Do you truly feel there is no turning back?

[death137]

I feel even if a miracle happens and I become mentally stable, suicide is still inevitable. In the past 4-5 years I've became so self destructive that my future is doomed. I've given away my dream. But the reality is I won't even become mentally stable and when you add the darkness of my future suicide becomes even more inevitable. I'm just waiting my planned date.

 

[Deardaddy]

I wish. But the world's stigmas too strong. I do not know but it is like a flip of coin . If I live in darkness all the time can u give me one good reason no to ctb. Please don't tell me abt loved ones blanbla bla . It's the primary reason I like to ctb.

 

[Xiaomi]

I am 100 percent sure I will die by suicide.

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

I have known for 37 years that I will not die of old age. Since the middle of March I also know what day it will be and have not doubted it for a second since then.

There is only one way that I would still postpone ctb.

If I won enough money in the lottery to start an euthanasia organization to support everyone with their ctb. Regardless of his age or health, as long as he can understand what ctb means.

Those who are rich should donate something for it, those who are poor are sponsored.

So that the misery with the pro-life idiots finally comes to an end. It's just a dream sadly, but the only reason I would postpone.

 

[stillweary]

I think it can get to that point. I may be there now. I used to think about suicide when I was deeply depressed, but now, suicidal thoughts and methods just bring me a deep sense of contentment.

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

I think it can get to that point. I may be there now. I used to think about suicide when I was deeply depressed, but now, suicidal thoughts and methods just bring me a deep sense of contentment.

The wonderful feeling of satisfaction when you have found the emergency exit and know that the suffering can soon come to an end.

I call it happiness

 

[Lupgevif]

I could turn back. But so many unlikely conditions should be met, so it's never really happening. Mind you, I'm not talking about life-changing miracles, these conditions are realistic and possible, I just don't think I have what it takes + life won't allow it (like it hasn't for years now).

 

[BPD Barbie]

There is so much I'd need to achieve and do in order to have some sort of normality, not including having stable bipolar and borderline which just feels so unlikely. I'd love to think there is a way out for me, but I've thought about it time and time and time again and the conclusion is always the same; I have to commit suicide.

 

[alexit]

I feel even if a miracle happens and I become mentally stable, suicide is still inevitable. In the past 4-5 years I've became so self destructive that my future is doomed. I've given away my dream. But the reality is I won't even become mentally stable and when you add the darkness of my future suicide becomes even more inevitable. I'm just waiting my planned date.

Could my life standard be better? Sure. But I'm fucked beyond repair.

 

[AlreadyGone]

Yeah. At this point, I simply do not believe that my life will go in the direction that I wanted it to go. I tried for 20 years to mold my life into a life I wanted and at this point, I just give up. I am simply not motivated anymore to attempt to make improvements.

 

[VIBRITANNIA]

theoretically, i could turn back, but i don't like the thought of living as just another cog in the machine. i can't even imagine it, much less being truly happy.