Do you wish that you could live or would you choose death over everything

[wanttodie]

choose death over everything

 

[TheManIllNeverBe]

I would prefer to live if I could, I just don't see a path out from the damage from the pile of psych meds I've been on over the years. At least one that doesn't take a lot longer than I'm willing to invest. I don't want to be an old man by the time my mind has healed. Would rather just not be here. I've already fought so hard and just don't have much fight left in me.

 

[want2dienow]

i dont think my choice matters to anyone either way

 

[fastFWD]

def don't want to live. I've been tired for a very long time. time has been cruel and I can't take any more of the fading that keeps occurring around me. i don't want to get sick anymore or get any older. not much time left now. it'll all be over soon.

 

[Jrmull1993]

If I was born 150-200 years ago I'd probably fit in to this world better, and wouldn't be looking to exit early.

I'm certainly not compatible with the world we have today.

 

[Arrow]

i dunno man i just wish i had way more fucking money. 99% of my problems would vanish if i did.

 

[☆AwaitingEntropy☆]

It depends. Sometimes there are times where I see the small beauties in life, and those can be enough to hold on to, for a bit. But, the very structure of the world is so cruel and painful that momentary respites are just that. For me to be truly happy and satisfied with life, the cruelty of the world would have to be reformed and eliminated, and that simply isn't going to happen.

 

[AliceTheGoon]

I'd give anything to reverse my degenerative condition and return to health. I want my life back.

 

[Euthanza]

I choose death on my own terms. If I choose to live then it's not real me anymore.

Live. 100%. The world we live in - with that I mean the planet, the natural world, we as humans are, in theory, as much part of as any other animal (humans are animals too) - is beautiful. It's wonders never cease to amaze, excite and fill me with pure, deep, real joy. The colours of the sunset; the first warm sun rays felt on the skin of the face; floating in the ocean; the smell of spring in the air; the force of a thunderstorm; the view from the top of a mountain when nobody else is around....

None of this has anything to do or is to blame for all the bad things in the human world we live in; the world and societies humans have created and the pains that come with it. It's a paradox that there is so much beauty and so much ugliness out there in this world at the same time, which can make the original question to this thread more difficult to answer.

Animals life (except cats and dogs who get euthanasia) are worse actually, but I understand your admiration.

 

[PressEnterToExit]

In my case, I could never ever want to live no matter what. Even if I could change many things about my life I would still prefer non existence. I think that overall I could never see life as being worth living. Life is tedious and pointless but can also be so horrifying. I have no interest in a 'better' life, I think that being suicidal is seeing the world for what it really is and it's perfectly rational wanting to leave. The thought of death is very comforting and I think that for me to die as soon as possible would be the best thing.

As I have mentioned many times I believe death to be peaceful nonexistence, an eternal dreamless sleep free from everything. This to me is absolutely ideal. Life is unpredictable and uncertain and things can always get much worse if we stay alive. The extreme possibilities for suffering mean that living could never be desirable. I know that I am meant for suicide but it's just not easy to get there. I have never belonged in a world as cruel as this and I know that I deserve better than this life, I deserve to die peacefully

I agree totally. Sometimes I've got the feeling that life is some kind of cruel game where only suicidal people win. That makes a lot of sense to me, because I see absolutely everybody like delusional and not really happy. So belong to this world must be a wrong thing, some kind of torture, silent for many. Nobody is really happy, no matter how they look, how much money they have, whatever.. it looks like life is designed to keep people unhappy, and some more unhappy even (us).

 

[Alnilam]

I wish I could live without pain. I have faith that the afterlife will at least grant me that.

 

[gomenasai]

I see all life as unnecessary, where justice for everyone can never prevail. Someone will always have it worse than others in terms of luck, health, life circumstances... It's a giant zoo. There is too much room for unprecedented suffering.

 

[PressEnterToExit]

what wonders amaze you exactly the cosmos if so then it's just a bunch of atoms nothing amazing about it, is it beautiful to be a cow or a pig or a sheep i mean who would want to enslaved in that awful shit, there's nothing here that amaze me especially with considering how slow everything is just look at how shitty our computers are can't even simulate a single atom thats how shit they are, i would need infinite computational power to be amazed.

Drift velocity, the average speed at which electrons travel in a conductor when subjected to an electric field, is about 1mm per second.
It's the electromagnetic wave rippling through the electrons that propagates at close to the speed of light.

calculation shows that the electron is traveling at about 2,200 kilometers per second.
That's less than 1% of the speed of light, but it's fast enough

2,200 kilometers to meters equals 2200000 meters

2200 kilometers to nanometers
2.2e+15
22,000,000,000,000

6,250,000,000,000,000,000 electrons per second for a amp
2,200,000,000,000,000
2,200,000
2,200,000,000*1000
1000 millimeters in 1 meter
2,200,000,000,000,000 * 1,000,000 1 million because 1 nm equal 1 milion
Electrons Can Travel Over 100 Times Faster In Graphene Than In Silicon, Physicists Show
220,000,000,000,000,000 2,200,000,000,000,000*100


If you could travel at the speed of light, you could go around the Earth 7.5 times in one second

300,000,000,000,000,000 nanometers
2,200,000,000,000,000 electron

die size
192 mm²

192,000,000*192,000,000

36,864,000,000,000,000 nm

300,000,000,000,000,000/192,000,000
2,200,000,000,000,000/192,000,000

stright line
lights can travle from one end to the another 1,562,500,000 times per second

electrons can travle from one end to the another 11,458,333 times per second

It's good to see that you have interests. What about being a dog or a cat? I think animals in general have a very sad expression at all times, even when they are excited. Just imagine that they don't allow you to have sex and you have to be inside a house the rest of your life... I think it's better to be a chicken, their end is nearer.

I'd always choose death. I'm suicidal, but I'm not really depressed. I view myself being suicidal as "rational (for lack of a better word)". It's not caused by depression, my environment, or the circumstances of my life. I wasn't dealt a bad hand. I simply do not see any meaning in living. Even if I had a different life, like being extremely rich or talented, I think I'd still be suicidal.

The only reason why I'm still alive right now is because I'm a coward.

You say that because you think you could be extremely talented at something right

 

[Ticket 2 Heaven]

If i could be handsome and perfectly healthy. I would choose life. But i am ugly and diseased and live a miserable existence.

 

[Darkover]

It's good to see that you have interests. What about being a dog or a cat? I think animals in general have a very sad expression at all times, even when they are excited. Just imagine that they don't allow you to have sex and you have to be inside a house the rest of your life... I think it's better to be a chicken, their end is nearer.

why would anyone want to be a animal i mean there low intelligence machines not something that would interested me in being, i know what you mean being an anmial sucks so being closer to death is always better than being far away from it, i hate life tho needing to eat all the time really is the most annoying thing i'd hate to be a shark or bear or lion or a monkey.

 

[PressEnterToExit]

why would anyone want to be a animal i mean there low intelligence machines not something that would interested me in being, i know what you mean being an anmial sucks so being closer to death is always better than being far away from it, i hate life tho needing to eat all the time really is the most annoying thing i'd hate to be a shark or bear or lion or a monkey.

Yeah I totally can relate about the eating thing. I'm a boy am supposed to be strong and always been skinny. If I wanna get bigger I have to eat like a pig is so digusting...... Eating per se is a big problem.

 

[Tomoko]

I want to live *longer*, but I don't ever want to see age 30. Wish I could have at least made it to 27 though. Maybe theres still a pinch of time for things to pan out for dragging on? Not likely though, hence why I am preparing to kill myself, lol.

 

[PressEnterToExit]

I want to live *longer*, but I don't ever want to see age 30. Wish I could have at least made it to 27 though. Maybe theres still a pinch of time for things to pan out for dragging on? Not likely though, hence why I am preparing to kill myself, lol.

27 is the right time. You start to die inside seriously apart from that age I'm 28 now. My mindset when I was your age was pretty much the same you have.

 

[SarRy]

Philosophically, I can understand the argument that life is futile. Personally, I can't see any life for me that would be satisfactory. But, there are people who are happy and enjoy living. I would not discount that or try to take that away from them. It's a matter of taste at some point. Sometimes, it's enough to feel good. If I was a different person, then maybe living would be fine for me. Still, I can only be me.

 

[Silent.Tears]

After all that I've seen, experienced and felt, Death please..