Do you work or not

[Sixfeetunder]

A part-time one. I could not imagine working full-time.

 

[Deleted member 1768]

I am sorry you are going through this. I read your reply to another user about why you might loose the disability benefits..thats awful. I wonder if i should even bother applying for disability. I know they will fill out some residual functioning capacity form and see if there is any other work I can do if I cant return to my previous job (which i cant) no way Ill ever work in customer service again. Im not mentally ready to find a job either..its scary. Most of the jobs that I can think of that dont require customer interaction require either a degree or the ability to do heavy lifting, I can do neither. Cleaning is about the only thing I can think of..plus i dont know how ill clean with the pain im in

What about writing? There are a number of online papers always looking for new writers. That is what I do. Have not been employed since the cancer...2015.

 

[Deleted member 1768]

Anyone thought about making money online? Like starting a blog and making money with affiliate marketing. Some people do this full time and make good money from home. Thats what im trying to do right now

Blog sounds even better...how do you set it up Snow? Any links? Thank you.

 

[Leafs1201]

I work full time for one of the biggest Airlines in the world, the job is ok but I hate the company I work for with a passion, this doesn't help with my dark thoughts when I'm faced with starting a 7 day shift pattern, getting through the day is so hard when an obvious escape from it all is right in front of me at work but I haven't got the guts to do it at the moment.

 

[meaningisgone]

This area of life is one of my biggest stressors. 90% or so of my jobs, I walked out on or stopped going due to anxiety and depression (that's my attempt to explain why, but it's always seemed more elusive and complicated than that). I had a lot of jobs I only lasted a couple weeks or less, in some cases one or two days. My most recent job lasted the longest; I was there for two and a half years. It was super easy for me (I was a writing tutor at a college), but I only worked 15 hours a week so I wasn't exactly self-sufficient. I've never truly been self-sufficient and at this point I have no faith in my ability to do so. At this point I wouldn't even be able to go back to tutoring (first of all I burned the bridge rather dramatically with my former employer, and secondly my social anxiety and depression have gotten so bad that I can barely even go outside most of the time). I tried applying for SSI, but the judge didn't buy into the severity of what I am going through and I should have appealed probably but my lawyer didn't advise me to, and my voice and will are so weak on their own. My mom wants me to re-file for SSI, but considering how long it took the first time, I don't think I can even survive long enough to follow it through. I don't want to know what life will look like after fifteen more months on this path.

 

[Worthless_nobody]

What about writing? There are a number of online papers always looking for new writers. That is what I do. Have not been employed since the cancer...2015.

I had actually never thought of that before. You know I always did like writing. Do they require experience or do you think they would give a new comer a chance? I'm curious now. If I ever was able to get a writing job I would have to fix my bad grammar/punctuation haha as I have kinda given up and don't try much anymore

 

[deflagrat]

I am on dissability and in theory they shouldn't change it unless I am much better (according to my social worker) which is never going to happen so I should be fine. Besides, I read on the newspaper that only 20 % of people with schizophrenia don't have any kind of dissability benefits, which means getting benefits with schizophrenia is easy. I got them on my first try and without a lawyer (I didn't even tell them all my problems, because they were the ones who asked questions). 5 % of people with schizophrenia have really high % of dissability, which means even more money. This is the reason why I think my schizophrenia is a blessing in disguise.

People are very understanding when I tell them that I hear voices 24 / 7 even with antipsychotics. I have to take an absurd amount of APs to eliminate the voices and doing that makes me so slow that working would be out of the question (and my quality of life would be severely reduced).

 

[Deleted member 1768]

I had actually never thought of that before. You know I always did like writing. Do they require experience or do you think they would give a new comer a chance? I'm curious now. If I ever was able to get a writing job I would have to fix my bad grammar/punctuation haha as I have kinda given up and don't try much anymore

Rebel/Tyee/Rabble and many more. Starts off slow but I know 2 people living off the amounts they make...one very well.

 

[snowman626]

Blog sounds even better...how do you set it up Snow? Any links? Thank you.

I recommend you look up "wealthy affiliate" which is a training program that teaches people how to build a profitable blog. they give you training, tools, classrooms, and a bunch of other stuff.

they let you access the platform for free, but some features are limited unless you upgrade to premium which cost $49/month. Im currently paying $25 a month through a yearly discount. premium includes website building, monthly hosting, access to full training and tools.

Making money with a blog takes a lot of time though, at least 6-12 months to start seeing any serious income. but one feature of wealthy affiliate is their comment exchange system where you can earn real money by commenting on people's websites. basically members write comments for each other's blogs, this benefits the website's ranking on google, each comment you write earns you $0.25. So if you're able to write 80 comments a day that'll give you $600 a month. It'll take a lot of time to write that many comments, but for people without any other way of earning income maybe this is worth considering.

 

[ScottPilgram]

I work in a kitchen washing dishes. I hate the job but the majority of people are great. Problem is I'm not good with people. Everything I do or say makes me panic so bad I get physically sick. It's very hard for me to function, I don't know how I function.

 

[21Neberg]

I do voluntary work with the elderly in my hometown, it's nice.

 

[Midnight]

Started at 18 and haven't been a day without a job since (early 30's now). Every day i hate life and work a little bit more. Why do i even bother.

 

[Trulysorry]

I've worked in an office job most of my life. Good benefits etc.. but its eating my soul. Everyday it gets harder to get up out of bed and maintain this charade.

 

[favourite]

I work retail. I hate it so much.

Me too. Ive got useless M.A. degree and besides I'm too stupid and without real skills to do anything else.
But I work in a bookstore, so I can look down on people working in fashion stores and feel better, lol. (I dont, but some actually do it).

 

[Chlo]

Not for eight months. I have no degree, so usually fall back to customer service or serving jobs, which do not suit my personality at all...can really only ever keep a job for a few months, max. My brother is being fully supported by my mother as he's schizophrenic and unable to work, so the last thing she wants to hear is about my depression and anxiety. There is no easy way out.

 

[FaceOf]

For now I have work but soon they'll kick me out. Wanna ctb before this situation

 

[Thisisme373]

For now I have work but soon they'll kick me out. Wanna ctb before this situation

What do you do? How do you know they gonna kick you out?

 

[TooLate2582]

I work FT and then I also do side jobs on my time, as needed or wanted.

 

[FaceOf]

What do you do? How do you know they gonna kick you out?

To be honest I don't do anything. In autumn I had problems with my ex.boss and I moved in other department. I read all day this forum lol

 

[Thisisme373]

To be honest I don't do anything. In autumn I had problems with my ex.boss and I moved in other department. I read all day this forum lol

So you work in admin or something? Are the bosses moaning at you

 

[dandan]

I work in Testing, used to do programming but im to fucked up to program anymore, now in Automation, and I just did a workshop and im to fucked up to continue.
I am thinking and praying I can get 1 day off this week , I live in Mexico, I want to go out to little towns near the city to look to buy N.
I plan on paying large amount of $ just to buy N, but it is not as easy as they say, because the Law has more regulations on N.

I could empty my bank account just for couple of bottles of N.

 

[lululoo]

I work but it is killing my soul and my body. I need to get out of here or CBT really soon. There is no job I can be okay with long term that also pays enough. But if I'm going to stick around in this world even another few months I need to either quit or find something else. I want something part time and work from home though. So slim pickings.

I really don't know what to do. I want to die but I hate it being driven at all by the crappy work world.

At this point I can't stand it here at all. Also it's making me get fatter and fatter because I am so miserable here I just eat all day from the snack cabinet. Then I can't fit in my work clothes and life gets even harder.

If I had a husband or loving parents I would not have to be working right now. It's torture.

Why don't I just quit right now? Because I am spineless. I'm afraid I won't go through with CBT and then I'll be screwed and wish I had found another job before quitting this one.

 

[favourite]

I work but it is killing my soul and my body. I need to get out of here or CBT really soon. There is no job I can be okay with long term that also pays enough. But if I'm going to stick around in this world even another few months I need to either quit or find something else. I want something part time and work from home though. So slim pickings.

I really don't know what to do. I want to die but I hate it being driven at all by the crappy work world.

At this point I can't stand it here at all. Also it's making me get fatter and fatter because I am so miserable here I just eat all day from the snack cabinet. Then I can't fit in my work clothes and life gets even harder.

If I had a husband or loving parents I would not have to be working right now. It's torture.

Why don't I just quit right now? Because I am spineless. I'm afraid I won't go through with CBT and then I'll be screwed and wish I had found another job before quitting this one.

Wish us both the strength to change our ordeal and find something better.

 

[Moth]

I don't work, I'm on disability . Due to my plethora of mental illnesses, and frequent hospital trips, I'm regarded as too unstable to have a job.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

no way Ill ever work in customer service again.

AMEN! I cannot fathom how people do CS jobs. Even as bitter and used up as I am, whenever I'm in ANY store (mechanics, grocer's, post office...) I try hard to be friendly and appreciative of the staff--especially those waiting on people--because I'm in awe that they can even stand there doing what they do for hours... and then repeat it day after day after... I notice how rude and dismissive and even derogatory many customers are. The emotional issues of being suicidal would make tolerating that nearly impossible. Add in the paltry pay many make and it's enough to make you join the calls for a revolution...

 

[wishfulthinking]

Anyone thought about making money online? Like starting a blog and making money with affiliate marketing. Some people do this full time and make good money from home. Thats what im trying to do right now

Same here. That's my only option at the moment.

 

[J.E. Morrow]

I'm a bank teller, not exactly what I was expecting when I finished college but it was the only job I could get. That's one of my main reasons to ctb, I'm very disappointed with myself and I know my parents are too.

 

[Crazy I]

Im unemployed right now, used to be an intern at my university but got fired bcs i havent finished my study. Though my boss offered me a job when i finish my study. But tbh i just want to end all of this now and abandon my study one way or another.

 

[GeorgeEastman]

I work, and I believe people knowing I think about killing myself so much is quite helpful.

It freaks them out and scares them away. I need to use it more. Living still isn't worth it, but it's better when people are too scared to try to talk to me.

 

[Logic]

I am sick of where I work/always having to follow these damn protocols, the ego sucking , but the money is way too much too stop.

Btw if you ever have a medical emergency in America including if it's just to stitch your eyebrow-fly to Canada it will be much cheaper.