Discussion Do you worry anyone will ctb because you did?

[15dec]

It's been on my mind for a while, so I'm wondering if anyone else feels similarly or if it's just me being anxious.

My dad told me that if I were to commit suicide he would as well. I also worry about a close friend who has his own mental illnesses and previous suicide attempts, because he's already said he feels like a bad person, doesn't help people and once said he felt like he was always hurting me and was the root of my problems, things like that. I know he'll probably blame himself more than most people.

I don't want any of my loved ones to ctb after I do, but it's pretty hypocritical of me. If they did try I'd at least want them to research properly, end up here and things like that so they didn't end up with health problems and things like that. It's not like I can tell them that though.

So what I guess I'm asking is if there's anyone you particularly worry about after your passing?

 

[Xerxes]

I think my wife would follow suit. It would be pretty bad since she lost her ex bf to suicide, and then she would then lose her husband to the same thing. One of the many reasons why I haven't done it yet. Maybe if I divorce, go no-contact, and then do it, the pain will be much less on her.

 

[15dec]

I think my wife would follow suit. It would be pretty bad since she lost her ex bf to suicide, and then she would then lose her husband to the same thing. One of the many reasons why I haven't done it yet. Maybe if I divorce, go no-contact, and then do it, the pain will be much less on her.

I think the pain would be huge either way, but that's just my take on it. Wishing you the best, sending hugs

 

[Jane Doe]

My husband ctb is why I'm doing it. Don't think anyone else will follow suit...

 

[15dec]

My husband ctb is why I'm doing it. Don't think anyone else will follow suit...

I'm sorry for your loss. Sending you hugs

 

[Final Escape]

It's been on my mind for a while, so I'm wondering if anyone else feels similarly or if it's just me being anxious.

My dad told me that if I were to commit suicide he would as well. I also worry about a close friend who has his own mental illnesses and previous suicide attempts, because he's already said he feels like a bad person, doesn't help people and once said he felt like he was always hurting me and was the root of my problems, things like that. I know he'll probably blame himself more than most people.

I don't want any of my loved ones to ctb after I do, but it's pretty hypocritical of me. If they did try I'd at least want them to research properly, end up here and things like that so they didn't end up with health problems and things like that. It's not like I can tell them that though.

So what I guess I'm asking is if there's anyone you particularly worry about after your passing?

No, that's the least of my worries. Their choices are their choices nobody put a gun to their head. Unless they decide to put gun to their head lol!

 

[Jane Doe]

I'm sorry for your loss. Sending you hugs

Thank you.
Maybe my stepson eventually. He is only 7 just now but if it's true about genetics, the writings on the wall for him.

 

[Miss clefable]

Let's just say if someone who was on here dies I'm dying with them

 

[slowlystarve]

no one will. i'm sure of that.

 

[TiredHorse]

My sister tells my our half-sister, whom I have never met, is in a precarious state of mind. Given our mutual father, I'm not surprised. I may never have met her, but I'm still a bit worried about her. I resent that my sister is trying to use that as leverage against me ctb, though.

 

[Comatose11]

I doubt it. I'm surrounded by pro-lifers.

 

[Jodes]

My brother, mum, gf and dad. We have problems. That's basically everyone I know IRL! I'm still on the pro-choice side though, except for one maybe.

 

[Eren]

Maybe my mother or father, I'm in that dilemma, I want CTB but I do not want to make them suffer, but it's inevitable.

 

[Amira]

Maybe my mother or father, I'm in that dilemma, I want CTB but I do not want to make them suffer, but it's inevitable.

Same I am worried my mother will CTB too or harm herself. Or worse go insane. I knew a friend younger than me who threatened she will do it to if I did it. I quickly blocked her fron everythig and never replied to any of her messages. I didnt want to be the cause of her death. She also cut because of me. It hurt alot to know she did that after I attempted but failed. Now when I successfully CTB she wont know. So I wont hurt her.

 

[divinized]

Possibly my mother. She's told me before that if anything were to happen to me she would probably ctb too. That's why I'm scared.

 

[Shewaitsforme]

Im here because my partner did. Other things have happened since but if she hadnt have killed herself i wouldnt be here

 

[MsM3talGamer]

Nobody will ever CTB because of me. I don't have that kind of impact on people.

 

[Jane Doe]

Im here because my partner did. Other things have happened since but if she hadnt have killed herself i wouldnt be here

Me too

 

[RememberWhatUCameFor]

Won't make much of an impact on anyone when I go

 

[Shewaitsforme]

Me too

Worst feeling isnt it, i didnt know she was gonna do that all because she was insecure and thought i was gonna leave. Now im public enemy number 1 and barely able to leave my flat in fear of seeing people who know me or saw my face and the story in the paper or online. Im so angry at her for doing this but i still love her and miss her so much. When i CTB ill have my engagement ring back on and im to be cremated with it, i made sure she had hers on before her coffin was shut, a photo of me hugging her and i took a picture of me holding her hand in the coffin, i held it exactly like i did on a picture she loved. Dont know part of me is hoping if there is something after this then we will be able to find each other again

 

[therhydler]

Im here because my partner did. Other things have happened since but if she hadnt have killed herself i wouldnt be here

Wow, I'm sorry :(

 

[Sanguinius]

Worst feeling isnt it, i didnt know she was gonna do that all because she was insecure and thought i was gonna leave. Now im public enemy number 1 and barely able to leave my flat in fear of seeing people who know me or saw my face and the story in the paper or online. Im so angry at her for doing this but i still love her and miss her so much. When i CTB ill have my engagement ring back on and im to be cremated with it, i made sure she had hers on before her coffin was shut, a photo of me hugging her and i took a picture of me holding her hand in the coffin, i held it exactly like i did on a picture she loved. Dont know part of me is hoping if there is something after this then we will be able to find each other again

*hugs... Your story touches my heart...

 

[stargazer]

If they do, I'm past the point of caring anymore. After all, I'm suicidal, remember? So as unfortunate collateral damage as it is, I won't be alive to know. And I wouldn't want to know, would spoil my blissful afterlife. Thankfully.

 

[Severen]

No.

 

[Toxic Person]

No one will.
Maybe they will sad for 1-2 weeks but thats it

 

[NotWorthLiving]

People say they'll hurt themselves if I decided to CTB but they wouldn't do it themselves. In all honesty they probably wouldn't even do that. I'm not significant enough to anyone

 

[toolateforme]

i already know some people will. sucks knowing i'll be the biggest hypocrite they know since i spent so many times trying to help them or talk them out of it

 

[JadedGray]

No, my parents have reassured me that they will be fine. In the past, my mother has threatened to do it if I did, but she admitted later that she was just saying that to make me feel too guilty to do it. Once, my father threatened to kill my mother if I did it, since he believed it was her fault (even though it's not) and she later found out and got a restraining order against him, but that was years ago and they're on good terms now. In fact they get along better with each other now (after I had a failed attempt) than they do with me. My whole childhood they were at each other's throats, when I needed them to get along and now that they do get along, it doesn't really matter, since my life will soon be over. At the very lease they can help each other mourn when I'm gone.

 

[ZixivaldYrxes]

My mother. My own fucking mother. That's why I feel terrible for even thinking about it however many hundreds of times a day. She would do it. She lost her best friend several years ago. She lost her own sense of self to her abusive ex-husband (my """"""father"""""). When she dies, I'm so fucking out. But before then, my hands are tied unless I choose to really, really be the worst kind of person possible. And I've always had sociopathic traits (guess who I inherited them from? not that hard from context. I'm an abomination). I've always been a definitively awful person, strictly as a result of my neurochemistry or lack of will, rather than a result of what I will, so I'm caught between the harm I cause and that harm I would cause when I die. No one is opposed to Hitler's suicide, except for his fucking mother.

 

[sunny.sativa]

I think my father would be at a very high risk for it if I did.
My kid brother would struggle. I've read about perfectly healthy children growing to be extremely mentally fucked up and depressed after their older siblings kill themselves. I don't know if he'd take his life, but thinking of that as a possibility keeps me here.