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AngelBritney

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I thought I could trust professionals. I met 3 of them (ergotherapy, consultant for psychiatric things, psychiatrist).

The same each time: In the beginning they were nice, understanding and I thought they really cared about me as time passed.

Nope, they don't: They pretend.

If you really need their help or share why you are so depressed and sad they are either triggered or come up with excuses (excuses like "Can't do that" -> Yes, you can, I researched before asking you and you just don't want to help me.)

I "lost" 2 of them already and today the third one disappointed me deeply and was harsh and cold to me. This hit me very hard because that professional person always told me how much he cares for each patient and that he cares about me, too.

They only care about themselves when they hear you want to CTB because they HAVE TO ACT or else they will be punished by law.

They won't miss me. There are so many people in this world. No one will be bothered when I am dead. The world will keep on existing without me and that's fine. I hope I can travel through the universe and don't return back to earth in the next life.

I wish y'all the strength and luck you need, no matter what your choice will be.
 
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Will be CTBing this year.
Jan 29, 2026
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I thought I could trust professionals. I met 3 of them (ergotherapy, consultant for psychiatric things, psychiatrist).

The same each time: In the beginning they were nice, understanding and I thought they really cared about me as time passed.

Nope, they don't: They pretend.

If you really need their help or share why you are so depressed and sad they are either triggered or come up with excuses (excuses like "Can't do that" -> Yes, you can, I researched before asking you and you just don't want to help me.)

I "lost" 2 of them already and today the third one disappointed me deeply and was harsh and cold to me. This hit me very hard because that professional person always told me how much he cares for each patient and that he cares about me, too.

They only care about themselves when they hear you want to CTB because they HAVE TO ACT or else they will be punished by law.

They won't miss me. There are so many people in this world. No one will be bothered when I am dead. The world will keep on existing without me and that's fine. I hope I can travel through the universe and don't return back to earth in the next life.

I wish y'all the strength and luck you need, no matter what your choice will be.
NHS did this to me, just said I was autistic and left it at that, after I had taken literally a hundred SSRIs. They are pathetic.
 

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