Was there a time in your life that you can remember , a time when things were in your favor? If so, do you want that life back?
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Bootleg Astolfo
Glorious Bean Plushie
- Oct 12, 2020
- 833
aneurysm
Mage
- Jan 27, 2019
- 584
I never had a life to begin with, but I miss watching animes late at night comfy in my bed when I was ten... or reading silly teen magazines/book after school. Those were the days, I can't believe I took them for granted.
aminend
Warlock
- May 24, 2020
- 746
Yes. I miss those days. This is my ideal consequence of Ctb
Into The Void
Student
- Mar 10, 2021
- 196
I would give my left hand if I could go back in time with the foreknowledge I have RN.
lofticries
obedear
- Feb 27, 2021
- 1,470
Hmm,no not really. I've pretty much always been insecure and afraid. I do wish I would have gotten a long standing hobby though.
I think I had a bit more hope when I was younger that I would do a 180 one day. Then as I got a bit older I became more frustrated that I wasn't like everyone else which I took out on myself daily. But now I'm more content (I mean I still hate myself but in an accepting way if that makes any sense) and have decided to just change the things that I have within my power to change and just leave the things that I can't. In a sense salvage what I can of my dignity and try not to pay attention to other ppls supposedly better lives. So I guess I'm neither better or worse than I was in the past. Because in the past I had hope but also hatred.
I think I had a bit more hope when I was younger that I would do a 180 one day. Then as I got a bit older I became more frustrated that I wasn't like everyone else which I took out on myself daily. But now I'm more content (I mean I still hate myself but in an accepting way if that makes any sense) and have decided to just change the things that I have within my power to change and just leave the things that I can't. In a sense salvage what I can of my dignity and try not to pay attention to other ppls supposedly better lives. So I guess I'm neither better or worse than I was in the past. Because in the past I had hope but also hatred.
BeansOfRequirement
Man-child, loser, autistic, etc.
- Jan 26, 2021
- 5,789
Having a bright future and not being incel af? Sigma male instead of omega? Yes please, gimmie that back!
Heavens YES!! I would like to go back before my car crash and the 24/7 chronic pain. Also being 65 years young, if I went back, maybe just maybe I could find someone to share this "interesting" life with. 65, broke, all the time blinding pain, no friends or family, gee can it get any better? Yes, I would take my chances and have a do over, could not be any worse than now. Walter
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I was a happy kid but I dont wish to go back. I was only happy then bc I was lacking sensitivity to see the world for what it really is. I used to spend all day playing with my friends after school. all kids in the neighborhood pretty much. They all managed to somehow shape into adulthood. Im a failure to launch.
Fragile
Broken
- Jul 7, 2019
- 1,496
I just don't want any of this life, the only times when I've been content were the times when I was just drowning my memories and pains with any new pleasure that I could find. But it faded so quickly, and left me so empty.
Looking back, I can say without question that I've never had a happy memory, or a place that I would want to go back to, everything just turned sour and left me even more broken in body and mind.
And I think that that's the most honest I've been in my life.
Looking back, I can say without question that I've never had a happy memory, or a place that I would want to go back to, everything just turned sour and left me even more broken in body and mind.
And I think that that's the most honest I've been in my life.
Yes. I miss my old life a lot. This is hell.
Nevn
Member
- Dec 23, 2020
- 11
Honestly, not really. Though if I could I'd love to get some of my youth back. I spent my whole life being abused, but my 20s was taken away from me completely. I almost was never allowed to leave the house. Now I've hit my early thirties and I feel like a washed up old hag. Haha, so I suppose if I could go back in time and relive my 20s and make different decisions yes. If not, screw that. I don't want to live through that again.
Lupgevif
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- Jul 23, 2020
- 928
Not really. Looking back, my old days are the reason I am where I am right now.
Aloken
I choose love
- Jan 25, 2021
- 280
Definitely. I would give anything to go back in time in early 2020 with the knowledge I have now, but without all the trauma and anxiety. My life is destroyed, it will never
be the same and I will never be happy again.
be the same and I will never be happy again.
Aloken
I choose love
- Jan 25, 2021
- 280
Yes. But it doesn't matter at all. In quality it's like 5-10 years have passed, you wouldn't believe it
Breakout92
Student
- Mar 10, 2021
- 107
Oops, I replied to the wrong post.
There was a time when I was happier. I like looking at how big my smile was back before I was a teenager. I wish I could have that back.
There was a time when I was happier. I like looking at how big my smile was back before I was a teenager. I wish I could have that back.
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For sure ! I wish i could go back. I tried to CTB, But it backfired. Hanging, a rope tied to a belt, halfway the belt snapped, i had markings on my neck, and my ears were ringing, and a soar neck.. I was diagnosed with a lifelong illness, and im not gonna live my life like this. I used to be an Alpha Male, i cant accept the weak version of myself.
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I want my old life back so bad it tortures the ever living shit out of me. There is no point in living if I have to live in the misery that I live in.
thank you for your input. I am glad to hear that some of you had lives that were good-ish, one can use it as a refrence of where one would like to be.
I am not saying you will be able to get your old life back, what i am saying is that you dont look at other peoples lives, and wanting their lives, you want to be you. Even with my health issues, i had good-times. I look at photos and videos of my travels, and i want to be that guy again, easier said than done, but it is a reference, i can dream about it.
Yesss, give me back my middle 20s please!
I was slim, had lots of girls, less money but some money in the end, was more mentally stable, had more energy, went out every weekend and got drunk AF, was taking no meds, etc.
I was slim, had lots of girls, less money but some money in the end, was more mentally stable, had more energy, went out every weekend and got drunk AF, was taking no meds, etc.
killedbypsychiatry
drugging kids is abuse
- Jan 27, 2021
- 797
I want my old life back so so bad it tortures me. My life went from one I loved so much to a living nightmare. I don't want to keep living this nightmare it's so so painful. And it's also very painful to still have the memories of all I've lost thanks to a stupid drug I didn't even wanted to take
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nolongerhuman
Arcanist
- Feb 9, 2021
- 497
I distantly remember a time in my life when I wasn't very mentally ill and was in fact very happy and optimistic. I was a small child. I actually remember learning about suicide back then and wondering why anyone would ever want to do that. I don't really wish I was 8 again but I'd like to experience that sense of well-being just one more time.
i agree with you on the "one more time", then I will not take it for granted, and I will know how precious a good life is.
WaterHemlock
Student
- Dec 18, 2019
- 112
Yes, I do want my old life back. I complained, I didn't appreciate it. When I started to understand I was having cognitive problems related to M.S., I thought, well this is horrible. But I have my house, my garden, my husband. I can live the rest of my life in this safe space, even though it's not perfect. Even though there are things that aren't ideal. But now, my husband wants a divorce, I don't know where I can live and I don't know where I'll find a garden. Even though I thought of ctb in the situation I WAS in, I never stopped to count my blessings, to appreciate what I did have until those things were gone.
