly with body level layers, unless you want to suffer even more since it might get you into pure psychotic-like hell state very quickly, that was my story decade ago when I was young and very naïve about the world and people in it.
What happened? Which therapy?
 
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prezmyl

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What happened? Which therapy?
It is too long story to tell properly, too much suffering and the story and time line is still sort of fragmented for me.
It was very strange practice about unblocking some traumatic stuff(I had troubles to connect with agression, that was the reason I went there). It was advertise as kineziology in sort of suggestive state of mind(half-hypnosis) but the lady was very strange doing hard to believe things beyond that practice. It felt very very wierd and it was physivly very painfull at some point. During next months it was quicker and quicker slope to hell of an extreme activation, nonstpo fight, fltight, freeze states, panicks etc.
Much more later I was given explenation what actuly happens during this practices. Very common is that it realeses the most rawest material, extreme emotion from early development before the ego is formed and usualy before even the brain parts that store images is developed. This people had no idea about capacity and state of nervous system or how to actually proccess it and these things must be done very slowly and over a time.
So it was this complex of extreme survivel reactions coupled with this pre-emotion(like babies have > strong repulsion/atrraction, strong fear, terror) without any memories so you are experiencing it on somatic level as those extreme states of biology and emotion and you do not have any idea what is going on and you just get stuck in this endless loop of pure suffering with no chance of getting it out or getting proper help in psychiatry or therapies., Becasue the level of knowledge is still quite poor (only a few know more) and back then it was midle-ages. it took manny many years of diffrent level of suffering and desperate life before any sign of relief was found, which is another sad story and It has many layers and hypothesis that are linked to that, but probably no point in sharing that.
 
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It is too long story to tell properly, too much suffering and the story and time line is still sort of fragmented for me.
It was very strange practice about unblocking some traumatic stuff(I had troubles to connect with agression, that was the reason I went there). It was advertise as kineziology in sort of suggestive state of mind(half-hypnosis) but the lady was very strange doing hard to believe things beyond that practice. It felt very very wierd and it was physivly very painfull at some point. During next months it was quicker and quicker slope to hell of an extreme activation, nonstpo fight, fltight, freeze states, panicks etc.
Much more later I was given explenation what actuly happens during this practices. Very common is that it realeses the most rawest material, extreme emotion from early development before the ego is formed and usualy before even the brain parts that store images is developed. This people had no idea about capacity and state of nervous system or how to actually proccess it and these things must be done very slowly and over a time.
So it was this complex of extreme survivel reactions coupled with this pre-emotion(like babies have > strong repulsion/atrraction, strong fear, terror) without any memories so you are experiencing it on somatic level as those extreme states of biology and emotion and you do not have any idea what is going on and you just get stuck in this endless loop of pure suffering with no chance of getting it out or getting proper help in psychiatry or therapies., Becasue the level of knowledge is still quite poor (only a few know more) and back then it was midle-ages. it took manny many years of diffrent level of suffering and desperate life before any sign of relief was found, which is another sad story and It has many layers and hypothesis that are linked to that, but probably no point in sharing that.
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