Do you work or not

[Santiago]

Law student. Dreading the day I have to actually start working and interact with people and act all fine.

 

[Sickman75]

I know crazy right. I had loads of issues that hid under the surface and one big event made all my issues come spilling out. One day I was living the best I ever had and the next day it was like I woke up in a nightmare I've been trapped in since.

suffer from trauma?

 

[WOODESITY]

I don't work, I got fired maybe more than 8 times

 

[sadsoul]

I'm still in school but I don't really want to work after graduating tbh. I'm too depressed and no job really interests me. And I'm also not particularly horny for working under capitalism. School already destroyed me, I don't need another 50 years of suffering. But I guess I have to work, if I don't die that is

 

[Hotsackage]

On disability cause my brain is a POS

 

[Jean Améry]

I do work yes. Government paper pusher. Hardly inspiring or very meaningful but without it I would probably torment myself all day with useless thoughts about the meaninglesness of life and the desirability of death.

 

[Broken]

suffer from trauma?

I'm not sure if traumas the right word. Definitley shock. Followed by guilt, self loathing, mainly self inflicted emotional damage (not sure if this will ever go) then anger. I haven't reached acceptance yet!

 

[Zaynaldeen]

Nah, NEET here.

 

[Umbra]

no

 

[Superfluous]

Not for the past 12 years or so

 

[Soon4me]

I work part time 3 days per week,i like it,5 days per week too much.

 

[DeepMind]

Security guard. All i do is walk around some buildings all day. The most annoying part is the phone calls. I hate getting unknown numbers and random people always ask me to do things im not allowed to do for them, like opening certain doors for them, then they get pissed at me. Also 1000s of crows come everynight to roost and shit everywhere

Sorry, but can you tell more about your job. How is it to walk around at night? I once thought about trying to get a job at a security firm but my work would have been during the day, with contact to lots of people and driving a car, which I dont like. Do you earn more at night and is it enough to make a living?

 

[snowman626]

Sorry, but can you tell more about your job. How is it to walk around at night? I once thought about trying to get a job at a security firm but my work would have been during the day, with contact to lots of people and driving a car, which I dont like. Do you earn more at night and is it enough to make a living?

Its very quiet which I like, and there's very little physical contact with people. but with security it depends on where you get your shifts. If you sign up for a security company they may or may not have a good quiet site for you to work at. some sites are really noisy or have lots of contact with people. I got lucky and landed a quiet site. generally pays minimum wage to 1.5x minimum wage in Canada regardless of whether its day or night

 

[intheweeds]

I don't. I've been diagnosed with several mental disorders and recieve disability due to tbem.

It's incredibly frustrating because I do want to work. Sitting at home, alone, doing nothing is making my mental health even worse.

If I was able to find some kind of work that I could do I'd at least feel better about myself and maybe have some kind of self esteem and could maybe use it as a steppingstone to get out my depression.

 

[Boonks]

I was a full time bartender downtown. And now I am on disability. And very soon I will be in the ground.

 

[enzyetee]

I work at a city hall that made me liticaphobic...

 

[Sickman75]

I'm not sure if traumas the right word. Definitley shock. Followed by guilt, self loathing, mainly self inflicted emotional damage (not sure if this will ever go) then anger. I haven't reached acceptance yet!

Yeah that's trauma to one's self I'd say. There is this new counseling sessions called ART I don't remember what it stands for, but it helps people who are experiencing the same pain as you are. Really beneficial I guess. May want to check it out. A.R.T therapy

 

[DeepMind]

Its very quiet which I like, and there's very little physical contact with people. but with security it depends on where you get your shifts. If you sign up for a security company they may or may not have a good quiet site for you to work at. some sites are really noisy or have lots of contact with people. I got lucky and landed a quiet site. generally pays minimum wage to 1.5x minimum wage in Canada regardless of whether its day or night

Thanks for the info. Doesn't sound too bad. I wish they would pay more since one has to work at night but I guess we can't have everything. Still a lot better than some minimum wage jobs in the fast food industry.

 

[NotWhatIExpected]

I'm adjunct faculty (physics) at three different universities. I also teach online. I travel a LOT for work. It's lonely and isolating. And pays poorly. I thought by now I could retire and try to find some peace in solitude or traveling. But I lost my life savings so here I am again living from paycheck to paycheck. Suicide is also my retirement plan. In a way, I'm very grateful for being deeply suicidal as I couldn't otherwise afford to get old and still be around.

How did you lose your savings?

I tried to help out a friend. I opened a business with him--and spent a small fortune on legal contracts to protect myself... He met a woman who convinced him I was dead weight. All of the money invested in the company was mine, over $260K. When my partner's girlfriend became pregnant with his child, he liquidated everything in our warehouse and emptied our company bank accounts to care for his family and soon-to-be-born child. I was living in a dump in the middle of nowhere Illinois, but they had a luxurious 4-bedroom house... Despite my having a solid legal contract dissolving his interests in the company in the event of financial theft from the company or his failure to pay on the promissory note for his share of the company--along with a professional bookkeeping firm's records of company theft, neither the police nor the state attorney general wanted to get involved. As a result, I could only pursue the matter in civil court. I won, but in the US a civil judgement is worthless unless the sued party has clear assets. This man hid all his assets and put the house he bought with my money in the name of his girlfriend. Long story short, I got not a penny back even after paying more than $20K in legal fees. I can claim the loss on my taxes but I don't make enough for that to matter. So I've lost my life savings.

Moral of story: if you're a chump like me, don't trust other people. Especially the government that doesn't give a damn about whether you live or die.

I'm so sorry man

Sounds a lot better in the US

I kind of don't understand how disability works in the US, despite living there

I think a lot of it could possibly be kept sort of quiet because they don't want to ruffle feathers

I work full time for one of the biggest Airlines in the world, the job is ok but I hate the company I work for with a passion, this doesn't help with my dark thoughts when I'm faced with starting a 7 day shift pattern, getting through the day is so hard when an obvious escape from it all is right in front of me at work but I haven't got the guts to do it at the moment.

What's the obvious escape?

I don't. I've been diagnosed with several mental disorders and recieve disability due to tbem.

It's incredibly frustrating because I do want to work. Sitting at home, alone, doing nothing is making my mental health even worse.

If I was able to find some kind of work that I could do I'd at least feel better about myself and maybe have some kind of self esteem and could maybe use it as a steppingstone to get out my depression.

I could probably be cool with being on disability, reading and stuff all day

I would probably get too worn down facing my family or perhaps old friends if they were judgemental though

And at this point maybe I'd be too paranoid to do that without feeling like someone was going to crack down on me for enjoying myself too much without working (whether or not anybody actually noticed)

 

[sickInsominic42]

I wish I could work. I miss it so much. But unfortunately I'm stuck in bed all day everyday unless I'm going to the drs office. I receive a really low amount of disability benefits.

 

[highlyvolatile]

I am unemployed but looking for a job so I can get what I need to ctb.

 

[itstimeforexit]

I didnt work for 3 yrs now

 

[dlee]

Just wondering if people on here hold a job or unable to work or on benefits etc.
If you work what kind of job do you do and if on benefits is it jobseekers or disability?
I've been out of work for 4 years on disability benefits for depression, it's barely enough to get by.

I am in so much pain i can barely get through each day of work, .. like it takes all my strength to get through the day without just breaking down.. im sure its affected my performance and i call out sick alot because i just cant make it somedays so i feel like ill probably be let go soon too... its just another source of pain in an agonizing existence

 

[lotus11]

been out of work the past few months, been trying to get a job for months, done hundreds of applications but nobody will accept me